bipolar i

mercedes, 21, bpd/bipolar/adhd/ptsd.

[repotting]

the “holding out as married” rule is so fucked up

like… not only can I not marry the love of my life without losing my health insurance and the $800 or so a month I’m forced to survive on

but I can’t even CALL her “my wife” casually

like literally the US gov’t has people whose job it is to go and interview the family, friends, & neighbors of disabled people to just make sure that they never refer to anyone in their life as “my wife” or “my husband” etc

and if you DO, then SNAP! You’re defrauding the US gov’t of the pittance you can barely survive on and you are no longer entitled to your disability benefits

(some kinds of benefits might remain in diminished form but if you were disabled before age 22 you are fucked COMPLETELY and can’t get them back even if you divorce… the only loophole is if the other person was ALSO deemed disabled before 22, because that fucking makes sense)

and this is just… legal and no one but disabled activists ever talks about this shit

so yeah I’d love some of that gay marriage shit but I will never be able to get married, and to add insult to injury, I can’t even casually refer to my partner as “my wife” without risking the health insurance and income I need to survive as a disabled lesbian

[kelpforestdwellers]

this is what we mean when we say the USA does NOT have marriage equality yet

[rabbitmotifs]

this guy is such a loser i want him in my bed immediately

[akindplace]

Crazyheadcomics on Instagram

[bettiesbullshit]

welcome back to tumblr

thanks i hate it

[novltea]

let me introduce myself

[corrincorrout]

1. the meaning behind my url 2. a picture of me 3. tattoos i have 4. last time i cried and why 5. piercings i have 6. favorite band 7. biggest turn off(s) 8. top 5 (insert subject) 9. tattoos i want 10. biggest turn on(s) 11. age 12. ideas of a perfect date 13. life goal(s) 14. piercings i want 15. relationship status 16. favorite movie 17. a fact about my life 18. phobia 19. middle name 20. anything you want to ask

PLEASE

[ameliepoulain]

tbh the fact that its almost 2022 is fine, like its fine whatever. the fact that 2012 was now a decade ago? life ruining. inconsolable etc etc

[sunflowersandhappycolours-deact]

In case you need this today

- you are not a failure - you are not a waste of space - you are loved - you are wanted - i believe in you - you can do it

[gaycommunist]

actually, growing up is feeling like i turned sixteen two days ago. i’ve been eighteen for years. fifteen year olds seem so young. wasn’t i fifteen just a few weeks ago? all my friends and i are still twelve. i’m closer to thirty than to being a baby. i never got to be a kid. i never grew past eight. i can’t talk to my mom. i want to sit in her lap forever. i want to decide everything for myself. i need someone to tell me exactly what to do. the week is going by so slow. an entire year has passed.

[valtsv]

i will literally give up immediately don't fucking test me

[bettiesbullshit]

no one:

ceiling fan at 1:37am on a tuesday going on high speed: *quiet whirring, bothering literally no one else*

my adhd ass brain focusing on that one sound and nothing else for the last two hours: WHIRWHIRWHIRWHIRWHIRWHIRWHIRWHIRWHIRWHIRWHIRWHIRWHIR *deep breath* WHIRWHIRWHIRWHIR

[bettiesbullshit]

bitch who hacks a tumblr account lmao

[softyin]

[softyin]

[bettiesbullshit]

i had a baby. and after 9 months of tokophobia, the birth was more traumatizing than i panic attacked it would be. :)

[1617]

“answer your phone” bro im pretending i dont exist please leave me alone

[aspergersissues]

[saiyanqueenreads]

Yes.  Just yes.

[cameoappearance]

"I wasn't confused, I had a very clear and completely incorrect idea of what you wanted."

[yd12k]

'I did ask for clarification and you got angry at me instead of clarifying' is even worse

[slfcare]

this pandemic will end and you’ll claim the window seat in your favorite cafe, stand in a crowd at a concert, visit a museum and make crappy art in the park. sometimes things feel like they’ll go on forever, sometimes bad things feel heavier than good things, sometimes life feels like it’s slowing down and all you’re doing is waiting for the full stop— but just because this hopelessness is all that you’re feeling right now, doesn’t mean that it’s all there is. there’s always more and you will experience that, and you will feel alive again.