Me and this this guy, Issac, were really close. I met him at my 9th grade orientation and have talked to him since (this is almost two years of being friends. ) Ever since Covid started, I hadn't been able to see him. We talked almost everyday and it was awesome, but at the same time, you still feel like your missing something. So on January 1st of this year (2021) I snuck him into my room. It was 12:30am when he got to my house, everyone was asleep. This was the most risky thing I had ever done. It was something I thought only happened in movies. But it was exhilarating. We started watching movies, and by the end of the night we were cuddling and he reaches over, grabs my face, and kisses me. This was my first kiss, and I couldn't have imagined it any better. And at the end of the night, he left and I thought we were going to last forever. But a month later, my mother saw that my window didn't have the screen on the outside, which it always does. There was no way to get out of it. So I told her what happened, and what she did was very unexpected. She calls Issac with my phone so he would answer, and tells him to leave me alone. To never have contact with me. "I'm trying to raise my daughter right and you aren't helping". Issac responded to her like he didn't care that he couldn't talk to me anymore. So ever since that day, I have not spoken to him. I haven't spoken to the person I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I haven't spoken to the person I thought I was going to travel the world with. Then, out of nowhere he texts me. I had a choice to make; Am I going to start talking to someone that doesn't really care about me? I replied and after our 4 reply conversation, I blocked him and deleted all of our messages. I figured, why should i keep reminding myself of someone that didn't actually care for me? Hopefully I feel better soon, cause right now, my heart kind of hurts. I hope no one reading this has to go through something like this. I just have to remember that this situation is in God's hands now. To the person reading this, know your worth. I know, easier said then done. But every single one of you are the most precious things out there. "Before you were born, I set you apart" Jeramiah 1:5.
