I wrote this text in 2015.
Yet, I publish it in 2016. Why? Because, now is time people understand where they are. I was, I am and I will be in this text.
Because this text is for every sinner.
If you are under 16 years old, I prefer to let you know that this text may be a little bit difficult to understand, because you have to experience life a bit more than just the first part of the teen life to understand everything or to put yourself in some situations.
Also, some words could be harsh, please, be aware that I am not here to teach you how to be rude, I am just explaining things in a way that everybody, even you could understand my message. (sorry if you do not understand english though.)
This is an image part of the “..Mystery of Human curse..” I wrote and hide. Because you have to understand this one to understand the other. (I will put the other one when it’s time.)
These colors represent your state of mind, before and after completing the curse.
Before completing the curse.
Joy comes when you swim into the sin, you love doing it and he (Yes, now ‘it’ became your friend so now ‘it’ became ‘he’) loves giving you that smile you are craving so much when he is not around. That smile when you are perfectly conscious that what you are doing does not put you in a confortable place.
This sin you cannot do when people who aren’t like you are around you, this addiction you have and have to keep in you before losing total control of ‘The You’ people think they know.
Now you know what I am talking about.
And yes, you pretend you are somebody else while some specific people are around, to let them think you are ‘NORMAL’, ‘FREE OF EVERYTHING’, ‘YOUR OWN CHIEF’, but you know that when your addiction is there, your hands and your body start popping like a pro craving the need.
Dear friend, it’s ok, most humans of this planet went through the same struggle. But there are some that know it and say it, some that know it and hide it, some that do not know it and pretend to know it, some that think they know but are clearly not aware how far they went in this and so on...
But now, it is time you see the colors, and realise where you really are and take a new step in your life by controling it if it is not the case right now.
So, (rewatch the colors if you need to) the blue zone down the picture is when you are a complete sinner, but not just a complete sinner, like a little bit or like a sometimes sinner, no. You sin whenever it is possible (ex: drink, smoke, fuck, insult people who piss you off, steal, fight, threat people with no respect, lie, hide truth, take advantage of a situation you should not (and know it!)
If you do some (or all) of them regularly you are a complete sinner
Because, what you are doing is not good for you or for your entourage. I know some will say:
X: But, I don’t understand, can’t I just fuck? It does good for me and my partner!
Dear friend, you fuck to procreate and raise a familly, this is the only time you should have sex with somebody, this is why it is ‘good’ actually, because the desire, the love and the act which comes after should not be painful and this is why it is everything but painful when you are ‘trying to raise a familly’ (you know what I mean).
But this came to a pervertion, now we buy condoms and just ‘have fun’ because it is cool, because it is good, we have nothing to do at home so we invite people and “hop!” we have our amount of fun for the day.
Doctor: Mam’, you are pregnant.
Doctor: You have an STD/STI
We start popping like a pro (Boy or Girl). But excuse me, what you have doneis actually the result of what should have happened today, isn’t it ?
And for my gay friends, I didn’t forget you, the rules are the same, yet the method different.
And for the other examples:
[LIARS]: what if you have a good friend and this friend keeps on lying to your mom (or a person you really like to be around) just to be considered ‘a nice person’ instead of telling the truth, how long will you stand it ?
[someone with no respect for others]: If you say “Hello!” to someone you don’t even know (or barely know) and this person replies “move.” How long will you think it is cool to disrespect people around you?
[Illegitimate fights]: You like to fight? but what if your mom (or a person you think the love between both of you is mutual) gets beat up like 3 times a year (which is HUGE) just because (s)he gets home lately and some jerks have nothing to do. How long will you still think it is cool to fight with people you (don’t) know?
Green zone below or bgreen, The ‘trying’ road.
This zone is for the people who are trying to stop, who are on the White Caslte road.
You: What’s the White Castle?
We’ll get to it later, don’t worry for that.
This zone is one of the hardest. The struggle is there, your emotions are fighting day and night, your brain sees the sin everywhere but fights to keep on the white road.
I think that some example are needed.
We all know someone wanting (or who wanted) to stop smoking (maybe it’s you), well, you know, this friend starts at home, saying to her/himself:
The smoker: OK, NOW I STOP SMOKING, I STOP SMOKING, I STOP SMOKING ! NO CIGARETTE WILL TOUCH MY LIPS TODAY !!
Then, you (as the smoker) arrive at a place you work or where you usually go, and you start acting like NOTHING HAPPENED. As if the cigarette was never in your life (LOL!). You do not talk smoking or cigarette price or nah-ah ! You laugh and chill, simple as you are.
