Seriously, just post (more) pics of your cat.

A put upon bureaucrat/spreadsheet farmer who procrastinates about writing his mediocre fan fiction stories in his free time. Posting stuff about Until Dawn as well as occasional random stuff about American politics and sports. And random pics of my cat (The eponymous Big Cat Chuck) who can be seen not liking his baseball cap in my avatar. More or less got talked into this by an overcaffeinated Australian. :) Cis/Hetero(mostly)/He/Him. Probably a tad bit too old for this shit. :)  

[slowmotion-accident]

When you’re in a Zoom meeting and you almost shared the browser window with 16k wlw pwp open

[holeybubushka]

I always lowkey worry I will somehow show the drafts of my Smut with Feelings story to my colleague. Then I will be fired and never, ever live it down.

[bigcatchuck19]

Consider where you work, it would be one hell of a resignation notice.

[bigcatchuck19]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Never really thought that this story would be my re-entry into writing after nearly three years but here we go. Thanks to @holeybubushka both for reading over the “smooth” draft and for watching a bunch of cutscenes on youtube so she had the slightest idea what I was writing about. :) 

[cromsferatu-deactivated20250915]

More from the stream, Mona Sax from Max Payne.

[bigcatchuck19]

Mona deserved better.

I don't even mean surviving Max Payne 2. As much as I hate admitting it, her death at the end of the game makes more narrative sense than her surviving. Max isn't allowed to be happy. And the anti-villain hit woman confessing her love for the anti-hero cop. Admitting she can't bring herself to kill him. Only to be fatally wounded by the actual big bad, dying redeemed, plays into some classic tropes.

But Max's later dismissing of her as a harpy and acting as though she seduced him. Instead of both submitting to mutual sexual tension going back to the first game. While implying he should have killed her over Winterson, who was a crooked cop planning on killing both Max and Mona regardless. When Mona either spared or saved his life on numerous occasions. That's just shitty.

And yes, I realize Max isn't a reliable narrator, and a lot of his disdain towards her is his deflecting his guilt about his perceived cheating on his (long dead) wife onto Mona. Not to mention Rockstar not wanting to make either her death or her survival explicitly canonical in Max Payne 3. But it still annoys me.

Guess I might have to do something about that. I never thought I would end up writing fic for a game that came out seventeen years ago, especially considering my other still outstanding projects. But it's stuck in my craw, and I'm beginning to suspect only writing will yank it out. This is what I get for watching old long plays as background noise while working. 

@holeybubushka I’ll trade you watching some Motherland for watching cutscenes of MP2 so you have the slightest idea what I’m talking/writing about (Kidding...sorta). :) 

[ms-mazarin]

Words to replace said, except this actually helps

I got pretty fed up with looking for words to replace said because they weren’t sorted in a way I could easily use/find them for the right time. So I did some myself.

IN RESPONSE TO Acknowledged Answered Protested

INPUT/JOIN CONVERSATION/ASK Added Implored Inquired Insisted Proposed Queried Questioned Recommended Testified

GUILTY/RELUCTANCE/SORRY Admitted Apologized Conceded Confessed Professed

FOR SOMEONE ELSE Advised Criticized Suggested

JUST CHECKING Affirmed Agreed Alleged Confirmed

LOUD Announced Chanted Crowed

LEWD/CUTE/SECRET SPY FEEL Appealed Disclosed Moaned

ANGRY FUCK OFF MATE WANNA FIGHT Argued Barked Challenged Cursed Fumed Growled Hissed Roared Swore

SMARTASS Articulated Asserted Assured Avowed Claimed Commanded Cross-examined Demanded Digressed Directed Foretold Instructed Interrupted Predicted Proclaimed Quoted Theorized

ASSHOLE Bellowed Boasted Bragged

NERVOUS TRAINWRECK Babbled Bawled Mumbled Sputtered Stammered Stuttered

SUAVE MOTHERFUCKER Bargained Divulged Disclosed Exhorted

FIRST OFF Began

LASTLY Concluded Concurred

WEAK PUSY Begged Blurted Complained Cried Faltered Fretted

HAPPY/LOL Cajoled Exclaimed Gushed Jested Joked Laughed

WEIRDLY HAPPY/EXCITED Extolled Jabbered Raved

BRUH, CHILL Cautioned Warned

ACTUALLY, YOU’RE WRONG Chided Contended Corrected Countered Debated Elaborated Objected Ranted Retorted

CHILL SAVAGE Commented Continued Observed Surmised

LISTEN BUDDY Enunciated Explained Elaborated Hinted Implied Lectured Reiterated Recited Reminded Stressed

BRUH I NEED U AND U NEED ME Confided Offered Urged

FINE Consented Decided

TOO EMO FULL OF EMOTIONS Croaked Lamented Pledged Sobbed Sympathized Wailed Whimpered

