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I am alone again and I want to be so; alone with the pure sky and open sea.

Friedrich Nietzsche (via wordsnquotes)

I woke up to the sound of my mom crying. It wasn’t the silent kind of cry. In every sound she made, I could feel how much pain she was going through. It turns out my uncle, her brother, tried to kill himself. I need to say that, yeah, you might be having a rough time. It probably seems like it will never get better. But speaking from personal experience, it does and it will. When people kill themselves, it doesn’t get rid of the pain. It just passes it on. Everyone around you will blame themselves because they think they missed the obvious signs. Or that they should have called more often. Please, just think about this before you do anything. The amount of pain my mom was in, it was awful seeing her like that. He also has a wife and a very young daughter, one or two years old. The wife is only 19 years old. So if he had succeeded, she would have lost her husband, her best friend,and had to raise a child by her self. Just reconsider your actions. No one should have to wake up to that news that your body is cold and your family should make arrangements. If you need someone to talk to, I am always here for you. If you want to talk or if you need a friend, I will be here.

#suicide #im here for you #please talk to someone #the pain of losing someone is so much greater than you can imagine #you are loved #it will get better #message me

wnq-writers

I became quieter because I know what I say no longer matters to you.

kissmylime (via wordsnquotes)

#reblog

Duke TIP- A gifted educational program based at Duke University. To all the tipsters, it is most commonly known as home. To you all, this is my official farewell. I know it’s kind of late, as I went to term 1, but it needs to be said.

When I got that letter in the mail telling me I could go to the Academy sites, I was stoked. Immediately, I knew I wanted to go. I couldn’t go the first year. The second year, I went. I was dealing with some personal issues at the time, so I chose to leave early. It was the worst decision of my life. As soon as I got in my mom’s car in the parking lot, I knew what I left behind. It wasn’t just a summer camp, or a nerd camp. Everyone there, even the ones I didn’t know, had become family. I started counting down the days for when I could go back. Sadly, I got wait listed my third year. But this passed term has been the absolute best three weeks of my entire life. I’m not even kidding. I went in that first day not knowing what the hell I had gotten myself into. I knew no one and no one knew me. I was terrified that it would be a repeat of the last time I went. It was no where near close. The friendships that were made are worth more than the $4,000 that it cost to get there. I’ve never experienced such a place where learning isn’t just a chore, but something everyone there wanted to do. Being yourself didn’t mean putting on a mask and being the part that everyone else wanted to see. I heard someone say that they couldn’t be gay and be accepted back home. But at TIP, being gay is totally fine. No one cared if you were a Christian or an Atheist, if you had dark skin or the palest skin, you were always accepted. And at TIP was the first time I had experienced such a place where no one didn’t tolerate differences. Duke TIP means so much more to me than what I can put into words. It has become synonymous with family. If you are a Tipster, you should go. I know that it might be a financial burden on your family, it was on mine, but if there is a will, there is a way. My best advice to you is to experience everything TIP has to offer. If you are a first year fourth year, or a fourth year fourth year, make the most out of it. Kiss someone, take advantage of your fourth year privilege. Sneak into people’s rooms. Have fun. It’s not just a learning camp, but a place to have fun. Yes, there are rules to follow, but still, have fun. Have the best three weeks of your life. Trust me, you will want to go back. So while you are there, make the most of it. And if you need to talk, message me. I’m always here. If you have questions, I will do my best to answer. If you need advice, feel free to come to me. But to every single TIPster out there, thank you for making TIP become family. You are truly the best people I have met. See ya’ll around:)

#Duke tip #tipster for life #fourth year speech #family #second year fourth year #tipression #LSU term 1 #Austin term 1 #message me #advice #ask me questions #i have trouble putting what I feel into words #nerd camp

pecry

Reblog this if you’re in the Percy Jackson fandom

i’m a fine arts student doing my thesis on production design for an animated series adaptation of percy jackson for university. my proposal is to use tumblr as a primary platform to promote the hypothetical tv show and i need a measure of how quickly information can spread through the sheer power of tumblr (specifically the pjo fandom) we have six days to get as many notes as we can and prove our point. pretty please? :)

itsbrotherfuckingwincest-archiv

so maybe i’m just stupid or something, but it took me until, like, this week to really get the full effect of sam’s jump in swan song. the boy was watching his own fists beat his brother to a pulp, knowing that the world may or may not end depending on the strength of his resolve, and he stood for only several seconds trying to come to grips with the fact that he was about to die. i tend to overlook the absolute finality of that decision with thoughts like, ‘it’s a show, he’s a lead, he can’t die,’ and ‘they renewed the show for next season, he’s not really dead,’ but sam really, really, really died. he actually overcame lucifer, and jumped into hell with only a few seconds of emotional preparation, and it was forever. he did not expect to ever be alive again. he died having done - in his mind, i think - absolutely nothing that he’d always wanted. he didn’t graduate stanford, didn’t become a lawyer, didn’t build a life outside what his father had forced on him. he never started a family or got a chance not to feel like the weight of the world rested on him or understood the sheer depth of love that dean has for him. and he killed himself anyway, because he loved dean, and that was enough. he was only 27 years old. i will never understand how anyone can not be genuflecting before everything sam winchester is.

