✧°.── liability

❝ baby really ( HURT ) me. crying in the taxi. he don't wanna know me. Says he made the big MISTAKE of dancing in my storm. says it was p o i s o n. so I guess i'll go home into the arms of the girl that i ( LOVE ). the only love i haven't screwed up. she's so H A R D to please, but she's a [ forest fire ] i do my best to meet her demands °✧

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heartmadeofglcss:

Swiftly exiting from the bathroom, Luke keeps his steps light as he heads towards the bar-top, where he’s currently working at. Bar None is abuzz with activity (as usual) and his night shifts can become extremely demanding. His mind zones out for a brief second and he accidentally bumps shoulders with someone. The impact is firm enough that he feels his shoulder throbbing from the impact. “I’m sorry,” he breathes, attempting to keep his voice from wavering. “Are you alright?”

with drink in hand, bellamy is at her usual joint. bar none always offered the best prices and she enjoyed the atmosphere. as she made her way from the bar to a table, her shoulder collided with the man’s. drink spilling slightly onto the floor, she looked up at him. it was easy to get pissed off, but it seemed like a genuine accident. “uh, yeah. totally fine. shit happens.” 

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theliaxc:

“This fucker started it.”Thelia snarled toward the doorman, whom at that point had her by the shoulders and was shoving her out the exit of the club. Beside him was another security guard, ensuring the safety of his coworker. Thelia struggled in the doorman’s grasp, kicking and thrashing. The man tossed her on to the sidewalk. Thelia fell, then immediately picked herself up off of the ground. “Are you serious?”

taking a long drag on her cigarette, bellamy watched the events unfold. taking a step back as the bouncer tossed her on the sidewalk, the girl couldn’t help but laugh. “well, you must’ve done something pretty fucked to get kicked out of that place.” 

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ryan-cotterr:

“I know, I know I didn’t do anything wrong- I just feel like I have to apologize, I’m sorry” he shook his head. “It’s fine, I’ll be fine, I’m just a little overwhelmed right now” he admitted, looking back at her. He’d calmed down a lot by now, but you could still tell that he was a little shaken up by his nightmare. “I’m okay, I promise, there’s no reason to be worried” he assured her. “This definitely isn’t going to be the last time you see this happen to me, it’s really okay.”

“you don’t have to...it’s okay,” she assured, feeling as if he had to apologize to others in his past for something out of his control. “that’s fine. i’m here if you need me.” her body moved closer to his, cheek resting on his shoulder. “i’m always going to worry about you...” she sighed, knowing that was just how things worked with the two. one claimed everything was alright, while the other hoped it wasn’t a lie. “alright...i just, well, i want you to be okay.” 

[reserveyourchaos]

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ryan-cotterr:

Ryan shook his head, his body flinching for a moment when she went to touch him. He didn’t mean to do it, and it wasn’t because of her or anything she did, he just felt very uncomfortable in his own skin at the moment and couldn’t control how his body reacted. “I’m sorry, I’m okay” he repeated, looking over at her. “This isn’t new, this has been happening to me for almost twenty years, I promise I’m fine, it’s not a big deal” he sighed. “I have my sleeping pills, I forgot to take them tonight. This happens when I don’t take my pills” he shook his head. “I just started reliving some of my worst memories in my head and it felt like I was going through it for the first time all over again and I just-…I don’t know, I just panicked. I’m sorry”

as he flinched, bel pulled away slightly. she knew it had nothing to do with her, but the last thing she wanted to do was make things worse. she gently kept her fingertips on his skin, but was ready to give him space if need be. “don’t be sorry,” she repeated, ”you didn’t do anything wrong.” she listened intently, feeling as if there was no reason for the man to be apologizing or acting as if it were normal. “we don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want...but i’m here for you. everything is going to be fine.” her fingertips treaded up to his face, thumbing his cheek and cupping his jaw. “i...it’s going to be alright.” 

