Hurtful words and sorrows
Pairing: Bellatrix x female!reader
Warnings: None
Requested: @pinkphantomspace
Prompts requested: #18 (You donât mean that!) #19 (I mean every word!)
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You and Bellatrix were actually in a small rough patch in your relationship.
A lot of the time when an argument comes forth, youâre somehow successful in talking you both out of it. Talking through and out of it, allowing for you both to really and get back on track and resolve it quickly.
These arguments could be on any type of subject or topic, big as well as small, and that includes nothing at all. It was pulled and ripped away from thin air unexpectedly, preventing you from ever see it coming. However, this argument was over one of those big reasons and it was on the fact that you helped Harry and his friends escape the horrors that unfolded at Malfoy Manor. The only person to witness servicing your hand for them was girlfriend Bellatrix Lestrange. What happened was that you had gone behind her back to help the gang in escaping, it was best described as something along the lines of watching a horror film by yourself in the pitch black. The whole battle had you overwhelmed, as if you werenât any more already, it was the time of your life you could recount on to having feel the most overwhelmed, making you feel as if not your own self.
The turn of events left you nothing but anxiety to deal with. You werenât anywhere near becoming a death eater yourself, making an oath to serve in Voldemortâs circle of destruction. Your soul was much too precious to do that to yourself and it didnât matter what this might cost you. The first thing Bellatrix took in on your act was the idea you were possibly seeing Hermoine behind her back after she had watched the way you taking care of her before allowing her to escape with her group of longtime friends. Maybe you were even having a full on affair, was the thought going through her mind as she started seething, allowing her emotions to take over. So you would have to look at it in a way that the true cause of Bellatrixâs emotions was pure jealousy, she was feeling jealous and couldnât help it when her actions took over. As her mate, you knew since from the beginning that she owns you and doesnât share.
This relationship wasnât like ones from the past where they would be open relationships, and Bellatrix was against the idea of that kind of lifestyle. To avoid any kind of interruptions or invasions, Bellatrix roughly pulls you along to one of the empty bedrooms of the mansion, but not without question.
âWhere are you going with (Y/n)?â Narcissa wonders aloud, having Bella stop briefly in her tracks.
âI need to have a little talk with this one.â
No one says anything else but wonders the same thought they all had in that moment as you disappear.
What happens next is yelling could be heard, the yelling coming from Bella could be heard and it started getting intense. An argument broke out immediately after she slams the door shut behind her, locking it while facing you with an angry look on her face. Bella then begins to question you on her suspicions and it was ridiculous. All that you were doing was defending yourself with honest responses each time she threw a false accusation at you with no remorse. You didnât know this was about Hermoine, you truly thought it was about helping the gang to escape a deadly fate from the bad guys. Whilst Bella was going off on you, you were fighting off tears that were threatening to spill as she inched towards you with every word spoken. Bellatrix then mutters something you couldnât quite make out what was said.
âWhat?â You ask cautiously.
âWhatâs going on between you and the mudblood? Are you having an affair behind my back?â You stood there, frozen.
You couldnât believe that your girlfriend, to whom you call the love of your life, seemed to be turning on you with the idea of an affair behind her back. Bellatrix was speaking through clenched teeth, something she often did and it would be a lie if you had said it doesnât scare you at all, the least bit.
You were never spoken to like this from her, and it started taking an aggressive toll.
âNothing! I promise you, Iâm not seeing her-â
âLiar!â Bella shrieks, stepping forward towards you.
âNo, honest-â
Then Bellatrix says something very unthinkable and hurtful.
âI shouldâve never loved you.â
Those words coming from her tongue cut through like a knife and it shattered your heart to pieces. You could no longer fight back tears, allowing them to unglue and blur your vision, leaving you there.. just stunned and completely stuck.
You couldnât find the words to say to that, you were unable to speak until you could, to say the least.
âYou donât mean that!â
Bellatrix scoffs, before turning her back on you, crossing her arms as she seemingly confirms she was accurate with those words.