JUST SAYING Declared Decreed Mentioned Noted Pointed out Postulated Speculated Stated Told Vouched

WASN’T ME Denied Lied

EVIL SMARTASS Dictated Equivocated Ordered Reprimanded Threatened

BORED Droned Sighed

SHHHH IT’S QUIET TIME Echoed Mumbled Murmured Muttered Uttered Whispered

DRAMA QUEEN Exaggerated Panted Pleaded Prayed Preached

OH SHIT Gasped Marveled Screamed Screeched Shouted Shrieked Yelped Yelled

ANNOYED Grumbled Grunted Jeered Quipped Scolded Snapped Snarled Sneered

ANNOYING Nagged

I DON’T REALLY CARE BUT WHATEVER Guessed Ventured

I’M DRUNK OR JUST BEING WEIRDLY EXPRESSIVE FOR A POINT/SARCASM Hooted Howled Yowled

I WONDER Pondered Voiced Wondered

OH, YEAH, WHOOPS Recalled Recited Remembered

SURPRISE BITCH Revealed

IT SEEMS FAKE BUT OKAY/HA ACTUALLY FUNNY BUT I DON’T WANT TO LAUGH OUT LOUD Scoffed Snickered Snorted

BITCHY Tattled Taunted Teased

Edit: People, I’m an English and creative writing double major in college; I understand that there’s nothing wrong with simply using “said.” This was just for fun, and it comes in handy when I need to add pizzazz. 

[bigcatchuck19]

Writing again? Maybe.

So for the first time in nearly three years, I’m feeling the urge to write some fan fic. And of course instead of being in my dormant main fandom, the story stuck in my head is for a fandom which is more or less non-existent. Or at least not big on the whole reading and writing fan fic. (sigh). Still, here’s a hint of the fandom (a huge one if you recognize it) as I try to decide if I want to fall down another rabbit hole or see if the feeling passes like gas from a bad burrito. 

[bigcatchuck19]

Note to self: If you’re going to post something about potentially writing again. Remember that you only have five followers so the likelihood of your post actually getting read isn’t super great. 

Also, trying to think of a good plot when 95% of the named characters are dead at the end of the second game. Not super easy. :) 

[bigcatchuck19]

Writing again? Maybe.

So for the first time in nearly three years, I’m feeling the urge to write some fan fic. And of course instead of being in my dormant main fandom, the story stuck in my head is for a fandom which is more or less non-existent. Or at least not big on the whole reading and writing fan fic. (sigh). Still, here’s a hint of the fandom (a huge one if you recognize it) as I try to decide if I want to fall down another rabbit hole or see if the feeling passes like gas from a bad burrito. 

[cat-cosplay]

I'm sorry we've been so silent. I made and deleted a lot of posts because either they came off wrong or I would decide I didn't want to be a distraction in this moment.

We'll find our lane.

Until we get back, enjoy the Fact that Fawkes has mastered holding treats with no thumbs.

[pabuthefirecat]

Orijen Regional Cat Treats

You got a present for Christmas, Pabu!

Pabu: Pabu has never tried wild boar or angus beef before…

Pabu: The back says you can give it all to Pabu now.

Pabu: It tastes like my other treats.

That’s the bag.  The treats are inside, Pabu.

Pabu: No, the treats are not inside Pabu yet..

[takeddd]

#あれやこれや 酔った勢いなので愚痴っておくが…テレビ番組の劣化が著しい。ニュース番組で鯖の塩焼きのことを”塩鯖“と言ったり…網にかかった鮎を”1個“とか数えるし…もっかい小学校から出直してこいの世界だし…生番組でもないのに編集もせずに垂れ流す局なのかアナウンサー室も恥ずかしくないのだろうか…😭💦 ちなみに朝はTBSの”あさチャン“派なのだが…とにかく訂正が多い…間違い気づき直す姿勢は良いと思うけど…あまりの多さに本当呆れる💦 訂正するより減らす努力しろっての…💦 夏目さんは好きだけど…ただの好感度の高い置物みたいな存在なのが痛い😰 https://www.instagram.com/p/Br7fncfFDN0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=8pmqloocyjuw

[cat-cosplay]

I think the reason I finally introduced you all to Pike today was that over the course of the last couple of days I realize just how much Fawkes had grown. At first adjusting to her affection was awkward for him. But over the last month he’s blossomed into such a “Dad of the year”. We never imagined him as such. He was always a loving cat but it was always on “his terms”. He would protest any cuddle he didn’t initiate. We started the search for Pike after he started acting depressed in November. It took a few weeks and 7 shelters. We just didn’t find anyone who ‘clicked’. We met Pike at a Vet Clinic in Covington. She is a Feral Rescue from Eastern Washington. She was scared but it didn’t stop her curiosity. She climbed up unto my shoulders and looked around for our whole visit. Inquisitive, calm. I thought she might get along with my calm boy. In the last month we’ve learned she has 2 modes. Calm, cuddly, loving… And Philip J Fry after 99 cups of coffee. And Fawkes plays Dad for both. He’s even scolded her with chirps when she starts getting destructively fast. So it finally clicked, she’s one of us now.