incorrect-harry-potter-quotes

Today, the 2nd of May 2016, marks the eighteenth anniversary of the Battle of Hogwarts

Please take a moment to remember those who lost their lives in the fight to free the Wizarding World from the tyranny of the Dark Lord Voldemort and his Death Eaters

extrasad

What happens once you kill yourself? Because I'm ready to go.

You wanna know what happens once you kill yourself? Your mother comes home from work and finds her baby dead and she screams and runs over to you and tries to get you to wake up but you won’t and she keeps screaming and shaking you and her tears are dripping onto your face and your dad hears all the screaming and runs into the room and he can’t even speak because the child that he loved and the child that he watched grow up is gone forever and finally your little sister runs into the room to see what all the fuss is about and she sees you dead. The person she looked up to and loved. The person she bragged about to her friends, the person she wanted to be just like when she grew up, the person that made her feel safe. But she’s never really going to get to grow up and smile and laugh and love because she’ll always be consumed with this feeling of missing you. And now there’s something missing from your family and they can barely look at each other anymore because everything reminds them of you but you’re gone and hurts more than anything. and you think that your mom never cared because she was always busy and yelling at you to finish your homework and clean your room and forgot to say I love you sometimes but really, she loved you more than anything and she doesn’t leave the house anymore, she can’t even get out of bed and she’s getting thinner and thinner because it’s too hard to eat. Your father had to quit his job and he doesn’t sleep anymore, every time he closes his eyes he sees his baby dead, and the image never goes away no matter how much alcohol he drinks. And at school your best friend sees that your seat is empty and she gets this sick feeling in her stomach and that’s when she hears the announcement. You killed yourself. And suddenly she’s screaming and crying in the middle of class and no one even bothers comforting because they’re all busy sitting there staring at your empty seat with tears dripping down their cheeks and all she wants is for you to hug her and tell her it’s gonna be okay like you always did, but this time, you’re not there to do it, everything is dark now that you’re gone and her grades are slipping, she barely goes to school anymore and she ended up in hospital after taking too many pills because she wanted to see you again. the girls who used to make fun of the way you dressed feel their throats get tight, they don’t talk to each other anymore, they don’t talk to anyone, they’re all in therapy trying so hard not to blame themselves but nothing works. and your teacher who always gave you a hard time stares blankly at the wall, she quits her job a few days later. And then your boyfriend hears the news and he can’t breathe, he still calls you a lot just to hear your voice and he talks to you on facebook but you never message him back, he can’t fall in love again because every girl he meets reminds him of you, he’s never going to get over you, he loved you and he cries himself to sleep every night, hating himself and slicing his skin because he couldn’t save you and he’s never going to hold you in his arms or hear you laugh again. Now everyone who knew you, whether they were a big part of your life or someone you passed in the hallway a few times a week, they carry this aching feeling around inside them because you’re gone, and they miss you, and they don’t know why you left but it must’ve been their fault and they should’ve stopped you and they should’ve told you they loved you more and that feeling is never going to go away. And so you killed yourself

but you killed everyone else around you too.

martinawrites

this need to be on everyone’s blog

sleepybambi

this makes me think..

janoskipornhub-deactivated20150

God bless whoever wrote this.

ioanaslovesongs

im crying

phanscuddles

I never usually reblog things like this.. but if it saves just one persons life… please take thime to read this even if you think there is no point in living. Please.

sebastiansttan

the winchester brothers’ thing series: 2/?

The way you two keep sacrificing yourselves for each other? Nothing good comes out of it. Just blood and pain.

supernaturaldaily

Signal boost:

Hello. First of all, I am not even sure how I am supposed to start writing this post. Second of all, I don’t know how to feel about it. I have thought a lot about this and I have decided to do it. Not because I am feeling desperate, but because I need help. Third of all, I would very much appreciate if you all read all of this. It would actually mean the universe to me, if you did.

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supernaturaldaily

I have finally updated the post so, if you have a bit of time, please read it. The update is by the end of the post. Thank you, lovelies <3