The Junk Drawer

But like, prettier.

[blonde-roast]

smoking isn’t good

he lets me

but it hurts me

so i want to give it away

give it to the old man in your soul

who keeps hold of all your sins

your often mistakes

and your insecurities

you can trust he will keep it

and give it back when you are weak

no, i want to give it away

for good not just for now

it isn’t worth the high it gives

if it steals my peace and sound

[blonde-roast]

i don’t think she ever grew up

and that wasn’t a good thing

not a cute whimsical childlike thing

not a peter pan fairy tale fountain of youth thing

she just got stuck

along the way to learning from her mistakes

[blonde-roast]

Anyone want to dance in the rain with me and then maybe kiss

[blonde-roast]

and again, the tide recedes. so goes life i guess.

[blonde-roast]

What the hell is wrong with me. Every Monday night. Every single one, I fall apart at the end of the night. I become depressed and dissociate. I detach from everything around me and drift into a fog. Every week, always on Monday, always after dark. Why does my body and brain do this to me

[blonde-roast]

This whole thing feels so unreal, I can’t stop asking you, be honest with me. And to my surprise, each time you are, it isn’t rejection you admit, but more affection.

[blonde-roast]

Well you are a surprise

[blonde-roast]

And like the waves under moonlight, the tide draws itself back to sea. It’s cold fingers shuddering from the touch of the sand, refusing it’s embrace. The rocks echoing it’s sweet singing voice. It was a beautiful dance after all though.

[deadpoets-dorian]

Tumblr is the place for romantics who are scared of love

[blonde-roast]

Frik yeah

[blonde-roast]

Today I sang worship, and you taught the message, and it felt, like home.

[atraversso]

[blonde-roast]

It’s those dumb little things, like hearing you say my name to me out loud, or telling me that we are friends, good friends, that make my heart flutter

who knew that being friendzoned could feel so wonderful

[blonde-roast]

nothing .

[blonde-roast]

And now I remember, why it hurts so much.

[blonde-roast]

[blonde-roast]

I’ve realized he is the only person I feel totally safe with. And that week when I felt like my whole world was trembling, all I wanted to do was sit next to him.

[blonde-roast]

Today on 𝚖𝚢 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚊𝚍𝚑𝚍 I was scared to drive because I could not look at the boring cars in front of me for more than thirty seconds without my eyes wandering to billboards and restaurant names and counting seconds between the clicks of my left blinker verses my right blinker