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closed for. meghan daly, @bittcrsweetmemxrics. muse used. riley campbell.
riley doesn't know what draws him to the bar. well, he knows that he needs a drink after the day he's had. sadie and tyler had been running him around all day, from drop offs in the morning to picking them up after practice. not to mention the full day's work he had in the fields, it starting before the sun even rose and continuing until it was nearly set. and his particular day wasn't one he looked back on fondly or rather he did, but not much anymore. the day that was supposed to be the catalyst for the rest of his life β a shiny ring, a beautiful woman he loved, and a family they were going to start eventually β and now he's alone; had been alone for quite a while now and thinks he might be forever. so yeah, he needed a drink and needed one badly. the bell above the door dings, his large frame pushing through as familiar gazes pass over him. a couple of head nods in their direction is suffice enough, a greeting that doesn't force him to engage more than he wants to right now and he definitely doesn't want to. not when her face flashes behind his eyes every time he closes them. it makes him not want to blink any longer. "usual," riley's voice is gruff as he greets his friend across the bar, being offered a bottle of the cheapest stuff because that's what he likes best. it tastes as good as it can as it slides down his throat, a hearty gulp he needed to calm himself while his eyes turn to the person next to him. it has to be a joke when he sees their face. a dream or something. she couldn't be here now of all times, couldn't have decided that coming home to their shitty fucking home town now was a good idea. "tell me this is a dream or this day just got worse." it's not supposed to come out as harsh as it does, but he can't take the words back after he's already said them.
coming back to town had never been a part of the plan. ever since she was a child, meghan had always known that she was destined to be dancing on the stage. it was what she had been made for. new york was where she belonged ...
so it had made it even more devastating when she had her injury and had to come to the realisation that she was never going to be able to dance on that level again. she was still coming to it now. meghan was sure that it would be something that she had to come to terms with for the rest of her life.
she'd not been out too much since returning to town. she hadn't wanted to show her face. a part of her was because she didn't want to have to explain herself to everyone. she didn't want to repeat herself over and over again as to why she was back. she would have to admit to everyone that she'd failed and that was not something which she took nicely.
mostly, though, meghan didn't want to face riley. the thought of seeing him again sent her heart rate skyrocketing and she wasn't sure if it was a good or bad thing. her feelings towards him were still so complicated. they'd broken up, fallen apart ... and yet she thought about him almost every single day.
going to the bar was not a part of her plan for the day but when her friends had turned up at her door, she hadn't been ale to say no. they knew it was the anniversary that she'd gotten engaged - one that was a sad reminder of everything she'd lost - and were determined to keep her mind off of everything that had happened.
of course that would be the same day that riley would be there.
" wouldn't it be some sort of nightmare? " meghan responded. her tone was neutral, gentle. she didn't want to cause a fight or make some sort of scene but she wasn't sure what else to say to him. it had never been this awkward with the two of them before but after a broken engagement, she figured that, that would do it.
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" i didn't know you'd be here today. " silas muttered, his jaw clenched. oliver had been spending time around his more and more often ... and it was becoming more and more frustrating for him. " are you gonna be here more often, then? " he sounded harsher than he meant to. he just didn't want the other to know how much he affected him.
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" what are you doing here? " jane breathed as she looked to the man in front of her. when she'd sent the invitation, she had never anticipated that he would turn up. " why are you here? " was it possible he could think the same as she did? she couldn't bring herself to believe it.
for @sealedfcte ( based on across classes )
" sir, what are you doing here? " elijah questioned as he stepped into his room to see the prince. it was certainly not what he had expected from his evening. " can i help you at all? "
for @sealedfctes ( based on inner circle )
" samuel... " defne sighed as she saw her friend - not because she was disappointed but the very opposite. she finally felt like she could take a breath and be safe with it. " it is so good to see your face. there seems to be so many people who i don't know around here nowadays. "
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star was trying to be quiet ... but they weren't very good at it. as she crashed about the kitchen, she cringed a little and looked over to the sleeping kiyan. how they were in this situation, she had no idea. " sorry. " she squeked as they realised that they'd woken the other up. " god, this place is so small. "
a satisfied smile appeared on caleb's face as esme laughed at him giving lucas the finger, it was simple and it worked. he didn't really have anything to say to the guy, he didn't want to give the guy the satisfaction of his words. " caleb. but you can call me cal if you like that better. " he said with a shrug as he looked her way, giving her another small smile before it faltered. she looked like a good person, like she didn't deserve this either. and that made him angry. two people who were fucked over for no good reason. " tired? " he didn't understand that at all, caleb was fired up. the two of them had given him all the energy in the world, he was fueled by his rage, he would probably crash out later. it didn't help that esme said she suspected this had been happening. he would be upset at her too if she hadn't said she didn't know about him. and then the crack in her voice made him feel bad for her. " fuck 'em. " he said simply. " we never needed 'em. we are both attractive people, there are thousands of other people who would stand in line to date us. " his ego wasn't usually this big, but it was also massively damaged right now and talking himself up like that was trying to correct that damage.
