Hey I really love your headcanons, I would like to read about something like second male character Seongje. Like the kdrama cliché. Fem reader likes someone else and seongje loves her and he is very open about his feelings. Not possessive or toxic. Just a teenage boy and his trauma of never being the one choosen and loving. And I would appreciate that if it ends with reader just gives him a forehead kiss and it makes him all soft. I wanna know how seongje would feel if he was down bad for someone who isnt really loves him.
⤷ WEAK HERO 2 GEUM SEONGJE X FEM!READER.
—> possible grammar mistakes (sorry Eng isn’t my 1st language!!)
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❈༓࿐ • author’s note: ITS SO LONG AND this took WAYYY TOO LONGG TOO OMG I THINK LIKE 3 HOURS but anyways here’s your request sweetie and i hope you enjoy it!! I hope this is the type of fanfic that you wanted 😚
Oooh. my. days. How you always liked kyungjun from class 2-3. Ever since you joined gangkak high, you had your head over heels for him. Not love, but BIG crush. The one that made your ears blush in bloody red when he walked pass you in the hallway, or how your heart skipped a beat everytime you saw him.
He wasn’t a good friend to you, but sometimes you and your two other girl friends would hangout along with kyungjun and his other friend. You always tried not to look at him with those lovey dover eyes.
But his eyes never looked at you the same way. But i know whos eyes did. Geum Seongje’s.
That dude was madly in love with you, and the fact that he was so open with them was even crazier. You know he likes you, but that doesn’t mean you gonna throw away your dreams for kyungjun immediately away.
But his reputation and the public view on his personality pushed you away even more. Total asshole who beats people for fun? Is in some schools gang union? Total no.
But Despite his feelings for you, he never really asked you out properly, his guts would never let him.
**”You know that internet cafe nearby school?” He asks looking ahead while lazily following you in the hallway, he always liked to walk you to your classes. Even tho that annoyed you as fuck.
“I do.” You answered shortly not giving him any signs of interest.
He adjusted his glasses higher up his nose. “Cool.. you go there sometimes?” He knew you didn’t, he remembers your entire schedule And even the classes after school.
“not really.” You answered shortly again, picking up your pace but he lazily matched it up.
“You should try sometimes..” he muttered with lazy tone, finishing it with a calm exhale at the end.
When you arrived at the classroom, he continued walking but with slower pace.
“try to focus today, you have algebra repetition.” He adds cause he know you have issues with math,and you just sighed and walked inside.**
He knew you wouldn’t go there, but everytime he was playing in his usual seat, he sometimes looked over at the main door, with a little hope that you will walk in through them one day.
Today at lunchtime, you and your two friends were talking about going out to the new food place that opened in your city, while all 3 of you were getting excited, kyungjun’s friend — Namgyu overheard the conversation.
“The new burger burger place?” He joined into the conversation.
All three of you looked over and one of your friends nodded “yeah, we’re planning to go there,today”
Namgyu made a little “oooo..” then grinned mind if me and kyungjun joined?” He tilted his head and everybody looked over to kyungjun who was currently munching on lunch.
Your heart? Already beating so fast like it’s running a marathon. Another hangout with kyungjun? Yoir day got even better.
Namgyu nudged kyungjun legs with his foot.
Then kyungjun slowly looked up and raised an eyebrow. “What?..” he said while swallowing.
“They’re planning on going to the new food place, you in?” Namgyu said with enthusiasm and kyungjun slowly nodded.
“Sure.” Everyone slightly cheered and one of your friends nudged you in your side while you tried so hard not to gigfle from excitement.
Meanwhile seongje, two tables away heard the whole conversation, his grip on his phone slightly tightened, but then he decided to go for a smoke. His jaw tense as he walks out of the cafeteria.
You continue to talked in the little group about the hangout and you noticed Seongje leaving the cafeteria. Your eyes followed him for a while then quickly, kyungjun took your attention.
“Wait guys, can i take a friend with me?” He asks while digging his fork into his food.
“I mean sure,why not, which friend?” You asked, with a slight smile.
“Cool.” He said then takes out his phone.
“Yo, you’re taking junhee? Awesome.” Namgyu patted kyungjun’s back and laughed.
Junhee? Its probably a boy then, it made your mood even betyer cause everyone will have their pair, if you’ll succeed, maybe you’ll stay with kyungjun alone for a while, who knows?
The chat goes along and everyone continues to eat their food.
When you finished your last class you were walking out of the school and of course Seongje must appear.
“Hey..” he muttered playing with his lighter.
You nodded at him, and continued walking, he matched your pace.
