Ohhh my god, I might have found the perfect guy. Why does he have to live in a different country when we're both starting to catch feels đ«
Ever had a guy say he would consider traveling to a different country just to meet YOU?? Y'all, as someone who thought they were pretty worthless not that long ago, this feels like some kind of fever dream.
This is getting out of hands. I like him. A lot. I can't get him out of my head. He seems to be everything I've ever wanted to find in a guy, wtf?
Ok SO let's catch up here:
We've both admitted to having a crush on the other person.
He's been sweet talking, nerdy talking and dirty talking to me to the point where I've literally have had to stop him because I simply cannot.
He's looked up what traveling from the UK costs??
He's been sending me some... suggestive pics if ya know what I mean.
We've stayed up late talking for three nights, last night I was up until 6 am.
I'm like really attracted to him??
What even is reality??
Holy hell just happened??
I just accidentally did something embarrassing and I'm pretty sure I won't hear the end of it đ
Next update, he said he might be falling for me and I said the feeling might be mutual. This is so so very unlike me, what is happening?!
A while later he was at a bar with friends and saw a bottle of presumably finnish vodka (for context, I'm part finnish and had just been to Finland to celebrate their new year), so I told him it was probably that. And then he sent me a video of him and his friends yelling "Perkele" and drinking the stuff.
Ya'll, this guy... is something special.
Look, I don't even have words at this point. There might be some real feelings involved.
And I haven't even met the guy in person. Yet, at least. But the odds of that happening is increasing by the day.
Yeah, no, I have totally fallen. We talk for hours every day, and our calls last 3-4 hours. He also beat my ass in chess, which I lowkey liked. I've told him pretty much everything, and he hasn't ran away. At this point, it's very likely we will meet in the spring.
Ohhh my god, this might be the cutest thing ever. But yesterday (and again today) he asked if I could just talk so that he could fall asleep to the sound of my voice, so I just rambled on in both english and swedish for like an hour until he had fallen asleep.
Tonight we had a very serious conversation, and we talked about some things that really needed to be talked about. Long story short, we're both equally scared and confused about what this could lead to, but if we want to continue this (which we both do) then it may need to become a bit more serious at this point.
And I found out one very important detail that I had been super anxious to tell him about, since I know that could be a deal breaker for many, turns out we both feel the same. You have no idea how relieved I was.
February 10th.
"I love you, too"
See you march 23rd.
Goddammit. Looks like we'll be quarantined, in different countries.
I think it's time for an update. It's now August, and we've known eachother for a little over 7 months. We've been... what's the best description here... inofficially officially together for a couple of months. By that I mean, he has called me his girlfriend and I've called him my boyfriend since april-may-ish, and quite a few people know about us. He is my best friend and so much more than that. He knows everything about me and is my safety when things get tough, and I can't imagine life without him anymore. If nothing goes wrong, we will in two weeks finally meet in Germany on the 20th of August. Flights are booked.
(He is also the only person who knows my url on tumblr, so if you go snooping on my blog without telling me and you see this, I love you... and HEY)
I've spent the last 4 days in Germany with the guy I met online last year. I've cried all day, because today I had to leave after experiencing some of the best days of my life with the man I love. It took almost 9 months, but we did it. We met. It literally took 10 minutes, that was all that was needed; then I felt right at home, like we've done this many times before. I've never experienced anything like it. We did so many different things, and the whole time I felt like we've been together for years. I have not been this happy in years. I genuinely hope I get to spend the rest of my life with this person. But next up, the plan is for me to go see him in the UK in a month or two, if the travel restrictions allow it.
Well, how about another update to the story? The plan for me to go to the UK didn't really work out. My schedule was so intense that I couldn't find more than maybe 5 days where I could be absent without suffering for it. So instead - he came here! To stay with me in Sweden for a week and a half! Then Boris Johnson said that he couldn't go back home... for a month. So what did he do? He canceled his flight home and stayed with me for a whole extra month! Suddenly, someone had "accidentally" temporarily moved in with me. I sure wasn't complaining, and neither was he. Sure, we've had a few incidents when we've gone on eachother's nerves or said something stupid (we both have stuff we need to work on and get better at), but we always get past it. He left a couple days ago, and I really miss him. Somehow my own apartment feels different when he's here, and it was very strange when he had left. I was worried that I wouldn't particularly like having someone live with me, especially since my apartment is tiny, but I loved it and now I can't wait for him to come back in a few months. Though, the plan is for me to go there in a month or two. And of course it was quite different to have him here, compared to traveling together through Germany. But it's also nice to do less stressful things, even though they may not be as exciting. We did get up to a few things. He got to meet my family and a few close friends. He got to see reindeer and a fair amount of snow (which he don't get to see very often). Try a lot of Swedish food, snacks and drinks. Try an outdoor sauna, and a hot tub outside the sauna while it was snowing. Do some archery at my club and see the finnish border. But we also just stayed in and cooked dinner together, had movie nights, beat a couple video games and cuddled. And a bunch of other stuff as well.
I think it's pretty safe to say that I want to do a lot more of all that with him. To travel, go on little adventures, have game nights, experience things together and eventually actually live together. I've found a best friend and boyfriend in the same person, and I could not feel luckier. I mean, he DID travel to a different country to come see me almost a year later. It's certainly strange to think that we started actually talking almost a year ago, it was around Christmas, and that it happened on Instagram. But it did, and we've been together for... well, we don't have a specific date, but about 7 months or so. I did fall in love with someone from Instagram, somehow he fell in love with me too.
It's been another six-ish months, so I think another update is due. Because of the pandemic, as well as our respective governments, we haven't been able to see eachother for five and half months (and counting), but he has booked a one-way ticket here for June which we're really hoping he won't have to cancel. That hug at the airport is going to be one of the happiest moments of my life, I'm sure of that. He plans on staying here the entire summer. It's been a rough start to the year for reasons I don't want to disclose on the internet, but we're both on the same page; we're both in it for the long run. He wants to move here in a couple of years, then one day we want to buy a house and get married. Which might seem a little nutty to say already, since we've actually only met in person on two occations. But let me say this: if you can maintain a relationship almost exclusively over the internet for over a year during a global pandemic, when you can't even see eachother by law, and still feel like it's worth it, then it probably is going to be worth it. I suppose that's my wisdom for the day.
