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[bini-bini8]

I wanted to go out since I feel a little bit suffocated in the house where I stay ever since limited ftf classes had begun. Families of my uncle gather in the house where I stay and I just want to be away from the noises and from the situation where I feel I'm not belong in the first place. I had plan to go out for a while and talk with some friends but when I messaged everyone, they're all busy with their own also and I can't be with someone else right now. I just realized what's the feeling of not being able to have your friends since they also have a life. I just feel a little lonely today. HAHAHA

[bini-bini8]

It's alwaysss been,

"I'm fine" even if it's not.

"I don't care" when it's really a big deal for me.

"It's okay" when it really hurts me, to the point where I lose myself.

These things just really give me the courage to hide all the things I've been suffering. So that people would be at ease and not be burden by what they seem to think as a "mere" emotion.

#randomThoughts

[bini-bini8]

The greatest battle in life is within yourself. It's when your battling your own feelings and your principles. It's so hard how you want to protect yourself from hurting yet you're letting yourself to be wrecked because you love and care for that someone more than yourself. You know you already lose your sense of self the moment you initiate, the time you depend your happiness on that someone, and the way how you make fool of yourself. Guess we cannot really have the love we want, unless we wait for it. Great things come from waiting, even Love.