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[stuckinapril]

[mashpotatoe]

im nonbinary in a way that doesnt really matter

[kosmogrl]

[kosmogrl]

[siickangel]

i’ve been having a rough day for about 5 years now

[narcissene]

affirmations:

- it’s fun to be awake & in an upright position

- consciousness is a gift

- i CAN do this anymore

[becherdireinen]

nobody talks about how exhausting it is to live in that space between "things will get better" and "i can't handle this anymore." it's like your emotions are constantly swinging. leaving you both hopeful and defeated in the same day.

[betaeuben]

thank you darling

[betaeuben]

it’s okay to say no.

it’s okay to say you’re not in the mood.

it’s okay to ask them to stop.

it’s okay to change your mind.

IT’S OKAY TO SAY NO.

[inber]

Say you break your ankle. You could know everything there is to know intellectually about the injury. Even with this vast knowledge, you will still experience physical pain.

Now take this logic and apply it to things like ADHD, autism, clinical depression, and other less visible/divergent disabilities. You cannot think your way out of feeling.

That is to say: you are not a bad, lazy, or selfish person for struggling, even if you know why you are struggling.

[thepolymorphexperience]

Genuinely, thank you so much for this.

[stellacosmickat]

it's cool to voice your wants and needs actually

[betaeuben]

how do you figure out what you want and need though?

[longnuts]

Does anyone know what to do

[princecarlton]

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

A difficult thing about complex trauma is that there may not be any specific events that you can point to as something bad that Happened™️ and explain why you are weird at parties. Maybe there were small things that were mundanely bad but don’t justify the scale of your reaction. And maybe someone else describing the situation makes it sound laughably trivial. “I felt unsafe” never feels sufficient for something to have a profound effect on you. You feel like a phony, you feel unreasonable, you feel like acknowledging it would be stolen valor. Or maybe you wind up with an unscrupulous psychologist who tells you that something hugely, cinematically awful must have happened and convinces you that your mother’s bridge club made you eat gentile babies on the full moon for 13 months.

But. Well! Simply feeling unsafe/insecure/scrutinized/etc for prolonged periods inherently messes you up. Even if it’s with good intentions.

[betaeuben]

I wonder how many hours I’ll go without sleep this time

[betaeuben]

how does one figure out what they want?

[slfcare]

when you keep yourself small all the time (swallowing the words you want to say, seeing everybody else as though they’re automatically above you, downplaying your feelings and achievements), the entire world will constantly be looming over you. that’s not the way to live your life. you’re supposed to be experiencing it, not be subjected to it. (this is your sign to take up more space)

[jehovahhthickness]

Tell the truth.

Why are y'all single?

[riotd]

i’m very self aware. which unfortunately hasn’t solved anything