esme wasn't sure that she had anything that she wanted to say to her ex. all she was sure about was that she did not want to stand around with him anymore. she just wanted to get away. caleb had provided the perfect escape. " i'll call you whatever you want. " she shrugged. it wasn't like the two of them were going to know one another, she thought. they'd both already had a bad enough day, she didn't want to do something which was going to make it worse. " tired. " she nodded. " tired of his shit. he made out like i was crazy. like i had no reason to worry. he made me look like an absolute idiot. for years! so yeah. i'm tired. " she had no other words for it. there was an anger there, of course, but the anger that she felt had been burning for a long, long time. she had known that someone was wrong and had let him convince her otherwise. she refused to play the fool anymore. no-one else would catch her out. not again. " fuck 'em. " esme repeated as she nodded her head. it was all that she really had. " for you maybe. i don't think there'll be that many waiting for me. " she shook her head. at least, that was what her ex had tried to make her think.
The silver writhed beneath her skin. Each shift a slow, searing reminder of what she had become. That she was not only just monster, but betrayal made flesh, with aching teeth as she could feel her body starting to fight back. Priska had promised herself all those years ago, as the first hunger gnawed at her, that she would never let herself consider a taste of him. Not for a single, trembling moment. That she would not imagine the turn of his wrist beneath her lips, not the pulse of his throat against her teeth, not the whisper of his name as she dragged him down into the endless night with her. To love him had always meant she was to destroy him, even when she had still been a living being. Too volatile, too many sharp edges..
She could see the slight tremble in his hands as they held the gun pointing at her heart. Not with fear, it seemed, but with the weight of a love he just admitted to. A love that had outlasted reason. Which did not bend, did not break, only burned and burned until there would be nothing left but ash. βFinn,β she breathed, her voice sounding small and fragile for the first time in years, βI...β Her fingers twitched at her sides, aching to feel more of his warm body beneath her touch. She wanted to confess it all. Admit that her love was as eternal as her body was now, that her heart had never known another. But from her lips spilled another lie, like she had spun them for years to keep the one thing she truly loved safe. βYou know I was never capable of loving you, the way you deserve to be loved. My heart has always been too dark.β The words were a confession, a curse. Even as the loneliness carved hollows in her chest, when she ached to be loved by him, she had kept her promise to keep him safe. Even as the scent of him, warm and alive, made her mouth water with a hunger that was not just for blood, but for the impossible.
Her laugh was a broken thing, a sound that did not belong to her anymore. βLook at me,β she whispered, as she stepped closer. Close enough to see the way his lashes cast shadows on his cheeks, close enough to drown in his eyes. βI am the ghost of every choice we never got to make, created the very moment our innocence died.β Her left hand lifted, no longer guiding the weapon, but to hover just shy of his skin. βYou loved me when I was human. You loved me when I was gone. You loved me in all my unworthiness. Andββ her voice cracked, ββall I can give you now is the mercy of not having to know what it is like to be loved by me.β She pressed her palm flat against his chest, feeling the rhythm of his heart, and for a moment, she let herself imagine. Drowning out the sensation of him, mixed with the cold metal of the gun pressing against her heart βMake it count, please, before I no longer know how to contain myself.β
every word that she said sent a dagger to his heart. a heart that he had thought had died a long time ago. when priska was taken from him, the last part of 'humanity' had died in finn. his cold heart had hardened. he no longer let anyone close to him. he rarely even spoke to other people, unless he couldn't avoid it. it was a lonely existence but it was easier. he couldn't bring himself to get close to another and have them be taken away from him. he didn't have it in him.
as she spoke, finn shook his head a little. " you are not her. " he spoke, as though he were trying to convince himself that the woman in front of him was someone completely different than the woman that he had fallen in love with, the one that he had known. he was trying to convince himself that they were not the same person. that she was right and the monster had taken hold of her completely. if he could just get that into his head, then maybe he could convince himself to do this. maybe he could finally do what needed to be do.
finn braced himself...
and he lowered his weapon.
