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Bethany. 19. England. Depression. Social Anxiety. Emetophobia. Avoidant Personality Disorder. Maladaptive Daydreaming. I wanted to make a more 'personal' blog so that followers on my other blog didn't have to put up with my complaining all the time. Because this is a sub-blog thing, I can't follow back on this blog, but if I like your blog I'll follow you on my main blog :)

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Reasons not to kill myself

1): It would upset my family.

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64563) I can't sleep. I don't want to sleep because I hate myself so much. I can't dream. I'm scared to.

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i hate when you’re in class and you hear people laughing behind you and you always think they’re laughing at you sigh

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i’m jealous of people who can lay down and close their eyes and fall asleep just like that i’m jealous of people who know how beautiful they are i’m jealous of people who laugh like they know what they heard was funny i’m jealous of people who have my potential but didn’t waste it

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depression is like not giving a fuck and anxiety is like giving too many fucks and when you have both it’s like fuuuuuuuuuucccckkkkkk

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Just found out my 'crush' has a girlfriend. I say 'crush' but I don't bother having crushes anymore, it's not like anyone will ever like me back.

I just don't want to be alone anymore. But I know I always will be. Even if by some miracle someone does like me back, I'm never able to be open with people. I just push everyone away. It's my own fault that I'm alone.

I want to be alone, because it's safer and easier, but at the same time I'm so soul-crushingly lonely.