But then (yes, this moment) someone puts a cigarette on his lips and YOU know you noticed him doing it, you start acting like everything is fine, he starts smoking, talking like nothing is happening. You want to smoke but you are remembering your promises... And now you wonder... “What SHOULD I do..?”
Anyway it was JUST an example, I took the smoker because I think that it is the most known of the planet (the addicted to his phone is not far nowadays though)
But, you know this kind of struggle is what is on the bgreen, you are tempted because you want to lose this habit, but the people around you do not, so it is hard for your begining.
This zone is definitely the worst of all.
Well, I am not a liar so I will not start right now. When you come to this zone believe me, you have to be.... (gasp..) I mean, being strong, tough will not be enough.
You have to be the toughest, the strongest, the rightest and the most willing version of you, you have ever been to pass this zone.
(Those who went through it will tell you the same.)
There are different ways to pass this zone, you can diminuate then stop, you can stop from the beginning to the end, you can give yourself challenges, you can ask help to some friends, anyway, the list can be long.
The dark side is what ends you.
Because, it is what gets you to the red zone or what gets you back to the blue zone FAR below and ruins everything (sometimes for the rest of your life, sorry to say this but it’s true, some will tell you if you ask.)
Let me describe you this zone to put you in the center of everything.
First, you will keep reminding yourself:
You: How long have I stop doing this...?
The more you go through it, the more you will tell yourself that if you fall again it’s the end, you won’t just swim in the b’blue (blue below) but you will drown yourself in it.
Because you will want this zone, OH you will ! You will keep telling yourself:
You: I’m sure I am strong enough to go back to the bblue and come back to the grey easy !
And for those who tried, you know this is a mistake, actually one of the most common noob mistake of the universe (hahaha!)
Please, just don’t do it.
In THIS ZONE, your senses are on SURVIVAL MODE, everything is higher, tougher, stronger as if you were blind.
A little thing will put you on beast mode for nothing, believe me! For example, if your thing is sex, when someone will say a joke about sex, your ears will be focused on it and your brain will keep replay the words you love hearing for example: “suck, holes, swallow” (which are COMPLETE normal words out of this context). They will be the forbidden words for your ears for a good amount of time. If you are an alcoholic, the words “Want a drink?” + putting the glass near you will be a shock for your brain, the worst I think is if you work in a bar. GOD! almost impossible to stop. (ALMOST is the word)
But I am telling you right now, this zone is the killer zone, everything will be against you, it’s like everything will want to piss you off to make you go back to the bblue zone, even your knives & forks will fall off the table when you eat to piss you off (hahaha!) Your little fingers will knock on the doors corners like “HMM!! Oh! My bad, I thought it was food, sorry.”
I swear, this zone is the hardest and it is like twice harder than what I just wrote, because, now you just read and imagine it, but when you feel it... It’s not the same.
“Your brain will keep replaying the words: “Today was a hard day... What if I just get my fun? It’s not as if it would do something, right?” - The voice (you should never listen to).
The red zone is the transition, it’s when you are getting used to the labyrinth and start seeing the light.
It is still hard but not THE hard it used to be. You are often tempted but your emotions aren’t fighting as they were back then,
Things are getting easier but it’s still tough, like the special killer workout you do (or should do!) - LOL!).
You are getting used to the pain,
Yet, sometimes that little voice (you should never listen to) tells you to stop everything and just ENJOY those moments again, and when you are about to do it, that little voice (you should listen to) in your head turns you OFF the right way. And you decide to stay strong for this time.
This zone is a real transition, a mental fight, between the voices & the good decisions you have to make. You know now you can do it and keep on chasing your goal to stop for the rest of your life what wasn’t good for you.
But beware! Sometimes you get pissed off so much and that voice takes advantage of you to put you directly in the place where you used to sin. And you get back to the transit Grey.
Transit grey is just the transition between the red zone and the bblue zone, it comes when you have had a very bad day, you are pissed off, you just want to do what you love most but you keep on telling yourself:
You: Is it worth it ? Do I want to be this person again or am I strong enough to just calm myself & relax ?
If you see transit grey, flee & relax. Because if it catches you...
You may not be able to get on this road again in your life (unless you have a very strong will.)
Orange is pretty cool, so you start chilling with him/her, you start smiling, you start forgetting...
Yes, Orange is a bit like ‘The one’ you wanted, the one you needed? This, you do not know yet, but you feel good now that (s)he is around and the others are gone.
Orange is the partner who tells you that (s)he likes what you became, and hopes that you will keep going.
You need him/her a bit because, you need to feel safe for a moment, you need hugs, you need to be reminded that what you did was brave, that you are strong, beautiful not just on the physical part but especially on the inside one.
