Dream Journal/ Diary

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DREAM JOURNALING/ ONLINE DIARY

My life with clairsentence × carrd

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6/8/26 Dream Entry

Had a weird dream about a family and getting married with kids, King paimon diddled me and i think i responded not well.

2nd dream I actually cannot write down. Lots of nsfw which was purely King Paimon doing shit.

I spent the dream walking in a empty scary building my dad rented. I walked exploring the halls, me and King Paimon talked for a bit. He was spittiny pure like bullshit about sexuality and how ppl see me, especially family. We have intercourse and I'm a lot more receptive and sorta instigating i think. Something about what he said made me like be like fuck it idk. I remember some nsfw tidbits. Like him telling me to spread my legs wider or something about me moaning very fake. Lol.

Anyways I go back to my rented home and the glass window is shattered. So I leave to go to people down the block. I tell them i need help, I'm like pantless and disheveled. They listen but I get kidnapped and promptly diddled again but a bit more like, odd.

What is king Paimon's obsession with sexual energy or domination through sex. Save me.

3rd dream i was cleaning glass off the floor on my knees. Ouchie. I was stuck cleaning a yhatt as my family all leaves me but i stay back.

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6/5/26 Dream Entry

I dreamt I was intimate with mutiple people, i laid on a bet as they touched me, a few men and one women. And my eyes lit up at the women touching me, like i legit was like !!!!!!

They touch me and pleasure me by hurting me mostly,

I remember holding a mans finger as he opened a curtain for people to watch. They keep shoving things inside me till i throw up. Hitting me, and more. A lot of punishment. I tell them I'm afraid of sex. They stop for a moment. Talk to me about it to which i was like no, I'm being kinky get to work lmao. They are like "oh?" And get back to it.

Eventually i see King Paimon, he walks away to which i think I call out for him. He comes back.

He looks exactly like this person I always assumed looked like him. I guess he's refusing to show me his face again. He normally does not let me see him. He's wearing a veil type headress (this because he knows i find them cute lol)

The people I'm intimate with hold me as i sink into the wall with them, them dragging me with them into into it. I kiss King Paimon's hand, it has a ring on it i think. And boom we're somewhere else just talking. I tell him i want to see him more often, he shows me a sigil in my eye. Talks about anointing, not me, but describing it touching someones forehead or smth. He did not anointe me bjt i think he did touch my forehead idk. I see a women to which he says why on earth is it always a "her". Lol.

2nd dream I dreamt of King Paimon and me, he was in the form of my oc, which he has been doing. He is like a duke demon royal so makes sense. Gay as hell. We walk together in the rain and such, we talk, we go to a store and look at ice-cream.

Then boom he's king Asmoday, mind you its just king paimon pretending at least i hope ifk lol. We talk about having a kid together, but its more like me trying to convince him too have one with me. I say they would be like cute and hes like dude i don't care LMAO.

my oc is there again and im in love with him, i confess my love and i spill my tarot deck everywhere. I feed him food and we all chill. But that's like in the last in thr future he's happily dating someone. Smth about cleaning my room.

Suddenly I'm with King Paimon and he's wearing like the body of my ex fiancee. I start getting emotional, i call him like a dick and i can't deal with this. Which is thr first time i actually responded very badly to king paimon in a dream, he changes forms again. Now he's like shit talking Spencer for me and that calms me down back into laying on the bed again.

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I actually wonder why King Paimon treats me so poorly. He simply just answered cause he wants too lol.

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Legit reasoning behind this is because he doesn't like my strong personality lol.

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6/3/26 Dream Entry

In which King Paimon is lying and being manipulative,

I dreamt of him but he was younger, i guess since He knows I do not like men idk. Still a man but okay. He's in my house and we kiss, i don't remember it much besides being sweet. And then we have sex to which he says he didn't expect to like it so much, which is him bullshitting idk why.

I tell him to be useful and brush my hair which he does.

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6/2/26 Dream Entry

First dream I sang a song about King Paimon, King Asmoday, Marquis Andras, and King Belial. I was fighting with a girl that worshipped someone and was trying to worship Lucifer. I just told her to do whatever and hit me with what she got.

