Antithetical dream girl

All is fair in love and war | she/her | 22 That blonde vampire's lover.

[belladonnadawn]

Hi, I'm Belladonna! 22 and a busy woman.

Food enthusiast.

Video game player (honkai star rail, genshin, love and deepspace, cookie run kingdom, stardew valley)

I post written works, rants, fanfics, and whatever is on my mind.

Requests open!

All my fanfics are gender neutral (unless specified)

Masterlist

[belladonnadawn]

Update:

If some of you have noticed, I have stopped writing fanfics. To be honest, I've been trying to push myself forward these past few days, hoping that one day I'll get back to the old me. It did not work. That's when I knew that the same old feelings that always haunted me came back. And that's when I knew I needed to seek help before I spiral again.

I wanted to keep this brief, not wanting to dampen anyone's feelings. I am starting to get treatment for my MDD and GAD, I started counseling a week ago and I found a community willing to help me get better.

I saw some requests and I'd like to say that it did help me, knowing that there's people who likes what I write and I have a community to bond with when it comes to this. It reminds me that I love writing, making silly and angsty shit, and I love seeing your reactions. I will get back as soon as I can, it's gradual but I will. Just like what Dontis said, I'll keep fighting.

If the ending would be bittersweet, I will keep this account up and I won't delete anything.

Love lots!

[belladonnadawn]

THE TWINS MENTIONED?? HELLO??? 😭

Such a peculiar topic. Mentioned but at what cost? 😭

Edit: Just realised that it kinda represents their character. Andrew was a good boy to his parents, obedient and akin to a dog. Simon was free spirited and was able to run from the abusive and oppressive household, just like a horse. So #MaybeNotACoincidence

[laestrellaa]

[zsakuva]

'Everyone is a hero of their own story. I am their villain.' - Saqu Sya

Art by Neon Laboratory

New look, new lore, and soon there'll be more!

Yes, I'm going into the VTuber pipeline like other VAs have done before me, but I'll still be making audio roleplays.

After six years of audio creation, it's time for something different.

[belladonnadawn]

Sakuverse headcanons  (But they're all the things that happened to me.)

Isaac Rhoades

Reheated a food so I can eat something while working, forgot I was reheating something so I came back to see that it's cold. Reheated it again, forgot because I was too busy. When I'm finally ready to eat, the food was too burnt to consume.

Almost got shot by a man who pretended to be my father (my father's dead btw).

Xanthus Claiborne 

Jumped someone for stealing my food when (happened when I was in grade school).

Rumors about kidnappers became rampant in my town, so I gifted my friends knives so they can protect themselves. 

Wrote a scathing letter about this girl who kept talking shit about me and passed it around the class. My teacher confiscated it, she called my parents and said what I wrote was wrong and diabolical, but she told them that I have a bright future in writing.

Kayson Mayer

Begged my boss to sing "(They Long To Be) Close To You" by The Carpenters with me when I was sedated.

Accidentally ate rat poison disguised as sprinkles.

Earis

Ghosted my therapist.

Broke down when they announced that I was two points away from being a champion at the annual quiz competition.

Prefect

Studied history of England for hours until I questioned myself why am I studying it when I’m a language major. The subject was History of English Language.

Whole class received 1 to 1.5 on a subject since the professor said they don’t count class performance and participation on grading. After I was discharged from the hospital I studied their grading system and the subject so hard my grade went to 1.5 to 3.5.

Andrew Marston

Drank a cocktail with my colleagues, went back to my room. I was too drunk to function so sat on the floor, and cursed myself for drinking knowing that I'm lightweight. 

Accidentally sent "You're welcome" instead of "Thank you" to people who greeted me on my birthday. 

Zaros Atha’lin

Had a (almost) decade long situationship.

Went to school hungover, took a test, aced it.

Dontis 

A friend asked me when we were going to tell everyone that we're dating, I was not aware that we're dating. Realized that’s the reason why they’re telling me “I love you” the whole time.

My family friend said that I'm too pretty, so she immediately set up an arranged marriage with me to her son.

Elias

Was secretly taught by my cousins to ride a motorcycle, rode it on the highway without lisence while cursing them as I tried to avoid the bus beside us.

Luca

Got ran over by a vehicle and flew to the other side of the road. I was too embarrassed, I apologised to the driver instead. 

[fagcrisis]

i hate the word spicy can we bring back calling things erotic

[maryoliveoil]

rolling up to Wendy's to get an erotic chicken sandwich

[eeveelovesu]

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH🤍🤍

[belladonnadawn]

If we didn't know Xanthus and love from their perspective they'd be terrifying as fuck 😭

Like what do you mean a vampire who's known for ending lineages and drinking a whole village dry was bonded with a clever and fearless human being who has vampire blood running on their system? That's a horror story in the making.

Also, imagine being a Trimediean watching the livestream and seeing the human fool supernaturals with such cunningness and precision, while the vampire managed to rip their former mentor's head off while pumped with carfentanil. I'd end that livestream real quick, ask god for forgiveness, install a tight security, and cut ties with Trimediean if I am them. I'd literally won't fuck with them.

Thank god, we're love 😭

[belladonnadawn]

You are not an ally if you fetishize queer relationships and reduce it to sex.

[belladonnadawn]

Talking to a guy rn and I lowk feel complicated about it.

Like if he was a victim of a housefire I would be concerned and ask if he's okay. But if we played "kiss, marry, kill" my answer towards him would be kill myself.

[sofverous]

Leigh

Sakuverse Art

I love you 🤭💖 He was meant to have a blue tie but I changed it to black

[dak0xxdak0]

Zaros: Worthy of the Throne

Hey guys sorry for being inactive i jus haven't made fanart in a while, so here's zaros

[sofverous]

Saquverse Art

[xanthuslover]

Can we talk about how embarrassing it must be to be Love. Like your boyfriend can hear EVERYTHING you do.

Like imagine having violent diarrhea bro 💀. You're on the other end of the house and he can STILL hear

[belladonnadawn]

That mf survived river thames, he'd be fine 😭

[sofverous]

[belladonnadawn]

THIS IS CRAZY OH MY BABYYYYY

[ames-draws]

I'm fed up with "maybe later".