Big Round Fish

I am the haunter, I'm the one who sees, I'm fish

[official-project-solace]

Hey guys. One hell of a bomb drop for the project... >:3

He's done :)

Sebastian Angelico Solace is back in business baby! He's holding a fragment.

Sebastian is also now a trans guy! There will be lore surrounding it later, and maybe even a short story!

The lighter / non fluorescent blue are scars. He's wearing his compression sleeves in this photo as well, they help with pain!

Here's the shitty transparent version

He's on my artfight! Feel free to go say hi to him :)

Art Fight

An art gifting game

[official-project-solace]

So earlier I reblogged screenshots on despairing rat.

You may notice I have deleted said reblog.

I've had several people come to me with more screenshots and evidence, and much of it conflicts, so I'll be looking into everything before making a final post on it all- and after that, hopefully, I can cease discussions of all of it on this blog entirely.

It also seems a few people wish to use my platform to spread it, so I'm going to be releasing my own statement with the help of some friends and with information from everyone who has reached out to me with evidence. This may take a while, but I think it's the right thing to do to keep everyone safe, especially considering the grooming accusations being thrown at a few people of the original group- I want to be fully informed before continuing to speak on this.

I would like to note, my original reblog does NOT mean that I'm friendly with any of the group that came after me, but moreso want people to be safe- even those that did hurt me and my friends. Please stay safe everyone.

On a brighter note, I'll work on PATH's lore soon so she can be released. I know many of you have been looking forward to that.

[official-project-solace]

Can all of y'all STOP reaching out to my friends about it they don't want to be involved STOP TEXTING MY FRIENDS

[big-round-fish-official]

One day all of eco station will hear me

[official-project-solace]

Until next flood Sebastian

Sometimes I wonder if blowing up Echo Station would be easier than seeing YOU every once and a while.

[big-round-fish-official]

You wouldn't know what to do without me

[official-project-solace]

I wouldn't mind being dead if you were gone too.

[big-round-fish-official]

Now don't start talking about your suicide ideation to me

[official-project-solace]

*frown* that is NOT what's going on, get yourself together, fish

[big-round-fish-official]

You got the better end of the deal

[official-project-solace]

Until next flood Sebastian

Sometimes I wonder if blowing up Echo Station would be easier than seeing YOU every once and a while.

[big-round-fish-official]

You wouldn't know what to do without me

[official-project-solace]

I wouldn't mind being dead if you were gone too.

[big-round-fish-official]

Now don't start talking about your suicide ideation to me

[official-project-solace]

Until next flood Sebastian

Sometimes I wonder if blowing up Echo Station would be easier than seeing YOU every once and a while.

[big-round-fish-official]

You wouldn't know what to do without me

[the-word-orandge]

TW: Mention(s) of SH

Okay, so I am just going to say this- Would this not be harassment if it were someone else putting this ask on your page? "YOU WHORE, YOU BITCH, YOU ASSHOLE, FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU-" I was not initially going to get more involved than I already had, which was not by much, but now I feel as if I have to, because this has surpassed any original intention of wanting accountability. Messages like this, and the one I've shown in particular, caused Medkit to relapse last night. If whoever sent that message is reading this, are you happy? Is this the accountability you wanted?

Now, I have looked into who Karma is. They are an alter in this person's system (I don't know if the anon in this screenshot is the person I mean, but the person I'm referring to is a system), who has been referred to as Clover in the past, but due to the project solace callout blog saying that this is disrespectful- I will be referring to them as what I have seen is their collective name- Luckyfield. The accusation that has been made is that they were a minor, on top of the previous accusations of harassment and such. These have already been addressed by other people, but I haven't seen anyone address the age aspect of this. While Karma is an alter who has been stated to be younger, Luckyfield is not physically a minor and would not be considered such by legal standards. I wanted to mention this because I have seen threats of taking a legal approach mentioned in this situation before. (Their Username and User ID have been censored for their safety.)

This is just for clarification, because as stated previously, this has been used to accuse both Leonis and Medkit of harassing/permitting the harassment of a minor, while both of them are physically 18, making Luckyfield three years older. I am not stating that this claim is entirely untrue, as Karma is, to my knowledge, a younger alter, but Luckyfield's physical age makes this claim misleading to those who might not have access to this information.

Moving on to this person's claims about Karma's trauma, I have been told that this alter has some trauma involving their Sebastian dying. Medkit's supposed "parading of trauma" in question seems to be them making jokes about *their* character, which is their version of Sebastian, not Karma/Luckyfield's. This is not to invalidate anything or anyone, but I feel that in the case of Medkit, joking about *their* character/version of a character, while it might have still upset Karma/Luckyfield, does not read as targeting to me. I am not a system myself, so take that statement with a grain of salt. If you have screenshots/messages proving this wrong, I would be happy to read through them and change my mind on this...but given the fact you guys would not give a crumb of sources to Leon when you claimed that transpecies is a radqueer term, and he only got a source (which begged to differ on your point) when someone who wasn't even initially involved got asked to cover the situation...I don't expect any special treatment.