" i can't do it. " he dropped his head. he couldn't look at her, the shame clear in his voice. he knew that he should. he knew that he needed to do this ... but he couldn't. he wished that he could say that his feelings for her had died when she had. " end this, priska. i can't. " it had been a lonely existence for him since she had been taken away from him. if anyone were to end it, then at least it would be her.
Β Β Β Β ( π ) Β Β β β β Β Β not quite sure what he was expecting when the other began to speak, but it definitely isn't what is spoken to him. with his head in arthur's lap, the male had just let his eyes flicker open the moment his beloved's voice enters the stratosphere. listens intently, the fragility in arthur's voice causing a pang in his own chest. fuck. oliver zander was such a goner for the older male, has been since that first day they met, that first weekend a few days later snowed in. "arthur..." name comes out tenderly, fully nestled in a sound of adoration. "you saved you." begins to sit up, just enough that his arms are able to wrap around arthur's neck as his head leans against his shoulder. "if i did anything, i just supported you to get there." a pause, lips placed against the other's clavicle through his shirt. "your stronger than you give yourself credit for."
maybe he needed to cool it a little bit. maybe saying all of this to oz would do nothing but scare him. that was the last thing that he wanted to do. arthur wanted to cling to oliver-zander. he wanted to hold him close and make sure that he never left. he already wasn't sure that he would survive it if he left. " it's not that. " he sighed as he shook his head, " i had no-one. my family turned their back on me a long time ago. " he hadn't spoke to the other about his family yet. he wasn't sure that now was the time to go into all of that but he wanted oz to know at least a little. " and i never thought that i'd find someone who made me feel as good as you do. i never thought i'd find someone who would care about me the way that you do. "
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"can i tell you a secret?" dawson asked the question out of the blue, having already gone through the niceties much earlier that day. by now, being around juniper had more of a dull ache than a sharp sting. it was just nice to see her again, to talk to her as if they were friends and not bitter exes, or something. he didn't even wait for her to say yes, he just leaned in closer to keep his voice low. "i definitely thought they were gonna break up. i should've known after hashtag 'halloweengate' didn't do it, but i would've put money on it right after we graduated."
" oh my god. absolutely you can. " juniper laughed. she would gossip with just about anyone. and, really, it was nice that she was able to be this friendly with an ex - especially considering how things had ended. the ring had thrown her completely. it was something she had decided to not think on now that they were at their friends wedding. " oh - that's not even a secret but more like a well known truth for everyone. because me too. " she giggled. " i don't know how he got away with it. if you'd have come to a party with a matching costume to your ex? oof, you would've been in so much trouble. "
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wow please tell me how it is to know the most horrible person on the planet? my mother would love to hear you agree with her.
he knows it's him. kiel hadn't been looking and yet he can still recognise the familiar features anywhere, across a crowded room, in a coffee shop. he never lets himself search, but he's learnt he doesn't need to β the world always draws them together eventually, sometimes he's sure for the cruelty of watching him be the only one aware of everything they had. have. at least to him. β no. β he shakes his head softly. β no, we don't know each other. β it takes him a second to realise what will happen next, that he'll most likely just apologise and walk away, that this would be it. the love of his life and in this lifetime all he'll have is a handful of words. β actually, i mean β β he straightens up before he can think the sentence through. β i think we might've gone to school together, you know, years ago. i'm kiel. β
as the other spoke, asher searched their face to try and figure out if they knew him. there was certainly something. a niggling feeling at the back of his mind that this person was someone important but whatever it was, asher couldn't place him. every time he tried to reach for the memory, it was like fog surrounded him. he was unable to reach it. " oh , we did? " asher questioned. still, there was no real recognition to who the man in front of him was. yet asher hated to let him down. he nodded. " right - right. we - alright. yeah. maybe her did. " though he was still unsure, he was trying to remember. there was something about the way that the other was looking at him. asher wanted to remember, he wanted to know whatever it was that the man in front of him knew. " how - have you been good? "
"Well if he was an ass then he definitely didn't deserve you." Wells answered honestly wholly believing that Willow was destined to be with some serious upstanding dude who like saved babies or something. "Proud of you for breaking up with him when you realized he wasn't worth your time." He smiled giving her waist a firm squeeze. "I'm not seeing anyone either," he added although that was very well known considering he hadn't been involved in a serious relationship since college. Even then it wasn't that deep.