“I Heard you’re going out to the new food place.” He broke the silence again, his fidgeting on the lighter never stopped.
You nodded again. “Yeah, i do.”
He hummed and shoved the lighter to the pocket of his sports jacket.
“Sounds nice.” He sighs. “Kyungjun is coming right? You’re happy?”
You blinked and clears your throat. “What? Why should i?” You said trying to sound steady, meanwhile youre panicking that he knows about your crush.
If HE knows it, then what if kyungjun knows?..
“Come on, its obvious you have a crush on him.” He scoffed a little coldly.
“What?-..” you stopped and looked at him. “No i dont.” You swear you could hear slight hurt in his voice.
“You do. You have the annoying look in your eyes.” He stops few steps in front of you, his lazy gaze staring at you.
“You’re insane, what look?” You scoffed.
“I dont fucking know,your eyes.. they get all shiny and shit.” He explains as he looks around.
“What?” You raised an eyebrow, but he only buried his hand in his pockets, and started walking again.
“You look at him all that lovey dovey, its easy to catch up.” He sighs, but you froze in place, thinking about kyungjun and the way you always looked at him.
Then seongje turns around to you. “You coming? You’ll be late for your bus.”
You shake out from thoughts and looked up and sighs, just to mumble under your breath.
“Tsk,Yeah i know..” you started walking and your grip tightened on your backpack strap.
Seongje walked you to the school gate and then you two split in your own ways to home.
But when you sat down in your bus seat you swear you saw someone with a similar jacket walking away and disappearing behind the wall..
You didn’t knew but seongje made sure you arrived to the bus safely.
before the hangout you were in your bathroom, making final touches to your make up and hair.
You didn’t put much effort for your outfit, since it was winter, and your coat would cover everything.
When it was time to leave, you quickly grabbed your phone and headed out.
In front of the burger place, you already saw your girl friends and namgyu waiting. you didn’t saw kyungjun and that new friend, you assumed they were late.
You walked up to them and smiled. “Hai,guys.” Smile shining on your face while your friends greeted you back.
Before you could speak up namgyu already laughed and called over to someone.
you looked over and saw namgyu waving energetically to kyungjun and.. junhee.
A girl. It wasn’t a guy it was a fucking girl. With kyungjun arm around her shoulders keeping her warm in this cold weather.
Your heart dropped. What the fuck? He was supposed to bring a friend not a fucking girl who’s clinging to his side with that stupid smile.
And the worst part was that it wasn’t even his fault. He never said it was a guy, and he wasn’t even yours either.
You watched in pain as they walks up and greets everyone, junhee was introducing herself and saying its nice to meet you all.
Your heart actually broke into pieces and your girl friends gave you a worried look, but you forced a smile and cleared your throat.
“S-so how about we go inside,huh?” You said feigning enthusiasm.
Everyone nodded and you all walked in.
The whole time you were forced to watch kyungjun and junhee sit close, eat together and sometimes even making lil talks on their own, whole the group talked all together.
You had few situations when it was hard to hold back tears, but you managed to blink them away and nobody noticed.
But your girls knew that you weren’t feeling well now, they will definitely call you in the evening to help you out.
After you all left the place you all stopped in front of it and namgyu proposed to go out for some boba before coming back home.
But when you thought of spending another hours watching kyungjun with that girl was twisting your heart hard.
“I’ll pass.” You said quietly, girl shooting you a worried glare immediately.
“Why?” Kyungjun asked, your eyes jumped on him.
You came up with an excuse. “Those burgers made my stomach hurt, I’ll probably go to bed..”
Boys and junhee nodded and said some last words before heading out, while your friends stayed to pat your shoulder and giving you a reassuring smile, before they followed the rest.
After they disappeared behind the building your heart shattered even more, sun was slowly setting while snow was slightly falling on your hair. You turned to go back home while holding back tears.
Fuck it was so hard to not to cry right now.
But when you saw a nice empty alley. You couldn’t help but go there and fucking burts into quiet tears.
Why the fuck it hurt so much?
When you were lost in your tears you slowly heard some footsteps coming at your way, when you looked up with soaked eyes you saw him.
“You gonna cry here the whole night and freeze to death?..” he muttered with his gloved hands in his pockets.
You scoffed and wiped your tears away “youre spying on me now?..”
“Spying? I was just walking by and heard some kid crying, but then i saw you. I think i still wasn’t mistaken.” He slowly smirked after he teased and you just continued to wipe your tears while standing up.
You started walking away.
“Girlfriend huh?” He muttered taking out a cigarette.
