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hey so ummm. i' m going to try and keep this brief but basically! my deeply abusive mother has gone completely and utterly off the deep end and is (supposedly) abandoning me to fuck of to brazil to stay with her "husband" (who again. she's known for less than a year. has only dated for 4 months before marrying. who neither of them speak the same language as and need to use google translate to communicate. who has been deported out of the country after being arrested for felony trespassing at our old apartment when he was supposed to be at work 6 hours away. and who is My Fucking Age.) full time, only traveling back here so she can stay a USA citizen and continue to collect her SSDI while essentially forcing me to either pay the full ~1.7k (amenities included in this price) rent alone (i have no income. i am severely disabled and cannot currently work but do not currently qualify for SSI either though once Again i am working on this...) or end up homeless by the end of may.

she is refusing to help me get to any of my medical appointments (i cannot drive due to said conditions) in the meantime or even speak to me anymore (she is insane) and i am now currently attempting to swap out any medical appointments i can to go through either telehealth or a transportation service (i need to call my insurance. i am so tired.)

she has triangulated the entire family against me because once again, she Is abusive and none of them are willing to rock the boat with her or help me either, to the point where my aunts only offers have been to demand that i get a job (i tried this. the government literally deemed me unfit to work.) do inpatient or outpatient (this is not helpful. what i need is a permanent way OUT of this situation.) or look into homeless shelters (lol.) my uncle said in no short words that he "does not believe me and is not interested in supporting me because we have no family bond" (okay man) and my brother has gone so far as to actively lie to our (formerly) mutual friends telling them i have "more money than him and my mom combined" (???) and that i am "misrepresenting his mother and his relationship" by calling her abusive (????????)

so um. needless to say at this point that even IF she's bluffing (unlikely given how often she's been talking about this imo) then it's still clearly not safe for me to continue to stay here and keep putting myself at risk, especially since she has escalated to physical aggression within the last year. (her "husband" has done similar and has a noted temper as well. even if she only plans a temporary visit i find it extremely unlikely that he's going to "let" her come back to the states once she's there.)

i do have a plan still, though i am working out the kinks and have a LOT of phone calls to make and individuals to contact and i'm kind of fucking exhausted so i don't want to get into it right now. that said, i would Very Much Appreciate It if i could get some further help.

once again you can find my paypal link here, please do not feel obligated to donate anything if you cannot afford it. i know shit is fucking Bad for everyone right now, and i do not want anyone to feel pressured but i do very much have a strict time limit now and need to get my own act together. thank you (i am so fucking tired)