âI mean every word.â
Things were quiet again and with nothing more to say, you leave the room and headed for the kitchen.
Narcissa follows you after seeing the expression on your face.
âYou okay, (Y/n)?â She knew something was wrong and wanted to know what she could to help.
âJust in a stupid fight with Bella.â was all you could say.
Narcissa nods and leaves you to your thoughts as she goes to see Bellatrix, whom remained in the room you were just in when you had left.
Narcissa now needed to talk some sense into Bellatrix before the result would be of losing you forever. You were the only thing she loved and she had to be reminded of that, Narcissa doesnât bother knocking on the door before just walking in. Walking in to see Bella was standing in the same spot you left her, she didnât have to say anything to get to the bottom of things. At first, Narcissa half expected to be ordered to leave, but instead, had gotten the last thing youâd ever expect to happen, the very least to say the least. Bellatrix almost immediately consoles and admits to Narcissa of everything that went down not long ago. Bellatrix then gets to the part of telling Narcissa what she last said to you and Narcissa was disappointed to say the least.
More then anything else, really.
âYou really said that?â Narcissa ask in disbelief.
âYes, and I know I say dumb shit I donât mean. I was just-â
âMadly blinded by pure jealousy and hate.â
Upon hearing that, thatâs when Bellatrix truly got the chance to revisit the argument in her thoughts and knew that she needed to find you and fix the mess she had made before you could ever leave.
âIs she still here?â
âYes, in the kitchen.â
Making her appearance, Bellatrix is greeted by the sight of you sitting alone at the round kitchen table with nothing more then a glass of water and tear stains on your cheeks.
Seeing how your cheeks had tear stains like that broke her, knowing she was the cause of it made the feeling of her own sorrows worse. While she gathered her thoughts on how she was going to apologize to you, you continued to stare into space. Unmoving of her presence, although you knew she was there. Finally, Bella decides that she would just say whatever comes to mind first before making her way closer, calling out your name.
â(Y/n)?â
Nearly forgetting she was close by, you quickly wipe your tear stained cheeks before giving her your full attention.
âHm?â
âI wanted to apologizeâŚâ Bella says, matter of factly.
This wasnât the best idea for a moment like this, as far as you know and understand, this was the first time to ever have witness this partial side of Bellatrix. You donât know much, but her making an effort for trying her best, for the first time meant a great deal to you.
Although you know those words she basically laid out in front of you didnât really mean anything, it still stung your heart nonetheless, so you allow her to continue as you nod your head in acknowledgment as if to say that it was okay to keep going with everything sheâs got within. But a few moments later, no words had yet to be spoken of and you made the choice to speak and urge your girlfriend on the right path as you would personally call it.
âOkay⌠and?â
âI apologize⌠I didnât mean any id what I said back there. The truth is, I was madly blinded by jealousy andâŚâ Bella stops as she took a look around to make sure that only you were in earshot of this.
âI hope you can forgive me.â
A smile comes across your face as your girlfriend whispers the last few words in your ear at close range.
Looking back at her, she looked almost bewildered. It was as if she was looking at her mirror reflection and is unable to recognize herself because this just isnât like her at all, not in the slightest. Bella looks back at the past, studying everything she had done that she made an oath to never do but did. Thank god she didnât make the unbreakable vowel, things would be much more different and even difficult to handle. It was almost like a sick game someone had thought up at the minute of their time.
Doing these things for you though, you were just different ⌠she loved you.
Seeing that Bellatrix looked as anyone would during a rejection, you stand and go over to wrap her in a loving embrace. Bellatrix stiffens for a moment, always forgetting what a true, meaningful hug feels like before eventually letting her body relax into it, then returning the embrace in the same way.
âOf course I can. You mean too much to me and my life that youâre something I will never be able to let go. I love you, Bellatrix and Will love you forever.â
âI love you too, (Y/n). So much that you donât even know it.â
Just like that, it was as if nothing happened at all. Bella seemed to not let jealousy get the better of her as she had done a few hours or so back.
She knows now sheâs got you.
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