The above image is the history of transpecies, and the one below is for radqueer.

I did not want to get involved, especially because I was worried about the risks of harassment, but the post made shitting on Leon for grieving an animal that helped him through a dark point in his life, the previous degrading statements of calling Medkit a "lapdog", and now directly insulting them on their pages to the point of them physically hurting themselves has me very upset to say the VERY least. Grieving for another living creature you loved does not AT ALL imply that you don't care about another person's life. I had a dog that would wait right outside my door whenever I wasn't in the home I was meant to be in, one I had grown up with since early elementary, and one that I might never see again because I had to cut ties with the parent who still has him. If or when I find out that dog is gone, I am going to grieve for a damn long time, and I had it much better than a lot of people during the time that dog reminded me that there were always people who loved me, waiting for me to come home. It is practically a societal standard by now to see a beloved pet as part of the family, and I myself subscribe to that belief, so it is insane to see someone shit on another person for missing an animal, let alone use that to accuse him of lacking empathy towards other people. Believe what you will, I'm probably not the best person to ask about this situation overall, but I can't help but feel that this has gone from wanting accountability to just wanting to hurt someone's feelings- or wanting to hurt them. This is not to claim that Leon or Medkit are perfect little angels who can do no wrong, but calling people whores isn't gonna make anyone take your word on things any faster. While the statements I've mentioned frustrate me to the high heavens, I don't wish any harm on anyone. I wish for healing, peace, and brighter days ahead for everyone. Call me ignorant or a dumb little bimbo bitch for being optimistic, but I'd like to think there's a time in the future where we can just move on with our lives and be happy. As for the people running the @project-solace-callout blog, that wish includes all of you, too. I wish you happier days, and I hope you all can move forward, find enjoyment in the things you love, and find or even create a space that better suits your comfort and needs. However, if you or anyone else would like to continue sending in asks with the same language as the first screenshot in this post, I humbly offer my asks as a target, and, in the best case, the only target. Let my page be a punching bag if it means everyone, you all included, can go on with their day. I apologize for my language and coming off as "pissy", but I just could not keep quiet anymore. This, in my eyes, has degraded into nothing more than bullying, and if anyone has to receive messages like that shown- I'd rather it be me. All I ask is that if someone takes me up on that offer, be creative, I've heard just about everything that could be said about me six inches from the mirror lol.

Once again, if anything I've said is not accurate or factual, I will be happy to take the post down once I have been shown evidence to the contrary. I do not support any harmful paraphilias, and I do not wish to at any point in the present or future, so if someone could provide me a source that confirms that transpecies is involved with this or radqueer ideology, I will gladly follow up this post with a self-correction. Thank you.

[big-round-fish-official]

Hey

I wasn't going to make a statement about it originally because this blog was just made to lovingly annoy my psys then pressure blog but a statement I've recently saw made me want to give my opinion. I sincerely hope the person's statement I'm answering won't see it because I don't have anything good to say.

You can't be neutral about this. You can't be positioning yourself as neutral because you found the way Ren, the victim, acted to not be great or to be agressive, confusing ( all ways to act very normal from someone suffering trauma btw ). Because the message you're sending is you will only support victims if they act perfectly well or how a victim is supposed to act in your eyes.

It's vile. It's disgusting. It's wrong. You're allowed to dislike Ren and criticize how some members have acted, but maybe certain thoughts should be kept to yourself. We're talking about the most vile act that can happen to someone not some offshoot drama.

[official-project-solace]

Alright. Explicitly tried to give them a chance to back off because I didn't want to make this. Apologies, I just woke up, please feel free to ask questions or clarifications.

First of all here's me "defending people jumping a minor" with the screenshot of what they were upset about

Opposum also told someone to kill themselves (granted, it was a zeal defender, but it goes to show how two faced they are in a situation like this)

Apologies for the discord icons I was playing games with some discord members when I had to start taking care of this situation last night

And here is a statement from someone involved. There was a lot more detail when we spoke of it but I figured a statement should be enough for now since they were willing to speak.

"To be honest i didn’t want this to escalate but whatever they want

Ngl it’s funny how one of them is all about boundaries but when i stated mines yesterday I was ignored by them, even if it was being read out loud by a TTS bot, they even bother to talk over the TTS bot

Well i am sorry if I didn’t get to work for all of you on this, I was not gonna risk my anxiety spikes either way ngl

Ik you all want to start this out of a miscommunication, you all decided to take Leon’s statement about the tonetags as if he was only applying it to the “victim” instead of obviously saying it EVERYONE in that chat

Specially ik about the chats since i saw the dms get streamed, along I don’t get why do this but its in been eating up cause it all felt wrong, specially yesterday calling him a “dickrider” (I bet you all doing the same with me rn lol) only cause someone was more polite about there criticism than Raven, not cause the system was Painter.

