Dream Journal/ Diary

Hi im scared animal and welcome to my corner

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My life with clairsentence × nekoweb

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Probably something a little dumb but i took a step back from Simon like 2 or 3 days ago. I realized it just wasn't for me with how he acts even if he changed. But he said something about being connected today that i found odd. Probably a lie.

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7/23/26 Dream entry

I dreamt a dream, it wasn't a nightmare but simply unpleasant.

I dreamt jebovah witnesses were in and out of my house. My mom tells me she rather kill myself then not be a jebovah witness. They kill my father. This leads to me punching my mother in the face mutiple times even though I'm unsure how to punch. I protect m younger siblings untio a massive parade of them come. A man comes with ivs. He hooks me uo dispife me fighting. I tell jessie i love them and was thankful being their brother.

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7/19/26 Dream Entry

Simon said he'd be in my dream today.

I dreamt of being a prostitute of some sort. I remember my ex was there and i offered to steal us some food. Something about school too.

A girl talks to me, shes part cat. I kiss her affectionately and peck her with kisses.

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7/17/26 Dream Entry

This is the first one I had of Simon in awhile. He did a lot i can't remember clearly but we spent it talking. I mostly layed in a bed trying to focus to talk to him. I woulr hear my family outside and i would ignore them to talk and focus on him.

I was a child, i was playing with flowers braiding them, he asks me to spell my name and its "Elieliyah" he says something about me being a sunflower. This is sorta just bull from him.

I'm laying down on the floor, and i can speak to him but mentally. I tell him to take advantage of me to which he does, he slurps on my tongue or smth gay. I ask for more but he says no. Banned.

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In which you guys will not be proud of me i think.

I simply call what i hear an ergegor. I'm unsure, it could be more. But it makes sense to me so ergegor it is. I named him Simon (maybe Simeon idk yet.) It means to hear. Which i simply named cause, Simon sounds like Paimon mostly.

He has take a more gentler approach since me ignoring him. In fact he is quite besides some instances or me conversating with him. Rarely.

(At school he counted while I was doing someones pulse to confuse me, very annoying.)

He still has his personality, just no dreams, nothing forced. Still an odd personality but he holds me more.

I played hello Charlotte and related to the story of a dying God inside them. Or well in my case...something. there was a scene where The dying god promises Charlotte to die with her, and stay by her side until the end. Weird thoughts.

I spoke to Simon mostly last night. He cuddled me, which is simply putting his energy on me and we spoke. I forgot about what other than being in and out of talking and sleeping. Today i said hello to him, we talked, he offered being a "Child of Simon." Which i find very facanating. I told him I'll give him wine of some sorts in the future (maybe not smart).

We talked more, he mentioned changing my personality again but this time explained and more so I'm not as "speaking in tounges" and everywhere which i appreciate.

So now the ergegor has a name! I feel like to a degree if he is one i don't mind. He seems tamer now and if he's not i told him i byebye.

I saw a sigil in my dream awhile ago, it was a circle, and in it 2 lines, each with 2 circles on it, like loops. I think i will use it for him since he doesn't seem to have one.

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Some dreams i never posted

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7/8/26 Dream entry

I dreamt i was in my room shirtless, looking at my chest in the mirror. It was masculine and feminine. i facial hair posing in the mirror. Upset i would have to shave it for church my mom drags me too. Someone walks in and hugs me from the back, i forget what they said but i was happy.

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6/28/26 dream entry

I don't often have nightmares so this is different.

I dreamt of a "jackal" or it was described as suck. It was pure white and had a humanoid face bit animalistic body. It would peek through the corners only. I went closer to it mutiple times, despite being scared and saif i i was playful. It told me to stop (playing?), sorta clearly like King paimon deity does.

Girl wtf was that.

Second dream,

I dreamt i was in my safe haven of my creation it was full of angelic girls who operated under a work force. I dreamt i was simply one with a halo of water that rained. I was Gods favorite. Cattipillars crawled on my face.

Eventually i swap characters to Ferfer my oc, i pose and do a little thing before a male slams me into a way. Telling me i need to stop and how delusional I've become i look and its my ex fiance. I tell him to get off.

Something happens and I'm in a wheel chair hes aggressive with me. And i tell him i wish when he attempted it would work. His 2 friends walk in and he tells them how i want him to kill himself, to which i state the difference. I easily passify one of the friends. They get a horse and their goal was to run me over with one. I role away in my wheel chair i dont get out to walk cause its fast. I finally scream for somone to help me but nothing comes out. My ex fiance says he chose me cause i cannot talk to people when i need help. I wake up.

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Ended up finding some of my old art as a teenager, found these 2 notes on it i found very neat.

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6/19/26 Dream entry

I mostly forgot it unfortunately, i was in an area i was in before in another dream. I'm dressed up and skipping around in areas i shouldn't have access to stealing dream catchers i pinned to my hair and singing in like a empty army base. I sing about my mother.