2nd dream, I dreamt I was a kid again in school. I spent class talking to people, i told a girl i was clairvoyant and could see the future. I told a girl she has a baby and her best friend supports her despite the dad leaving.

I talk to more classmates, smth about pulling a man despite being fat.

Class dismissal happens and i clean and tidy up a bed, ny teacher callscme good. I start putting my clothes on, half tooken off by me, theres these dark green stocking covered in bows, legwarmers, a uniform skirt. A teacher hears me singing and tells me i should consider applying for choir. My childhood best friend comes and im like in love with her, i tell her i love her, tell her mom i love her. Write her lesbian poems lol. My dad comes in upset i took so long, i apologize saying i was just busy and needed to get changed. The teacher blames me, im shocked for a second before allowing it. I simply tell my dad be nice to her she couldn't help it. I walk with my dad out, we talk about my toy, a yellow monkey. And then i say lets go i want to spend his money. I think if i went back in time i would do all these things, especially tell my dad funny jokes.

Dream ended with king Paimon telling me every trans man is a hole reserved for pee bro. He just be saying shit.

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I actually wonder why King Paimon treats me so poorly. He simply just answered cause he wants too lol.

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5/31/26 Dream entry

Today was a weird dream. My head was forced in a birdcage contraption and i was raped by mutiple men.

I sat in a sermon and thought of king Asmoday during it finding it all bullshit. I sat in my car i think thinking what sin i am most of, not gluttony, not wrath, not lust.

I woke up to king paimon dude calling me lamb and that he will possess me. He's bullshitting so lol.

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5/30/26 Dream entry

This dream king Paimon tried to scare me lol.

He came in the form of this weird hairless thin creature who fogged my vision. He saif his name was like "pyalsous" something idk.

I tried to do tarot but couldn't as all my decks were mixed together.

Said monster says they like attached humans, says something romantic to which im like man i just want a friend.

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5/28/26 Dream entry

Dreamt i was cleaning my old house, found mizi in places and a whole bunch of chobicons. Yay!

Dreamt i was at a beach and my skirt like ripped, an old man came close and i was immediately shocked as he touched my thigh. He genly held the clothes together till i realized and asked me if it was better now child. He turned into a bear and left.

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5/27/26 Dream entry

I dreamt of a off looking man telling me i need to looser with my boundaries with sex. Lol.

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5/26/26 dream entry

In my dream I'm in my house getting ready for school. I ended up drawing all night and slept in. Jessie helps me dress up into a cute oufit decorated with bones and I'm happy. I wear black out contacts and my eyes are fully black.

My mom sees this and tells me my eyes turn black cause i talk to demons so much. Tells me rudely to get ready for school. This upsets me and i lash out. She leaves and i end up staying home.

Im at school sitting next to my mom and siting next to a girl, my body faces my mom afrsif she'll see my eyes. Thr girl tells me shes a lesbian and i fully face her instead.

I noticed a hole in a lesbian flag and comment on it. I pick a fight with a man defensively over it. Mutiple men come as me to be with them and i state im uninterested, under the excuse i hate tall men. A short man comes and i fall to my knees and scream but realized im not attracted. They laugh at me.

I'm in my house stuck, i see a pamplet of greek gods saying to pray to them. I open it and she aphrodite, i pray to her and light a pink candle. Despite the lighter barely worlking it works and it takes aflame. I pray to her telling her I'm sorry i left, how king paimon stressed me out so i ran away from all gods wanting to just rest and not worship.

"Aprodite speaks" she tells me my viewpoint on hating men is damaging. Saying women are evil and capable of evil too.

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5/25/26 Dream entry

A lot happened but i was talking to my mother. She buys me very pink frilly clothes. I tell her thank you, but when do i wear pink frills? She says something about wearing them before. To which i tell her, yeah when i was like 7. I'm trans, and not changing. She falls to her knees and cries.

I dreamt of king paimon talking to me, in it i ask what he can do as i look in the mirror. My eyes start changing rapidly flickering weirdly and foggy. I go about my day like normal ignoring the curse. Petting my dog happily.

Theres a scene wear theres this sadist and 5 subs tied up on each side on a cube bed. Theres a couple tied up with eachother, the sadist pentrates the man as he pentrates the women. He is aggressive and thr sadist uses a knife against his back.

