MAGIK!

REMEMBER: YOU ARE A MONSTER TOO.

[belayadyavol]

if i am not the sword, a private, mutuals only interp of illyana rasputina. headcanon driven &&. canon divergent. by carcass, it/its, twenty3. minors &&. personal blogs dni. ...then who am i?

* sideblog. * playlist. * board. * andi.

( affiliates ) ... scott. jubilee ( ♡ ).

01. mutuals only, heavily selective. blogs i don't see myself, or illyana, interacting with will be hard-blocked to avoid any confusion that soft-blocking may bring. this is not personal, please do not take offence and please hard-block me if you'd rather me not follow as i have incredibly poor memory and may mistakenly refollow - the same goes for if you want to break mutuals. curate your space how you see fit. i will unfollow after a few days with no follow back (if your blog is active) to avoid accidentally interacting with your posts.

02. sporadic activity, low effort. this is a hobby and not a job. the motivation to write comes and goes, so please don't prod for replies or starters. however, i am always open for plotting through ims. i do have discord, which i rarely give out unless we've been frequently chatting on tumblr.

03. do not follow if you're below the age of 20. it's shrimply a personal preference. general dnf criteria that should be well known by now: bigots, transphobes, racists, zionists, antisemites etcetera are not welcome here. i don't care for petty drama, if i'm interacting with someone genuinely harmful please let me know. i do not support generative ai, don't interact with me if you use it for writing/graphics etc. i have my own personal list of media's i have no interest in interacting with, nor listing here. blogs with no alias/age listed anywhere will also not be followed.

04. there will be mature, potentially triggering topics present on this blog. including, but not limited to, gore, violence, torture, mentions of sa and body horror -- all we be tagged as ' / trigger tw. ' if this is not for you, please feel free to block. if you need anything specific tagging / if i forget to tag something please do approach me.

05. when it comes to actual writing, i tend to lean heavily towards second person, though will do the occasional third if the inspo hits. if i start a thread in one, it won't be changed halfway through. formatting is pretty basic. unlikely to use small text, it will really just be bold and italics. the occasional icon may be used but who knows. sometimes i go through periods where i struggle to write, but still enjoy plotting / posting hcs. if you prefer ic writing over plotting this may not be the blog for you.

06. i follow the illyana &&. storm comics for her origin, but everything else is kind of cherrypicked to suit my portrayal of illyana. some things will be reworked as i reread comics and see what i like and what i don't. though one change i do have is that - for now - she still rules over limbo, and she didn't give up the throne to madelyne pryor. i portray illyana as a lesbian also, so please respect that. duplicate friendly!! there are so many fun plots to explore for duplicate yana's. but i won't follow first to avoid making anyone uncomfortable!

ABOUT THE MUN! carcass, twenty-three, it/its. a lesbian and simple creature who shrimply adores strong, sword - wielding women!

[belayadyavol]

NEW YANA SKIN!!!!!!

[belayadyavol]

#belayadyavol. i've fought this fight my whole life. which is why i know this: we can't win. but it's never been about winning. just trying to keep from losing for as long as possible. that's all we've got; so that's what i fight for.

[belayadyavol]

idk what it is but scott and yana rlly have been on my brain recently

[belayadyavol]

i need scott and yana to have this as a team up

[skyrigel]

ever since i was a little girl i knew there was no hope for me

[belayadyavol]

and if i said yana still frequently buys plushies

[standupandsaveyourself]

and what if i am unlovable. what then

[zachrp]

ᝰ🚬 𝚉𝙰𝙲𝙷𝚁𝙿 .ᐟ ANORA (2023) PROMPTS. CHANGE ANY PRONOUNS IF NECESSARY. SOME MATURE THEMES MAY BE PRESENT.

you're going to prison.

every single day you're doing better and better.

well, i'm gonna miss you.

who gave you permission?

i hope you had fun this week.

pleased to meet you.

oh, no, i am not going fucking anywhere.

they fucking do this every day.

i'll be there in ten minutes.

he just called me a hooker?

i've been working since i'm 16 years old.

well, i'm his fucking wife, so i do think i have a say in it.

yo, what do you want?

do you still talk to your family?

can you shut the fuck up, please?

shame on you!

now get the fuck out of my house.

yeah, i'm not interested in conversation, dude.

why did you bring that?

you work in a cool place.

can i sit in the front?

this car is very you.

in fact, i think i'm probably already pregnant.

you fucking bitch, you broke my nose!

it's nice to come back.

we have to talk.

he's probably not lost, perhaps he is kidnapped.

i don't even know what is going on here.

let's go apeshit on this fucking casino.

