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Genuinely questioning if I’m having a heart attack at 23 so that’s super fun
The “haha everything is cake” meme going around is legitimately triggering dissociation and I can’t actually look at it without feeling like I’m on the verge of losing my mind and actually thinking my body is not my body but that’s Not Fun To Talk About so I’m just gonna hang on by this thread until a new meme sweeps the nation
(out of spoons, can someone please write this out for our screen reading friends?)
[Image: a facebook post by Emily Bolander. Transcription of text below]
I speak English.
I live in Japan and only speak English, and maybe 20 Japanese phrases.
I grew up in a world of “go back to where you came from. This is America. We speak English here.”
Not once has any individual in Japan told me, “This is Japan. We speak Japanese. Go back to where you came from.” Not one time.
Individuals give up their seats in waiting rooms, on trains, or on busses here when they see me pregnant or carrying my children. No words, just a simple standing and gesturing for me to sit in their place.
I can barely thank them in their native language.
Masks were worn here before a global pandemic ever surfaced. Before Covid-19 was circulating rampantly, the Japanese people wore masks to protect their communities.
Not themselves.
Me.
They didn’t want ME to get their sniffles, and they expect me to not want to give them mine.
It’s not political. It’s not an infringement of rights. It’s a matter of, “Maybe it’s just allergies, but I dont know that for sure, so I wear a mask to keep from spitting on you when I speak.”
Freedom is a beautiful thing, yes.
But collectivism isn’t a threat to freedom, y'all.
Caring about someone else’s reality doesn’t make you weak, and for the love of God it doesn’t make you a “sheeple.”
Community is a beautiful thing.
So is compassion.
So is empathy.
I love my country dearly, hear that. But in so many ways, I KNOW we can do better.
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Am I scared because the world is falling apart and so am I or am I scared because a big looming irrational fear is the hallmark of psychosis for me apparently
As if the side effects of psychosis, increased suicidal ideation, and gastrointestinal upset weren’t bad enough while I was taking the medication, it also gave me fucking hemorrhoids!!! At the ripe old age of 23!!!!! I just can’t catch a goddamn break!!!!!!!!!!
Yo wassup guess who just puked because she had to put socks on as part of homework for therapy? This bitch
It’s day two of crazy camp and my brain can’t access my emotions but my emotions can access my stomach so RIP lunch
Also I HATE that there are two therapists who are late every time I show up and I’m early every time.
And I have a headache already and I intentionally left my meds at home bc it’s compulsive for me to over pack for literally everything and I thought it would be an exposure
Yo I’m fuckin tired and I want to quit this program bc it’s emotionally exhausting but that’s the point and I’m already a quarter of the way through
Yo tell me why I’m paying these people $150 an hour to sit me in a room while they print out forms and fall asleep while I’m baring my darkest secrets
I want to tell my therapists that me being ok time/other people being on time to meet with me triggers my ocd super hard but it feels v passive aggressive to do that because this is the second time in two days that they’ve been late
I start a partial hospitalization program for my OCD tomorrow and I have so many feelings about it but the main one is tired
Ooh wassup did you know that telling your parents that you’re suicidal does NOT make them lay off you??? In fact, mine are now paying VERY CLOSE attention to me. And I’m v glad to have such a good support system but oh boy this is awkward
Well my therapist just cancelled 15 minutes before my appointment. Why can she cancel within 24 hours and I can’t? And why does literally everyone cancel meetings with me 20 minutes before they’re supposed to fucking start
I don’t want to do therapy today because today is the first day since we started that I’m going to have to tell my therapist that I’m doing bad
I guess I’m thankful for the 24 hour cancellation rule bc I’m too broke to pay for a session I didn’t use so I gotta go even though all I want to do is bail