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i swear i love and i hate you

[inkskinned]

“what the literal fuck are you doing? he is not your home, he hasn’t been in so long that even soft poetic souls know it’s time to let him go. you piece of shit. you never were good at things like this. you think because you loved him, it means he owes you the time of day? he didn’t ask for this. he didn’t ask you to stay. what are you doing? you know better than this. your teeth are knives and you are stone dragon. stop being soft for him. close off your ribs. close off your tongue, your spine, your lips. you aren’t supposed to care like this, like he’s the center of your happiness. why do you gotta be so fucking caught up in him? why couldn’t you just call it quits? what are you doing? why do you even give a shit?”

— [Love] Letters to Myself // r.i.d

[olearypoetry]

[cupidcore]

[gumuhit]

[throwupgirl]

actually i’d take a bullet for winnie the pooh and that is a rock fact

[anxietyproblem]

[ohsoftmimi]

u dumb if you let me go

[purplebuddhaquotes]

“Being raised in an unstable household makes you understand that the world doesn’t exist to accommodate you, which… is something a lot of people struggle to understand well into their adulthood. It makes you realize how quickly a situation can shift, how danger really is everywhere. But crises when they occur, do not catch you off guard; you have never believed you lived under a shelter of some essential benevolence. And an unstable childhood makes you appreciate calmness and not crave excitement.”

—

[inkskinned]

it’s just going to be like this, huh? i’m going to walk around with nightmares and what you did to me sitting in my stomach like a rotting peach and i’m just going to swallow hard and keep walking and i’m just going to have to live like this, knowing you’ll never apologize, knowing i don’t get closure, knowing i never get to yell at you until i shred apart, knowing i’m going to shred apart. 

and you get to live your life and forget about me and scoff about how im crazy or making shit up or how i’m just dramatic. you get to keep going, laugh about it, shrug it off. we both know i’m melodramatic. that my personal narrative is all messed up. that i make shit up.

like, it must be nice. showers are probably just showers for you. no standing in the water picturing what i’d say, what i’d do, how i’d show you. you get to walk away. that must be nice.

not all of us do.

[inkskinned]

“his knuckles were white when they wrapped too tightly around your wrist maybe that’s why the first time your fingers came in contact with the long line of a cigarette you fell in love like smoke-soul artists do your skin turned green in the places he had been maybe that’s why you’ve always sort of wanted to be under the grass rather than bask on top of it he bled you out until you became colorless.”

— (??? i found this in my drafts but i don’t remember writing it ???) // r.i.d

[mingdliu-deactivated20210422]

“You are allowed to still miss the things you walk away from.”

— Ming D. Liu Instagram: @travelingstoryteller

[littlewhip]

[kneehighsandlows]

Please let me suck on your fingers and look at how handsome you are.

[ernesthemingwayerotica]

okay. 😏

[faceszs-deactivated20160605]

fuck me as hard as i hate myself

[horrorrorr-deactivated20170505]

Kink: feeling your pulse through a knife blade

[strawberriesforastrology-deacti]

Breaking Astrology Down

Your Sun is about yourself. Your Moon is your heart. Your Rising is how you look. Your Mercury is the way you think. Your Venus is how you love. Your Mars is how you deal with life. Your Jupiter is your luck. Your Saturn is how you discipline yourself and your responsibilities. Your Uranus is how unique you are. Your Neptune is your imagination. Your Pluto is your transformation. Your Chiron is how you heal. Your Ceres is how you take care of yourself. Your Pallas is your relationships. Your Juno is beauty and Influences. Your Vesta is your potential and your organization. Your North Node is how you develop in your current life. Your South Node is how you developed in your past life. Your Midheaven is your career, how others view you. Your Lilith is your hidden emotions.

[hplyrikz]

“So I drank one, it became four, and when I fell on the floor I drank more. Nothing has changed, I still love you, I still love you.”

— Morrissey (via hplyrikz)