it is now my great honor

this is a real marriage, and i'm not getting a divorce.

bitch, don't die on the job.

you guys can just, like, eat whatever the fuck you want.

you hit the lotto, bitch.

bedroom's upstairs. let's go.

what do you know about driving? what do you know?

he came out of the bathroom one time, and he didn't zip up his fucking pants.

so you want to get married to me, you want me to be your little wifey?

i have shit to do, okay?

you fucking asked for this.

fucking psycho. fucking untie me.

i don't want to fucking sit next to you. i'm not getting back there with you.

do they know you do this?

what? are you making fun of me?

if you don't stop, i will tie you up!

very cozy, right?

you're not tying me up, motherfucker!

i'm not a fucking prostitute, you fucking piece of shit.

you are fucking pathetic, man.

did you pick up milk?

you are the fucking best.

is everything okay?

what's wrong with you? look at me.

chill out and come here, you know?

i am gonna fucking tell him.

you want to go to the atm right now?

mm.. don't fuck around.

your parents are on their way!

get the fuck away from me, please.

mm, so welcome to my humble abode.

oh, my god, we're gonna get into a fucking car accident with you driving like that.

you're a hard worker?

she threw the candlestick at me.

you like that?

no, i am not giving you my phone.

can i have some privacy, please?

where are you going?

i got it, i'm already embarrassed.

i love my husband, and i plan on being with him forever.

you want to talk about it now?

what the fuck are you waiting for?

you don't have cash? let's go to the atm.

can you fucking tell this guy to untie me?

baby, this is very important.

i'm just gonna go chill in my mansion or whatever.

i need your phone for one second.

what the fuck are you doing?

you want to put this on?

you're funny.

what, you afraid of this little girl?

my parents are fucking crazy!

these fucking guys don't know their place.

yeah, your family is fucking trash.

are you the boss? you're the fucking boss?

what are you doing? don't do that.

this is not allowed, but i like you.

wait, are you leaving?

oh, stay jealous, babe.

who the fuck is this guy?

i don't see anyone.

parents usually want their kids to get married.

i don't know who that is.

you're going to cost me my job here. please.

i don't check in on you for two weeks and you go and marry a prostitute!

okay, i need you to cooperate. i'm begging you.

just shut the fuck up.

what the fuck is wrong with you?

i'm having a party, new year's party, and you have to come.

i might have to work that night.

whoo! i fucking love that place.

i think she broke my nose.

yes, let's get married.

it's fucking cold.

who's the birthday boy?

turn on the music!

he wanted to get married, he put a fucking ring on my finger.

why are you being rude?

oh, i think i love you.

we're two grown men here. are you out of your mind?

so, what are you looking for?

i helped you find him, so let me fucking talk to him.

do you want to blow us up?

you want to take your clothes off?

get the fuck out of my fucking face.

expecting guests?

we are having a family discussion.

does your family know you're here?

get the fuck off me!

it's like, if you can't zip up your fucking pants after you take a piss, i don't trust you with the music.

you are beautiful.

do not fucking touch me!

are you fucking kidding me?

you'll get cold if you don't cover your neck.

i'm trying here, asshole.

i bet you like this, huh?

would you want to be exclusive with me?

they can't just fucking come in here like that.

don't people get married in vegas?

we are married. they're gonna have to accept that.

yes, we married and we're doing fucking great!

where is your phone? can you please give me your phone?

excuse me, i have to get dressed.

this is good news, right?

what? did you not hear what i said?

you calm now? you gonna behave?

you waiting for someone else?

slow down, you'll break my leg.

are you stupid?

he was really weird.

when will we meet your parents?

are you suicidal or something?

don't fucking tease me with that shit, okay?

are you happy?

are you killing her?

well, i can't spend too much.

yesterday was my birthday.

how am i gonna get rid of this smell? huh?

no, i'm not going anywhere.

do you like it?

do you see this shit?

you do not love him, and he doesn't love you. you understand? that's in your head.

you've been bitching and moaning this entire fucking car ride about a little fucking scratch on your face.

did i ask for your fucking opinion?

you can touch me. it's okay.

i'm glad i broke your fucking nose!

fuck this shit. i didn't sign up for this.

we're leaving. you good?

you're killing me.

why do i always have to repeat myself with you?

you're in big trouble, brother!

you're the biggest fucking pussy i ever met.

why are you just fucking standing there?

we're running around all night and this fucking guy is here getting his rocks off.

want something to drink?

i'm really big drug dealer.

keep your opinion to yourself.

it's not funny, man.

i fucking dare you.

you mean i have to wait?

i hate this bitch so much, i want to vomit when i see her face.

you know, we should do it again sometime.