[rocksfalleveryonedies]

until dawn wmg: the player is a protector spirit trying to hinder the wendigo

THIS THEORY IS AMAZING AND I LOVE IT

Given the supernatural nature of the game, and the only one who is somewhat aware of the player is Josh, indicated from when he says ‘I trust you’, your role in the game isn’t that of the kids trying to survive, but a spirit trying to guide them to safety as best as you can. The reason some of the choices don’t affect the outcome is because you can’t intervene directly. You are trying your best to protect these kids from the wendigos but your influence can only go so far, relying on the right circumstances and the kids to meet you halfway. Your most direct influence is guiding Josh, who acknowledges you through his hallucinations. If this is held to be true, it would explain why you can wait while thinking about which conversation option to have without taking up alot of in-game time, being a spirit, time has no meaning to you as you contemplate how to point the way. This would also make the player a fantastic strategist under the assumption that you can get the group to safety throughout the entire night, micromanaging everything and even having to split your attention between groups….Or you’d be a failure who allows every single one of them to die.

[bigcatchuck19]

My personal pet theory, the player is Beth. Like for the entire game. At the start you actually get to control her through the point where she falls off the cliff. Then you’re her spirit trying to save (or not) her friends indirectly through influencing their choices etc...

[pragnificent]

Reblog if you are a fic writer who welcomes moodboards, playlists, remixes, art and any other type of gift based on your stories.

[papi-chulo-bucky]

Please 😭♥️

[holeybubushka]

The second Damsel/Chloe make out again I am commissioning a fic @auctoritas-ritae

[bigcatchuck19]

Although I suppose I would actually have to start writing again to justify any of these.

[trasemc]

The most iconic cats snaps of 2018

[justsomeantifas]

them: SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST MEANS HUMANS MUST BE INDIVIDUALLY SELF-SUFFICIENT AND COMPLETELY INDEPENDENT

biologist:

[systlin]

Like literally the only reason we didn’t go extinct is because we are aggressively social creatures who community organized and helped each other when faced with disasters that drove other species over the brink. 

 (Like we’re so aggressively social that we looked at APEX PREDATORS and went ‘they look soft! Friend????’)

(The answer was yes because wolves are also aggressively social and they adopted the strange tall not-wolves just as eagerly.)

[kelssiel]

humans @ wolves: holy shit these things are so cute i wonder if they’ll let us pet them?

wolves @ humans: holy shit these things are so cute i wonder if they’ll pet us?

[aztechnology]

Just in case people want source, here you go: humans are compelled to help each other in disaster situation, humans feel an innate urge to help others. We will help strangers too, not just family, and it has been tested. 

[boxingcleverrr]

Also we’ve always taken care of our elderly and disabled. When life was literally “hunt and gather every day to live”, we saw value in taking care of those with disabilities. 

[apparentlyeverything]

reblog to make a libertarian mad

[cappucino-commie]

Humans: Collecting grain in any one area causes pests to follow soon after, and we’re not good enough at hunting them to save our grain. There’s no way this agriculture is sustainable!

Cats: We can take care of that.

Humans: At what price?

Cats: …pet us.

[holeybubushka]

Bad night for the conservative party here in Australia…

[bigcatchuck19]

I saw Labor went “four for four”, counting the independent who Labor was de facto backing. But I can’t find any clear info if these were all Labor holds or gains or a mixture of both. (To be fair, as your typical American, I’m not looking super hard but still...)

[minhtblue]

hey there! it’s about time for a new commission post!! pls visit my (commission info) page for more detailed information. just to reiterate, all prices are in canadian dollars. thank you very much!!

[minhtblue]

as of Jul 25, offering 3 slots for now at 15% off as a part of a lil summer sale. lemme know if you’re interested! addendum, (here’s my art tag) \o/

[bigcatchuck19]

The bladder issues combined with the lymphoma have won their battle against Chuck, far sooner than I could have imagined. Over the last two weeks, he lost another 1.5 pounds and blocked an additional four times including today (for eight blockages total). After much anguish on my part, I finally realized I could no longer allow him to waste away and suffer in exchange for the occasional (and increasingly infrequent) good day. As such, he was euthanized late this afternoon. While his body may be gone, his spirit will live on inside me and those others who loved him. Goodbye, my friend