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alex-buchanan:

“Fine” he gave up, knowing nothing he could say to Bellamy now would ever change anything. He couldn’t do anything, the damage was done and it was clear that she wanted nothing to do with him. Following her when she went to the kitchen, he watched to see what she took and to see if she forgot anything important. “You don’t have to threaten me, I understand just fine. You’re starting to sound like Ryan”

“i actually do because motherfuckers like you always seem to slither their way back into lives they’ve already broken before. they get right back in from the cracks they created,” she almost yelled, feeling as this was becoming less about alex and more about atlas. yet, it seemed to be for the both of them...a speech from evie and her. his next words, however, sent her into to overload. “you just keep telling yourself that he’s the monster and not you. i was keen on threats before ryan and i were together. so, here’s another one: if i fucking hear his name come out of your lips one more goddamn time, i’ll knock your teeth out.” she took a step forward, hand releasing evie’s items and clenching into a fist. “care to test me?” 

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alex-buchanan:

“That’s fair, I accept that I’m the biggest piece of shit ever, I agree with you” he said, pausing as he was about to comment that he wasnt a worse person than ryan was, but he knew now was definitely not the time to restart that argument with Bellamy. “I’m not saying any of this as a sob story, I’m not trying to make you feel bad for me, I’m telling you the truth. You shouldn’t feel bad for me, I don’t deserve anyone’s pity, and I know I can’t say anything because I’m the one who fucked up and she didn’t deserve that- trust me, I know” he shook his head. 

it didn’t help how calm he was? where was all the emotion? the remorse? all she saw was someone she barely recognized. “just stop talking. i’m only here to get evie’s things, and then i never want to see your fucking face again.” after she finished packing all of her things in the bedroom, she moved into the kitchen. it didn’t matter if he followed behind her. picking up the bag of dog food, she pulled it towards the door. “if i see you anywhere near my apartment or her boat, i won’t hesitate to do more than threatening. got it?” 

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ryan-cotterr:

The sound of Bellamy waking up surprised Ryan at first. He wasn’t used to having someone else there when he woke up panicking in the middle of the night, and it was a lot easier to deal with when he was alone. At least then he wouldn’t have to explain it to anyone; he could just take his sleeping medication to knock him out for the rest of the night and go on pretending nothing happened. Grabbing her hand, he probably squeezed it a little too tight as he slowly started to calm down. The night terrors that he got were always short but it was the after effects that really stuck around. The feelings of guilt, humiliation, shame, all come rushing back to him and he can’t control it. Letting go of her hand, Ryan covered his face with his hands, “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry- I’m fine. I’m sorry” he spoke, not moving his hands from his face. “I’m okay, I’m sorry- you can go back to bed, I didn’t mean to wake you” 

a soft breath escaped her lips as he grab her hand tightly. she wasn’t expecting the man to be so shaken up by a dream. this was the first time anything such as this happened. as he pulled away, she sat up and scooted closer to him. her hand reached for his forearm, trying to coax him out of the position he was in. “no it’s okay. don’t apologize. what happened? talk to me, i;m here for you.” 

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alex-buchanan:

“I don’t know what you expect me to say, I have no grand explanation to make everything better, I wish I did, but I dont! I’m just the asshole who hurt the love of his life- I fucked up, I know I fucked up” he shook his head. “And there’s no excuse for that, I’m just a terrible person. Believe me or dont, but I love her. I love her more than anything in the world and she is the only person I ever want to be with and nothing will change that” he said, following her into his room. “Then do it- kick the shit out of me! I deserve it, you know it, I know it, so why dont you just do it. I won’t arrest you for it, I don’t care”

“i know you don’t, because you’re the biggest piece of shit ever,” she assured. “i honestly never expected someone like you to do this. you both were so worried about me and ryan, and turns out you’re a bigger asshole than you ever claimed he was!” the irony was almost too comical. “save your sob story for whoever the fuck will listen. i was hoping you had a reason why this was all some stupid mixup, but you’re just actually the worst ever,” she stated, her hands aggressively packing all of evie’s things. his plea made her almost sick to her stomach. for a moment, he sounded just like atlas. bel’s eyes burned into his. “you don’t deserve the pity party you’re throwing for yourself. kicking the shit out of you would only make it easier for you.” 