Then there's a man whose thr parenter of the women watching ties up. On the othef side is a women tied down being tortured. Theres a needle next to her.

I was playing in my dream a videogame that was hard but funny. Im it i fight a cat lepord thing. We fight it and it was so taxing i decide to wake up.

2nd dream, we went on this date as a older pair (?) We say together talking about my hometown. We nuzzled faces together.

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5/23/26 dream entry

I was in a dream fantasizing about a women, afraid I'd accidentally think of a demon called ose(?) O something. The demon women had the same name. She looked like devil mizi.

I was in a house with like a stalker, everyone grabs knoves to protect me, but i keep accidentally stabbing myself.

Im in a school bus with Jessie, we talk about a boy and how cute he is. Someone says they like hearing women talk like objectifying men. I get off the bus and do a gyaru dance as I'm a gyaru. It isnt a school more like an agency. I pick out clothes. Get to a shower room with a plush. I stand there allowing at the men to look at me nude.

Eventually king paimon talks to me, he says aren't you curious about the correct ways of maybe eating or sacrificing anims and what humans are supposed to do. I say no lol. Give a small rant on my opinions saying i was open to vegetarianism if it was wrong. Something about ants. King paimon tells me to choose a race, i say i want to be Brazilian. But i think he comes as a ginger Brazilian man lol. He has hair that covers one eye. He lets me hold his dick while he peed, says it's intimate. I told him to shut up and use his actual voice instead of speaking in my brain. It wasnt sexual, just held it and he peed. He aims it as someones foot and i scold him horrified. I shake it a little to watch.

Second dream, I dreamt I was running from people, i remember hiding from my ex fiancee in a closet. There was these 4 boys, very pretty or whatever claiming me. I was very forced. I looked a bit defeated with a white dress. I remember in the car clinging to one of them and i said i feel like im slowly forgetting im a lesbian and they simply answered good as i cried looking at photos of a girl (my oc). Weird dream.

Ex fiance sees me nude, takes photos to mock me and i fly away embarrassed. Although i try to own it at first.

3rd dream, we boinged(?) He was like not real or physical just a heavy pleasure. Gay.

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This is day 5 of ignoring king paimon and not having a convo with him! I'm very serious about this and feelijg great!!!

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5/19/26 dream entry

I was in my childhood room cleanings sorting buttons and beads.

I was driving my parents car around. I see my ex fiancee and we chat and he gets in (?) We talk and its smth along the lines of gettinf together. He steals from people, he shows me a $10 dollars he just got. I remember judging him. We drive to my old childhood house. I kiss him and then go to the front door nervous if they will accept him or not. And my parents confront me. My mom goes through my room and finds these torn leggings i haven't worn since i was 12. It has a stain near the crotch that blueish and she immediately says I was having sex and its cum. I disagree and fight her on this, tell her i was a child and didn't do that. She refuses to understand that and says she removed everything out my room, which i was so excited to show my ex fiance my clean room.

I call for my ex fiancee but he doesn't listen, to focused on fixing the car as hes under it. My parents follow me as i leave. I remember pushing my mom gently on the floor so she couldn't get up. And getting in thr car but not driving off. I was going to but i don't. Especially since my ex fiancee isn't in the car. I just randomly give up and tell my parents I was raped everyday. They ask me about the man and i told them he's family and i will not tell them who. They flip on every male relative.

I go back to my ex fiancee, i join him as he's under the car. I told him I'm happy to be with him and he's with me. I wear som sort of necklace thats for him. I tell him I've dreamt about him. I told him about king paimon how he comes in his form to dance, talk, intimacy.

Then suddenly I'm in the same scenario alone, i told my parents but theres no ex fiancee. I deal with it alone.

Then a story plays about a girl loving a church statue of a angel so much she bids to buy it in a bid with other angels, demons, and humans. She wins. She brings it with her as she moves. She is raped in my childhood home. I hear the voices of my parents looking for the man trying to stop it as the man climbs up the stairs to my room. And inside is filled with a mass of meat with her intertwined with it. The statue doesn't stop anything, it's sorta just a statue not a good luck charm.

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I am just a simple lesbian with ocd haunted by intrusive thoughts about men