You start seeing things differently with him/her around, life is getting better, you start breathing, you start saying to yourself:
I went through the worst, now it’s almost done.
Orange is the kind of people you meet like that and start chilling with, laughing with and loving as if they were always in your life.
Because (s)he’s just there to give you a positive vybe. (S)he won’t stay long, (s)he was just here on vacation, unfortunately you know you won’t see him/her again or at least you do not want to, (s)he’s perfect in THIS moment and for this period, so you just appreciate the moment...
Orange is your clean brain, Orange is your start.
You see her smiling ALL THE TIME.
Yellow is proud, you know the proud when you were very fat and used to be the bullied and now your body is what people call:
You know the kind of proud I mean ? Well, yellow is like that, not afraid anymore, in control of her life, yellow is a sunshine, a light in the dark.
People like yellow, yellow helps, yellow sings, yellow laughs ! Oh she does (hahaha!)
The struggle? She doesn’t really remember, she knows it was SOMETHING for her, but she is so far beyond that, she doesn’t feel it anymore, she has to be fully focused to feel a quarter of what she’s been through in order to help people like her.
Yellow is a new born, Yellow is a baby, Yellow is pure.
Blue, swims in the goodness.
She was drowning. In the middle of his oceans, she loved him... And he drowned her. (he as the sin here)
But now, the dolphin chills in the new water,
and like Willow Smith also says:
(And now) he’s staring at her body in the river of eternal love.
Blue feels GOOD, but not just good, I mean the good like...
Have you ever had a day, you woke up saying:
You: Damn, I feel so good today!
But you don’t know why? Or a day you feel normal, people start telliing you:
XY: You look different today... Like, I don’t know, you look good! Did something happened?
I guess you know the feeling I am describing you right now.
The last one is what I call “The Dolphin look”, it’s like, your brain feels normal, no change, just a regular day. But your body vibrates differently, so you attract people around you.
Question: How can I control this phenomenon?
Well, it’s kind of unconscious. For this, you have to work on your brain to make it tell your body to vibrate this way. To do that you have to work in order to get and keep “The dolphin feeling”
What I call “The Dolphin feeling” is the first part when you feel super good. You keep on thinking 200% positively, as if something great was about to happen to you! You are too happy for this version of yourself actually but nothing happened to you, you are just happy!
This is because your brain is suddenly completly healed from every wound you have had, and you feel like, not a new born who you struggled etc, NAH-AH! you feel like this part never ever happened.
Tell yourself that, for blue people, Dolphins, this feeling is normal.
Their vibration is different, when you see a dolphin, you know.
You will not see Dolphins like you see Oranges, the vibration is on another level and you will be able to feel it.
Blue is vibration, Blue is completely HEALED!
Green, is what we call “The half”,
you know this kind of people that looks like divinities, but you know they are just humans, but you don’t want to believe they are JUST humans? (hahaha!)
Those people that not just look happy, but that keep and maintain others happy too by something you do not know how to fully describe.
Green represents respect, peace.
You do not want to fight with Green, you put Green in a different dimension of other people.
When you look at Green, you know Green is different.
SPIRITUAL. More than just “baby pure”, like..
Does Green speaks with God? There are always good things that happen to this person.
Well, who knows but them.
Green is not the end of the sin or the swim in any ocean.
Green is above, green is an angel, Green is a soul. Indescriptible until you actually see it.
And when you see it, you know there are no Green everywhere. Unless you are like Green, you will always want to be like Green (at least a bit) because Green is successful, but not just the tiny success like smoke or something naah!
When Green wants, Green gets. Whether you want it or not, Green will.
Because Green’s actions are pure & helpful. People cannot say “no” even the stupidiest will see the opportunity by being friend with Green.
Green is the one that makes you want to stop the sin and start a new life.
So pure, you can see its halo when Green is around. Peace in person. You would want to fight for Green if something happens to it.
Green is not human anymore.
Green entered the White Caslte.
The White Castle is the house for those who are in complete goodness. 98% of their time, they think positive, act positive, react positive, and positive happens, doesn’t drink, smoke, you do not want to fuck these kind of people because of the amount of respect you have for them, you just watch, stare at them and think:
Since when is this person like this...? Is this person conscious of the amount of peace (s)he brings around ?
As I said, some will understand, some will not. Because you have to live it to understand this mystery.
Do(n’t) you think humans have superpowers ?
Meet or become Green, and you will understand, my friend.
Green is freedom, Free of everything. Completing missions.
Title: “.. Mystery of Human Curse (in color)..” 12:00 am - 2:45pm | 01/10/2015