you know, he fucked me much harder than he fucked you.

we have to fix it together, you understand?

don't you dare laugh.

i shared my playlist with him, and he was very rude and dismissive.

what the fuck, man? are you fucking kidding me?

be a fucking man and talk to me!

look at me, baby.

oh, you are so fucked.

here's to having a hard dick and lots of money.

we got married!

are you drunk?

i don't know where are we going, but we are going.

did you lose your fucking mind?

what is happening? somebody talk to me, please!

let me go, you fucking asshole. goddamn fucking bastard.

you know that bedroom you've been fucking in? that's his parents' room.

you can take everything you want.

bet you've never seen one of these before, have you, huh?

he said i looked like his 18-year-old daughter.

you know what, i'm so sick of your generation, man.

why do we have to leave the house?

how much money is that?

i am not fucking around.

we don't give meaning to names.

does that, like, sound weird?

if we haven't found him by now, we are not finding him.

happy fucking birthday, i guess.

take another fucking step, motherfucker.

no, we're done. get the fuck out of here.

i'm not sitting next to this fucking psychopath.

she's fucking hot, man.

i want to make an offer.

you think you can enter my house like this?

it's so wonderful to finally meet you.

we got ice cream.

i bet you get off on this.

that's fucking disgusting.

we are going to fucking vegas.

you know, i really hope you find your happiness one day.

i'm having your ass fired! you're dead for this!

will you marry me?

what do you plan to do with that?

we're not fucking done talking.

i certainly hope you're lying,

hello. hi.

he's an asshole.

can you sit on your hands for me?

want to get some drinks?

let's go get you some cash.

oh, i am not going fucking anywhere.

you're thinking this little shit betrayed you. well, guess what, he betrayed me, too.

just don't break anything, man.

you see the shit that i have to deal with?

i have an emergency. sorry about that.

time to break this bitch. let's go.

by the way, you can't find blow like this in moscow.

any information would be greatly appreciated.

what do you want from me? do you want me to apologize?

you are the fucking psychopath.

what the fuck?

are you doing this on purpose? what the fuck, bro.

i have no fucking pants on.

hey, listen to me. hey! it's your fault!

that's fucking hilarious.

i want to ask. do you work outside the club?

do not give me that bullshit. you don't love him.

get the fuck out of my way.

can i bring someone?

i am fucking with you, dude.

your tits look amazing.

what are you laughing at?

i can't believe you went running like a fucking baby.

go away from my room!

i'm calm. i'm not gonna do anything. i'm not gonna run away.i just want to know what is going on.

you were right.

i know what you're thinking.

give me a cigarette.

if you touch me again, i will fucking scream.

tell him, because i don't want to.

we should call the fucking police or something.

no, no, no. i'm not walking down there.

right, my father sent you. are you kidding me?

i feel like i have a concussion or something.

someone fucking tell me what's going on.

do you see what i've been dealing with?

you fucking relax.

having fun?

oh, you want to fucking go?

it's fucking freezing.

are you available tonight?

i am not giving you the fucking ring.

you know me so fucking well, babe.

why haven't you answered any of my fucking calls?

i bailed you out how many times? huh? how many times? and you do this to me?

me and my wife need some privacy.

you're so classy.

that's a fucking great husband you have.

you can sit right there, okay?

i told you it's a fucking bad idea.

dude. what the fuck. i'm busy!

you are fucking insane.

i don't want to talk about it right now.

i said it's 'cause your son's a fucking pussy.

time is money, baby. get a roll on it.

if you think for a second this is gonna be allowed, you're dead wrong.

you're a fucking bitch.

what is that? is that a butterfly?

[yeeclaw]

Illyana’s pink and purple fit from New Mutants vol. 1 #35 “The Times, They Are A’Changin’” (1985).

Pencils by Mary Wilshire, inks by Bill Sienkiewicz, colors by Petra Scotese

[belayadyavol]

these are so fun to me because i do think that, with how illyana acts, a lot of people forget she's a beast in battle. not only when it comes to fighting but strategising too. she's the queen of a realm she conquered as a child. she was a war captain. she's lead her own teams. she's scott's right hand. none of that is because she's a hard headed brute that comes out of every fight alive because of sheer luck. it's because she's good at what she does and she can make the necessary calls under pressure. it might seem like what she does is insane or dangerous but there's always a reason and she will always take accountability. yes she pulls off the dumb jock facade well, but that's so she doesn't have to do all the other stuff and she can just be trusted to do what she does best. which is idk kicking ass.