willow shrugged her shoulders as wells spoke, " maybe. but i wasn't going to stick around and find out if i thought i could do better or not. " quite frankly, she was tired of waiting around for people to be better than she had hoped they'd be. she was tired of spending time with all the wrong people. " thanks. " she nodded. a small smile slipped onto her lips as he spoke, " at this point, wells, i think i'd be more shocked if you were seeing someone. " she joked. though it wasn't said in a nasty way. it was just that she knew him well enough to know that relationships weren't his thing. " i'm sure you've got your eye on someone tonight, hm? " she knew that it had to be someone.
Mateo allowed himself to be pulled in close, sighing into the kiss as his hands reached out to wrap around Freddie's body settling on his lower back. "Do what husbands do," he whispered against the other's lips as if he were pondering what that meant. "Hm it's been so long since I got to be a husband. I may have forgotten, jog my memory?" He asks teasingly as he begins moving them towards the bed. "Don't most husbands just sit around, nag their spouses and drink too much?" He laughs giving Freddie another small kiss. "That's could be me as a husband though. Not when I am married to you, such a handsome..." he whispers lightly kissing at the other's neck punctuating his words with physical affection. "Sex... smart... and certainly snarky husband." He grins reaching to begin removing clothing from the both of them. "No I think any person with a spouse like that should just spend their lives adoring and pleasing them. Does that sound like what you had in mind?"
" that may be what typical husbands do, yes. " freddie retorted, his hands moving to mateos hips. he squeezed gently, " but you, my love, are not a typical man. you are too good to be a regular old joe. " to be normal wasn't something that either of them were capable of, that was for sure. a hum of pleasure fell from his lips as the other kissed along his neck. it was always a surprise with how long he had managed to stay away for. he had missed all of this far too much. he nodded his head, " that sounds exactly like what i had in mind. " he released the other and tilted his head a little, " why not show me how much you missed me? "
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" you're welcome. " caleb said to esme as he stuck his hand out the window. " hey lucas. " he yelled at the guy as he gave him the middle finger before speeding off and rolling up his window. " jesus fuck. " he said, mostly to himself even though esme was there. " what's your name again? " he asked her, unsure of what her name was. he might have met her at some christmas party mimi invited him to, but he had no recollection of it. " i'm so fucking angry. " caleb said through gritted teeth. " i didn't see this coming at all? did you? god i must be the biggest fucking idiot. " he muttered to himself, he just wanted to drive, drive away from everything. he needed to calm himself down, caleb tended to make stupid decisions when he was upset. how could he face his friends and family after this? after being such a big loser who probably fell for every lie in the book whenever his girlfriend was wherever fucking her now brand spanking new boyfriend. " is it too much if i hope they get hit by a taxi cab on their way home? " he asked the strange woman, he needed to let out all of this that was building inside of him, or else it would simmer and turn into something worse.
esme cringed as she heard caleb call lucas' name... but it was quickly replaced with laughter as she saw what it was that he wanted his attention for. " esme! my names esme and you're ... was it cal ? " god, she had completely blacked out from the moment that she'd realised that she had been right. whatever it was that lucas and mimi had, had to say, it was completely lost to her now. " i'm tired. " esme sighed with a shake of her head. anger would come later, she was sure of that. right now, she didn't quite have it in her to be angry about what had been said, what they'd just found out. " i suspected. " she nodded. " didn't know she had a boyfriend but they always seemed ... they were too friendly. he tried to convince me that i was fucking crazy. " her voice cracked and she had to blink back tears. how long had it been going on where he had just lied to her face? too long. she thought. " i'd probably share your sentiments so if it's too much - we're both evil together. "
kiyan acquiesces, too exhausted to fight. "april," her name rolls off of their tongue like a plea, "you're always in my head...my heart has always belonged to you. so why can't we ever get the timing right?"
april sighed. he had said the very thing that she had already been thinking. " i don't know. " because it was the simplest answer. she had no real idea how the two of them were always in this kind of situation. " what are we going to do? "