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alex-buchanan:

Sighing when she barged through the door, he shut the door behind them so that maybe his neighbors wouldn’t hear, but he was sure that they would. “I don’t have an explanation that you will find acceptable, it doesn’t matter what I say, you’re going to end me anyway” he said, looking at her. “I was drunk, it was one kiss, I regret it more than anything else in my life. I hate myself for ever hurting her”

the fact that he was so calm only enraged her more. he should’ve been on his knees, groveling. instead he was being like every other typical asshole that cheated on their significant others. “yeah, no shit, alex!” she growled. “i can’t believe you’re just like every other fucking loser she’s been with,” she pushed past him, shoulder colliding with his body. heading into the bedroom, bel placed the duffle bag she brought with her on the bed. “stay out of my fucking way while i get her things or so help me i will kick the shit out of you,” she demanded as she opened up the closet door and began to grab evie’s things, “and you know i don’t give a shit that you’re a cop.” 

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ryan-cotterr:

Ryan was blissfully asleep in his bed, Bellamy laid up against him, when his unconscious mind started to wander. Thoughts of things that happened in his youth clouded his mind, and he felt himself starting to panic. Waking up and quickly sitting up in his bed, Ryan tried to calm his breathing. He was overwhelmed with things he didn’t want to think about, and he started sweating and felt like he couldn’t breathe. 

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lately, bel had been spending most of her nights with ryan. even with evie staying at her house, the two spent the majority of their day together. in all honesty, bel wanted to give her some space. when atlas cheated on her, the last thing she wanted was to be suffocated by the people around her. lost in her thoughts, the girl began to suddenly drift to sleep. it was the sudden movements and ryan’s shaky breath ( or lack thereof ) that awoke her in a small panic. “what’s wrong?” she breathed, eyes blinking open. it had to have been the middle of the night. seeing him in such a state made her fully awake almost immediately. “hey, it’s alright. i’m here,” she comforted, her hand reaching for his. 

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alex-buchanan:

Alex was just going through his case files at his desk, working late as he normally did, when he heard the banging on his door. Recognizing the voice, he sighed. He knew this was going to happen eventually, he was just hoping it wouldn’t. Going up to the door, he called out. “I’m opening the door just- hang on” he said, pausing for a moment before opening the door, not all the way. He didn’t want her coming inside, he knew once she did, he was going to be even more screwed than he already was. “….Hi”

“open the fucking door!” she demanded. bel knew she was causing a scene, but it was all worth it. then maybe all of new york would find out what a cheating, pathetic waste of space he was. the minute the door cracked, she pushed it completely open. “hi? hi?! is that really you have to say? explain! now! before i fucking end you.” 

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@alex-buchanan

there was only so much longer bellamy could contain her rage towards alex. he had hurt the only person in the world that was important to her, and he had done it in a way that was all too familiar. so, it seemed like the only way to resolve her anger was to yell at him. “hey fucker!” she yelled, pounding on his apartment door. “open up, unless you plan on being a pussy for the rest of your life!” 

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lincolnbryant:

“There’s only so much I can do when I’m off duty. So, how about you let me finish my whiskey and come talk to me when I’m at work in the morning.”

“an off duty officer not willing to help a civilian in need,” bel scoffed as she listened to the conversation, “typical.” 

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evieharmon:

“Flowers?” Evie couldn’t help but scoff, rolling her eyes. “Okay, so what? People send you flowers for cheating on you and boom, instantly forgiven? Suck my dick,” she spoke, throwing them on the sidewalk. “Gross.”

“honestly, fuck that guy. fuck him. flowers? jesus. pathetic.” 

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sincerely-lany:

The blonde sighed, leaning against one of the counters behind the bar. Her eyes gazed over to her watch, telling her she still had an hour left of her shift. She was deep in thought before realizing someone was sitting at the bar. “Hey there, what can I get ya?” 

“oh, me? nah...i’ll just wait another good fifteen minutes while you do whatever the fuck you’re doing.”