I'm So Fucking Tired

I don't know where to put any of this stuff so I'll yell it into the void. I have mental health issues, issues with christianity, GPA, chronic pain, and a need to rant.

[betrayeregg]

The thing i keep seeing is that with chronic illness you need a support system. Except what the hell am I supposed to do if I don't have one already?? I can't make new friends because I don't have the spoons for that - I didn't really before which is half the reason i dont have friends to rely on near me. My family is a fucking joke and I truly dont have any idea how someone is supposed to find real support if they dont already have it

[betrayeregg]

Once again I find myself in a situation where I'm told my issue is something I firmly believe it is not. I can't decide if I'm just a poor communicator of my symptoms because I don't know how to describe how I feel or that as usual they are picking "the most common" potential issue because StAtiSics says that's what it probably is.

I don't even have the energy to argue and I feel so stupid that I can only come up with questions days later. I'm just so tired of feeling miserable all the time.

[oh--lapetitemort]

Being mentally ill makes you so uninteresting like oh what do I do in my free time? Huh idk, just trying not to die I guess?

[betrayeregg]

Well, well, well if it isn't my spoon debt coming to collect