“He has a girlfriend. I didn’t know either.” He lights the cigarette up.
“Whats your problem dude? Your eyebrows furrows.
“Me?” He turns around. “Well he broke broke your heart and you’re crying over him like an asshole.”
You gritted your teeth. “Listen if you want to tease me, not fucking now i swear i cant stand you right now.” you hissed with your eyes hardening each breath.
He scoffed coldly, taking his cigarette out of him mouth. “You act Like you dont oush me away every time i talk to you..”
“And? He scoffed even harsher. “And that youre fucking stupid. You’re running after a dude whos clearly not interested in you while i cant help but watch and do nothing.”
“Fuck you,” You spitted out, “fuck you,seongje, you’re only saying that cause i turned you down.”
He steps closer, his eyes staring in your soul. “Why, Y/N?.. why the fuck him not me? Why not fucking me?”
You actually didn’t know how to answer that. “Because-..”
“Because what? of my reputation? Because i’m hard to deal with? Cause im broken?”
He grits his teeth, you could sense the hurt in his eyes. “You’ve never even gave me a chance,Y/N…”
Your mouth went shut, a little of guilt creeping up to your stomach. “Seongje-“
“Am i that fucking broken?.. that you can’t wven give me one chance?” He muttered as he drops the cigarette to the ground, stepping on it afterwards.
You stared into each other in silence. When the air grew colder your hands started trembling slightly. Seongje looked over at them and sighed, he takes off his gloves and took your hand to shove them into your palm. He let go and looked around avoiding eye contact.
“Keep them, youre shaking like an idiot.” He muttered then gritted his teeth.
He started walking away, slow but heavy steps. “I wonder if you would choose me if kyungjun didn’t existed..”
After few steps he stop and faces his back to you.
“You wouldn’t either? right?..” he muttered, it sounded a bit shaky.
You bit your lip from the guilt growing bigger.
Then he walked away, disappearing form the sight.
Two later later you kept thinking about seongje. He wasn’t following you to your classes anymore, didn’t watched you go to the bus.
It felt like he just.. give up.
But you had his gloves. Black basic ones with cigarette brand written on the wrist part.
The more you thought about him the more you felt guilty and dumb after not even giving seongje a chance. Chance to maybe show that he is just a human.
So you decided to meet him. In the only place you were sure he will be at this hour.
you slowly entered the internet cafe. After greeting the worker you saw him.
Sitting alone playing at the PC desk. Clearly focused on the screen, you gripped his gloves harder and started moving forward.
You stopped in front of him.
“Hey..” you softly spoke up, he slowly looked up, his harsh gaze slightly softening.
You gave him a little smile and hand him his gloves.
“Thanks a lot.. they kept my hands warm..”
He slowly took them then looked back at the screen. He shifted in his chair.
You awkwardly shoved your hands into your back pockets.
“Soo.. you play league of legends?..” you asked, trying to catch up a conversation.
You hummed, i like that game, but i never had good teammates to play with.” You started, then shifted your gaze to him.
“Maybe you want to play sometimes?.. together?..” you proposed,trying to easy the tension. But his movements with the mouse stopped. Then he leaned back in his chair.
“If you have time..” he muttered.
You smiled softly “can i watch you play?” After a few seconds he nodded and you flopped on the chair next to him.
The time went on and you spend 1,5 watching him play and slowly starting to talk more and more.
He was nice when you actually gave him a chance. He seemed more.. sweet than he is in the union or at school.
Then you two left the cafe. His hands were jammed into his pockets and yours were slightly swinging.
“Do you want to do this again?” He spoke up.
“I mean, the game and stuff. You want to hangout again?..” he mumbled to you with soft eyes.
You slowly smiled and nodded. “Sure..”
“Seongje?” You stopped him, and he obeyed.
“Yeah?..” he turned around and you stepped closer.
“What?” He asked tilting his head.
“You know youre not broken.. right?”
He froze, and you continued.
“I never ignored you because of that. I was just blinded by kyungjun.. it’s nothing personal.”
He let out a breath he didn’t knew he was holding, then when you saw his eyes slowly becoming reddish, you tugged gently on his hand and leaned up.
With a soft motion you placed a kiss on his forehead.
“I’m sorry for turning you down constantly.. i think we should fix this..”
He stared at you blankly, shade of pink creeping up to his ears, not from the cold, but from you.
He blinked and and nodded. “Yeah.” Hjs voice horse.
You smiled and slowly backed away. “See you tomorrow.”
He hummed and watched you walk away.
You gave him a kiss.. oh fuck is he dreaming or what?
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