I love how you all about boundaries while here you are harassing someone in there tumblr page."

^ when originally talking about this, this is what led me to remove the members from my server. Involving an innocent person and making them uncomfortable about it was upsetting, and if they can shit talk me, they can shit talk anyone in that server.

Here was me being a "dickrider" and also? They deleted all the messages so I wouldn't have evidence but I took screenshots while it was happening because I'm not a fucking idiot. The dickrider part was because someone gave feedback but they actually treated me nicely about it. They turned around and shit talked me with Raven who had already upset several members + gotten mad at someone of age for smoking a cigarette until I told them to knock it off in call. Several mods confirmed the behavior was disrespectful and not constructive, especially expecting that I'm writing pressure when I'm not. I'm writing Project Solace.

^ them having deleted their messages. If they were in the right why the fuck did they delete them? They also at some point in the conversation claimed something along the lines of "well IM being called rude for giving criticism" when a member was confused as to what was going on.

Supposedly, this isn't jumping someone. But calling Sebastian a medieval peasant is.

I would also like to state, y'all are really expectant of an 18yo. Being a legal adult doesn't change the fact that I'm still young and have not lived even a quarter of my expected lifespan. My brain is still developing and I'm processing trauma and dealing with disability. I'm not going to be your "mature adult" it's eightTEEN because I am barely an adult myself. Being "oh you're so immature" as a defense is also ableist as fuck, by the way, especially when you're using it to put someone with mental disabilities down, whether you mean for it to be ableist or not it fucking is.

I think this is all the current stuff I have (I've hit photo limit as well) and I'm willing to find more and answer any questions about it.

I still also have the screenshots of all the BS they're harassing me with on @princeleonis but I suggest you go look yourself since I have in fact run out of photo space here. I will address them in a later post anyway, but if you'd like to know beforehand.

[official-project-solace]

YOU LITERALLY BULLIED MEDKIT LEAVE THEM THE FUCK OUT OF THIS

I'm still waiting for those GOD DAMN SOURCES Y'ALL REFUSE TO SHARE SO YOU CAN CLAIM I'M A FUCKING ZOOPHILE. YOU GOT MAD AT OTHER MINORS FOR MAKING JOKES ABOUT SEBASTIAN THEN CLAIM WE'RE HURTING MINORS. Get a fucking grip. I tried to be nice to you people. I was neutral to handle moderation. Y'all are sick.

[official-project-solace]

The fish will reign

I'm going to get your ass.

[big-round-fish-official]

We will see

[official-project-solace]

TRIGGER WARNING: DEATH, VIOLENCE. ONE OF SEVERAL TRAGEDY ROUTES

So in the eventual game, I plan for there to be modes where you can play as different types of characters. This is the idea I have for the soldier gameplay.

(in the actual version, you would be able to choose a merciful version of this!)

(I'm realizing I didn't mention the video game here. Yes we have @attiplayz as our lead game dev, we currently don't have the resources to make the full on game but it will be separate from Roblox entirely!)

Please enjoy the reading and share your thoughts I put a lot of my heart into this

You have a job to do.

Not everyone has come back from this. It's a risk, but it's one you're willing to take.

After all... Sebastian injured and killed so many of your coworkers. You, one of many soldiers, have the honor to avenge them.

But when you get down there, you meet Leonis. You remember seeing him around as others were tasked with training him and teaching him. He aims his gun at you, telling you, "you don't want to do this."

You don't understand how Leonis could be so attached to the monsters that kill in cold blood. He was always so kind. And now he holds the gun to your head?

Orders come through. "Knock him out. Do not kill." HQ says this urgently, "Tie him up and grab him on the way back if you can."

So, overcome with your anger, you manage to disarm him. Stomping on his tail to keep him from moving too far before slamming your own gun against the back of his head. When he falls, you grab zipties off your belt pouch and make sure his hands are tied behind his back. You move on.

When you reach the shop, Sebastian is asleep. Extremely lucky, as others have never encountered him like so.

You can end it now. But you see a picture on the desk. One where he's... Human.

He's smiling, and he's with two others. You realize slowly that it's his siblings, before the Solace Project commenced. Leonis is small, and Vanessa is giving bunny ears to the two. A wave of understanding hits you like a train.

Are they monsters? Or are they trying to survive? Who is really in the wrong here?

You can spare them. Or, you can follow orders.

Today, you let your anger win.

You remember all the faces you'll never see again.

"It's me or you."

But before you can pull the trigger, a voice yells for sebastian to wake up. It's Painter, over the glitching walkie talkie.