[belayadyavol]

pride icon for my favourite mean lesbian of all time 🙂‍↕️

[belayadyavol]

thinking abt yana and panic attacks and how she suffers with them more than she lets on to anybody.

usually in the dead of night when memories take the form of nightmares and she wakes up under the illusion she's still trapped in limbo. be it flashes of her killing cat or ororo, of s'ym's special brand of torture, of belasco's thundering yells and subsequent punishments when she fails a spell or disobeys an order. sometimes they hold memories of piotr's corpse, sometimes it's a constant echo of kitty's neck snapping as she kills her, or they revolve around the time she spent alone in a blizzard simply waiting to die in the freezing cold.

sometimes there's the phantom pains of her soul being torn from her body with no remorse at only 7 years old. the pull in her chest that starts off almost warm, before a violent shift makes it feel as though her whole body is being torn apart. her bones are splintering, her nerves are alight with an agony that's incomparable to anything she's ever felt before. her brain feels like it's melting, eyes feel like they're going to burst, her ribs feel like they've shattered and punctured her lungs. and she wakes up like a girl on fire. clutching at her heaving chest, curling into a ball while the pain ebbs away as she reminds herself of where she is. other times she wakes up in a burst of quiet but panicked yells while fingers curl and pull at her hair in an attempt to ground herself from whatever she's seeing that she KNOWS is fake but feels real. belasco had a tendency to use his magic to make her see things that felt so hauntingly real -- just as her dreams feel -- and she's terrified that one day she'll wake up back in limbo, her whole life having been nothing but one of his sick jokes.

sometimes she has panic attacks because she remembers, despite it all, how fond she was of belasco. regardless of what he did their souls were tied the second she entered limbo. a part of her (that she knew was wrong) wanted to please him. wanted to do everything right, wanted to excel at whatever he put her up to because she wanted to rule at his side. she wanted to be the damnation he prophesied. she wanted to be everything he wanted her to be. and the recollection of those feelings make her feel sick, because it's another reminder that she wasn't in control of ANYTHING. her own mind was constantly fighting against what she knew was wrong, and what the growing darkness inside of her craved. and the fear that, should he ever return again, those same feelings might begin to brew all over again -- despite her being stronger now.

she can never to back to sleep after them, even though the heaving and sobbing only proves to further exhaust her + how weak it makes her entire body. which sucks, because then she's stuck for hours with memories she's tried to bury that do nothing but settle into the cracks of her mind. nonexistent when she goes through the motions of making herself a drink at 2am, keeping her head and hands busy, but crawling their way back out when she sits at the table with it, nothing to occupy herself.

sometimes she does get them in the day. though less frequently on account of the image she has to uphold. mostly times where the darkchilde has been close to escaping the carefully crafted cage she keeps it locked in. the knowledge that one wrong move could release it and put her friends/family in danger. not only does the thought of hurting them mess her up, but also the fact that it would be another betrayal from her. even if they know she can't control the darkchilde -- she should be stronger. she is stronger, but she's scared that she won't be strong enough if the time to stop it ever comes.

[notmorbid]

skinship.

dialogue prompts from skinship: stories by yoon choi.

smoking is very bad.

i thought it was all an adventure.

everyone makes their way the best they can.

it is just like a man to make everything about power.

sincere is not the same as honest.

an action is worth a hundred words.

how have you survived? how have you endured?

when are you going to stop living like this?

stop your crying. your eyeballs will float away.

what if we just took a bus somewhere, you and i?

can you believe i used to be like that?

i won't leave _____ behind.

i broke my promise.

what can't you say over the phone?

did you remember to pack snacks?

you know i worry about _____ too, right?

i'm not mad anymore.

we laughed so much that day.

how can anyone know the future?

how do people afford this?

i did my best, even if it was not adequate.

i thought we were pretending together.

how can i trust you? i can't even look you in the face.

i'm not that interested in your forgiveness.

i'm feeling like the bad guy here.

it is very easy to lie in the language that is not your first language.

i'm thinking about growing out my hair.

i felt like i'd become a totally different person overnight.

it happened so long ago, it doesn't feel like it happened to me.

we were kids. we kept our mouths shut and our heads down.

i've stopped trying to make sense.

you need to live your life. be happy.

i haven't thought of _____ in years.

i hate my hair. i hate my life.

you have good hands.

the days are long, but the years fly by.

no one really gets it.

just pretend i'm not here.

don't you know? can't you tell?

who else will look out for you?

you were always such a fucking prick.

if you don't want to see me or hear from me ever again, i get it. i totally understand.

have you lived your life? have you been happy?

define 'happiness'.

there is so much music in life. there are so many ways to make it.

why won't you smile?

you never talk about what happened, but i can guess.

we need to be together. we need to forgive each other.

any chance you're pregnant?

patience and kindness can be stretched so far that they become their opposites.

some plants thrive on neglect.

sometimes, you remind me of my mother.

i miss it, but i'd never go back.

have you ever seen someone die?

there's nothing inevitable about the lives that we're living.

i don't know. i don't know anything.

just wait till you're a parent.

i'm thinking of taking some time off.

what about marriage? having a family?

i'm not ready to approach that. not without a drink.

i don't want you to have a hard life.

it's harder than you think, to hate your own mother.

that can't be what you really think.

it is what it is.

i'm trying to be the responsible one.