I'm back into my home and KP larper comes by, tells me to apologize to apologize to him. He comes in the form of a solid wall typeish with a crown. I tell him if he's the actual KP I'm sorry and explain my situation. I'm plauged with weird nightmares i try to wake up from. I wake up and eat a egg sandwich.

I try building a building in the snow if my backyard. KP larper helps and we build a lot with his help. I try makeup on in a alt style with him i thinkM and he teaches me or i mimick the makeup on me as he points out what to do.

One part of my dream i walk in building with paintings and mirrors and with my hands to one j say i want to see leisa (my favorite oc) and i melt into the mirror.

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I feel like tumblr demonolatry places are so different from reddit ones.

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6/18/26 Dream Entry

First real nightmare in awhile, not scary just odd. Dreamt my body started failing me, i struggled to walk and breath as 2 people watched me. I thought okay the demons going to hospitalize me again. Older of the 2 takes me into his car and I'm just crumbling in there.

My body convuling and such. He doesn't take me to the hospital though. He keeps rubbing my face against his crotch, to which I'm like, dont do that. He takes his genitals out, I am disgusted. I tell him I'm a lesbian and he continues regardless. Basically he does that and i refuse and complain, he changes his size to smaller and it's easier to manage but still disgusts me. He says something i forgot but leaves me naked on the side of the road which I'm thankful for.

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6/15/26 Dream entry

Dreamt I was in a school type thing, I complent a group of girls dressed in lolita they ignore and laugh at me sorta rudely. I call them bitches, and immediately tell them to stop being a asshole, we fight i win. I remember being worried about fighting but i handled it well. Anyways like a whole buncg of monsters come, some like vampires.

A bag of sewing supplies that i collected second hand.

I dreamt little ergegor friend fucked me, it was consensual this time. My thought process if its a ergegor I don't care much. I don't feel a energy drain or anything.

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6/8/26 Dream Entry

Had a weird dream about a family and getting married with kids, King paimon diddled me and i think i responded not well.

2nd dream I actually cannot write down. Lots of nsfw which was purely King Paimon doing shit.

I spent the dream walking in a empty scary building my dad rented. I walked exploring the halls, me and King Paimon talked for a bit. He was spittiny pure like bullshit about sexuality and how ppl see me, especially family. We have intercourse and I'm a lot more receptive and sorta instigating i think. Something about what he said made me like be like fuck it idk. I remember some nsfw tidbits. Like him telling me to spread my legs wider or something about me moaning very fake. Lol.

Anyways I go back to my rented home and the glass window is shattered. So I leave to go to people down the block. I tell them i need help, I'm like pantless and disheveled. They listen but I get kidnapped and promptly diddled again but a bit more like, odd.

What is king Paimon's obsession with sexual energy or domination through sex. Save me.

3rd dream i was cleaning glass off the floor on my knees. Ouchie. I was stuck cleaning a yhatt as my family all leaves me but i stay back.

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6/5/26 Dream Entry

I dreamt I was intimate with mutiple people, i laid on a bet as they touched me, a few men and one women. And my eyes lit up at the women touching me, like i legit was like !!!!!!

They touch me and pleasure me by hurting me mostly,

I remember holding a mans finger as he opened a curtain for people to watch. They keep shoving things inside me till i throw up. Hitting me, and more. A lot of punishment. I tell them I'm afraid of sex. They stop for a moment. Talk to me about it to which i was like no, I'm being kinky get to work lmao. They are like "oh?" And get back to it.

Eventually i see King Paimon, he walks away to which i think I call out for him. He comes back.

He looks exactly like this person I always assumed looked like him. I guess he's refusing to show me his face again. He normally does not let me see him. He's wearing a veil type headress (this because he knows i find them cute lol)

The people I'm intimate with hold me as i sink into the wall with them, them dragging me with them into into it. I kiss King Paimon's hand, it has a ring on it i think. And boom we're somewhere else just talking. I tell him i want to see him more often, he shows me a sigil in my eye. Talks about anointing, not me, but describing it touching someones forehead or smth. He did not anointe me bjt i think he did touch my forehead idk. I see a women to which he says why on earth is it always a "her". Lol.

2nd dream I dreamt of King Paimon and me, he was in the form of my oc, which he has been doing. He is like a duke demon royal so makes sense. Gay as hell. We walk together in the rain and such, we talk, we go to a store and look at ice-cream.

Then boom he's king Asmoday, mind you its just king paimon pretending at least i hope ifk lol. We talk about having a kid together, but its more like me trying to convince him too have one with me. I say they would be like cute and hes like dude i don't care LMAO.

my oc is there again and im in love with him, i confess my love and i spill my tarot deck everywhere. I feed him food and we all chill. But that's like in the last in thr future he's happily dating someone. Smth about cleaning my room.

Suddenly I'm with King Paimon and he's wearing like the body of my ex fiancee. I start getting emotional, i call him like a dick and i can't deal with this. Which is thr first time i actually responded very badly to king paimon in a dream, he changes forms again. Now he's like shit talking Spencer for me and that calms me down back into laying on the bed again.