Sebastian quickly rises and swipes at you, but you're prepared. You jump back and start shooting.

There's not much room for him to dodge. Bullets hit him and he yells, but it's not enough to take him down.

The fight lasts forever, or so it seems. You don't go down easily, and neither does he. Especially with the adrenaline PATH is providing you to keep you up.

This is the closest anyone has ever been.

You manage to swipe something off the desk- and it turns out to be a smoke bomb. The shop fills with smoke, and your mask keeps your breathing easy. Sebastian on the other hand, he coughs as he mistakenly inhales it. He lost sight of you. You take the chance and pull out your knives, jumping at him as he turns around.

Your knives dig into him, deep. He roars in defiance, trying to get you off, but you've already cut deep and long. He collapses as you finally get off, gripping at the long, bleeding wounds.

For once, his voice sounds afraid. Complete and utterly afraid. "Wait- I have a family. Please don't-"

You shoot him in the head before he can finish his sentence. His lights flicker out.

Painter is screaming over the walkie. Begging for Sebastian to respond. Saying he's coming. He'll help.

You need to leave. You run, and when you pass the area Leon was in, he's gone. The ziptie broken on the ground.

PATH speaks. "Turrets are back under Echoshell control. Personnel are cleared for safe passage."

Turrets fire far behind you. You hear metal falling, crashing into the ground.

You make it back to the surface.

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Leon scrambles back to the shop. He heard the screams. The cries. Like visions in his head.

One room in front of the shop, he finds painter. His screen shattered and holes through his metal chest. His wires are sparking and his chip... has been shot straight through. The turret above pays no mind to Leon.

He screams at the sight of his dead best friend. Painter was like another brother to him. And they took him like he was just another piece of metal.

His eyes widen when he realizes that Sebastian hasn't come out of his shop. He runs in.

Blood is pooled on the ground. His brother is gone, a lifeless body snaking on the floor.

He screams again. He cries. His agony bloodcurdling, scaring even the toughest entities in the halls. His family is dead. And it was your fault.

⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘⫘

You're getting your injuries taken care of in the med bay. They're celebrating you, you did it. You did the impossible. Not only did you kill S-13, but you took down the computer with him even if by mistake.

When they finally give you space, you look at your own hands. Was it worth it?

That's when the lights go out. Alarms go off. You quickly gear up again, wincing a bit as you grab your gun and your knives.

The large metal door creaks. And then it glows.

Claws rip straight through the inches of metal. Sparking and tearing their way into the room.

When the door is ripped open, Leonis stands there. Patterns of lightning down his skin. His eyes a small cyan dot in the pools of black.

"YOU."

"YOU KILLED THEM. YOU TOOK THEM AWAY FROM ME! I TOLD YOU NOT TO DO IT! I'll fucking KILL YOU!"

He shoots towards you, still flowing brightly as he attacks. Ripping at your wounds. You don't stand a chance. You weakly grip your knife, stabbing blindly.

When he finally lets go of you, it's too late. You feel yourself slipping away. Leonis is collapsed next to you, gripping at the stab directly at his heart.

He's gone. But he took you down with him.

Tell me... Are you satisfied?

[official-project-solace]

Are you still beefing with that weird talking puffer fish?

Shhh, don't wake it up...

[big-round-fish-official]

So they remember...

[official-project-solace]

The pufferfish is evil.

[big-round-fish-official]

No fish is evil we just are

[official-project-solace]

FISH

Puffer

*gunshots*

[big-round-fish-official]

Go my people go

[official-project-solace]

It's been a while old friend

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GET. OUT.

@big-round-fish-official I WANT YOU DEAD.

[big-round-fish-official]

Where does your hatred and wants stem from? Is it because of how you feel about yourself?

[official-project-solace]

pufferfish you say

the eyes of your god will only keep you safe so much longer.

[big-round-fish-official]

you shan't know peace

[the-epic-curators]

Ever wanted to write about your ocs but you were too lazy? Trying to find the perfect tailor made fanfic for your taste but nothing was good enough? Well you're in luck because we're stranded in another country and all our economies are about to disappear out of the window!

Emergency writing commission!

If you aren't interested but still have money I deeply need some and would appreciate donations.

Payment:

Between 3 to 5 dollars per 500+ words.

Fandom:

Riordanverse,thg (sequels included), LO, Atla, Haikyuu, Apothecary diary, LO, early Ninjago, your own;) ( aka your ocs ) pressure, dandy's world, mha, some other feel free to ask

Boundaries:

✓ angst, hurt/comfort, fluff, romance, ships of your choice including cracks one.

× Hard gore, nsfw for minors/unknown age, illegal ship, mention of past abuse is fine but writing hard abuse happening might take a toll on me.

[big-round-fish-official]

The fish need money to not float to the surface