[belayadyavol]

yana should be allowed a gun more often me thinks

[belayadyavol]

thinking abt yana and the relationship she has with those whose alternate versions she encountered in limbo.

thinking abt her and cat having to kill kurt because belasco chose him to be the defence for his home. how she had to listen to his bones shattering and his agonised howling as cat phased his legs through the floor to incapacitate him. how, when belasco removed the last shreds of cat's autonomy, she had to listen to the wet sounds of her gnawing, tearing and eating kurt's lifeless body.

the way she had no choice but to snap cat's neck to save herself and ororo. cat, the one who taught her how to fight, how to wield a sword, how to survive in the wasteland that was limbo, her best friend. the way she tries to make her remember who she is, but belasco had too strong a hold on her that she had no choice but to kill her. the way that his hold was so strong on yana that, at the time, she didn't even have the capacity to grieve her, and all those fears of turning into him are realised. but there's also that part of her, that longs for his praise, that thrills at the idea. even though she knows it's wrong, even though she hates it, there's that part of her - bound to him through the creation of a bloodstone from her soul - that craves his validation. 'belasco applauded my strength and skill. i wish i'd slain him instead. i'm so glad he's pleased with me.'

then ororo, who she had to kill with a dagger plunged into her neck, because it was that or letting belasco take ahold of her the same way he did cat. ororo, who'd protected her, opened up her sanctuary, tried her best to stop her from making the same mistakes she had. yana both couldn't let him have that power over her, nor could she allow another bloodstone to be forged from her soul. the way ororo smiles, the way they both know what has to be done, the way she knows yana is already speaking the ritual needed to forge a bloodstone because it's been ingrained into her - the need to please the man who caused her so much pain.

yana still, all these years later, harbours so much guilt for doing what she did. she wishes she'd been stronger and less susceptible to belasco's manipulation. yes, she was just a child who was just that - manipulated - but it doesn't stop her from combing through every moment that led up to those instances, wondering if there was anything she could've done. if she were stronger, if her capabilities in terms of magic had been better, maybe she could've reverted cat back to her normal self. maybe she could've fought back against belasco. maybe she could've done anything other than what she did.

she is so fiercely loyal to those she failed, even though they don't know what happened in limbo. kurt, kitty and ororo are some of the people she holds in the highest regard because even alternate versions of them did everything they could to help her, at a lethal detriment to themselves. she refuses to ever let that be a possibility again. she'd do anything for them, anything to keep them safe, anything to help them, because she feels she owes it to them.

[crownmemes]

General Sentences, Vol. 24

(Assorted original sentences. Adjust phrasing where needed)

"See? That wasn't so difficult!"

"Go to your room!"

"What will you be wearing tonight?"

"It's been a long time. Too long."

"Did someone put you up to this?"

"How am I going to do this without you?"

"Is your job always like this?"

"I hope I made you proud."

"I told you we'd meet again."

"You've been hiding from me, haven't you?"

"Are you thinking what I'm thinking?"

"Don't even think about telling me to calm down!"

"I have said I'm sorry!"

"Do you have a family?"

"Do I have to join in?"

"That must have cost a fortune!"

"Can I sleep in your bed tonight?"

"You can't run forever."

"If I wanted your opinion, I would have asked for it."

"When I want your advice, I'll ask for it!"

"Which side of the bed would you prefer?"

"Please don't touch that!"

"Why do you have to control everything?"

"You can't stay away from me, can you?"

"Why don't you come back to my place for a cup of tea?"

"Wouldn't you like to play with the other children?"

"Innocent men don't resist arrest."

"We have nothing to say to each other!"

"I'm right, of course. I always am."

"This time you've really disappointed me."

"Are you sick or something?"

"Would you like some breakfast?"

"Put that away before you break something!"

"I hope you like spicy food!"

"I don't know what I would do without you."

"That cat's out of the bag now."

"Do you just make these things up?"

"You're a very suspicious person."

"I'm feeling a little attacked right now."

"I suppose you have good reason for making me look like a liar?"

"I want tonight to be one of those moments that will stay with you for a long time."