So.. it's been a while. I'm here to say that I'm not dead yet. But I am in a kinda shitty place right about now, mostly since my internship had started a few weeks ago or so.
And from my work hours, I began to notice some things I used to brush off were more.. apparent. I would say. It starts to raise flags that perhaps something more is amiss. I've been having suspicions for a long time, but I don't want to assume or anything like that. So I always brushed it off for years until now when I've realized I can't ignore it anymore and dismiss it as nothing or thinking I was just being stupid.
So now.. I'm trying to balance my internship while simultaneously trying to get myself enough money to secretly go to a psychiatrist without anyone knowing (my parents, seniors at internship, etc) I've done my research and already found one, which is why I've became aware of how expensive it can be and realized my broke self would have to somehow do this discreetly. Somehow.
I'd still keep posting in future. Just don't know when though. Thanks again for the love all of you are giving my work! I'll update you guys on my journey if I can.
Hiya, I noticed that besides your Reverse 1999 masterlist, your Wuwa masterlist was the incredibly lacking. If you're taking any requests right now
Could you please do a Jiyan x Jing Yuan! Male Reader?
I'd like the reader to be a bit more older than Jiyan, maybe they met back when Jiyan was still a healer and he had to tend to the reader
This is my first request I have made to anyone at all so sorry if this comes off as awkward or something, haha
The Dozing General
Jiyan | M. Reader as Jing Yuan [Honkai Star Rail]
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"Meditating with my eyes closed. That gets more difficult as time goes on."
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Living in Huanglong had never been easy. Sure, there's the beautiful sceneries of the mountains and wild life. Yet the threat of the TD's and the Thernodian hangs above their heads like guillotines. Perhaps that's why something like the Midnight Rangers were established. Perhaps that's why families cries at the departure of their loved one. That fear that it may be the last time they see them.
All they wanted is peace. A life where they can smile freely without a care in the world. A world filled with happiness and no lingering fear of the tomorrow.
Perhaps that's why.. they look up to him. To the General that promises to give them that peace. The same General... that would casually walk though the city and play Xiangqi as if he doesn't hold the people's lives in his hands. As if he doesn't have burdens on his shoulders as he freely laughs with everyone.
"General."
"Yes?"
"Why is it that you, of all people, could laugh and sleep so freely? With everything on your shoulders?"
A small laugh escape his throat. He didn't take any offence. Not at all. Instead, he's glad that the young man would even ask such a bold question to him. That means the other isn't afraid of him. "When dear and despair holds the peoples hearts in a vice grip, they'll find it hard to even smile. As the General it is my duty to protect our hometown. Yet with how things are going now.. people may start to lose hope as we continue to fight in the frontlines with little to no updates."
Turning his head to the other, [Name] gave him his full attention as a small, lazy smile made it's way onto his face. "If someone like me, shows that even I, could smile and laugh freely, then it gives the impression that there's nothing to fear."
"'The General is smiling, then that means everything's going well.'"
"Remember that, Jiyan."
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'The General is smiling, then that means everything's going well.'
That's what he said. Yet here he is now. Tending his wounds. The world is truly harsh..
"What's with that look for, Jiyan?" [Name] ask curiously, his gaze focus on the younger man's face. He can't put his finger on it yet it seems like Jiyan is.. angry? Concern? Afraid? He doesn't know.
"It's nothing." The young medic say, more like mumbled, he doesn't look at the General instead he focuses on treating the wounds. It wasn't too deep but a wound is still a wound and it could become worse. [Name] merely hums in response, not believing it one bit, yet he didn't say a thing.
Silence falls on them. A silence that seems to speak louder than any word could. The worry and care that seems to fill the air almost felt suffocating. Suffocating enough for [Name] to smile fondly at the young medic as he slowly relax his body. The injuries he had sustained were painful yet that seem to be unsignificant as he knew that Jiyan would treat him with such worry and care.
Maybe some Jing Yuan with Ayato Kamisato! Reader? Or Ayato with Jing Yuan! Reader?
The General and the Aristocrat
Jing Yuan | M. Reader as Ayato Kamisato [Genshin Impact]
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"I'm no stickler for doing things in a certain way. Whatever method you use, the important thing is that it delivers acceptable results."
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There are many well-known Six Charioteers within the Xianzhou Alliance. Each with their own responsibilities. But none were as memorable as the Yashiro Commission or rather the commissioner himself, [Name] Kamisato.
He was barely a teenager when he was pushed into the position. "the poor young master of the Kamisato Clan" they say, and "that greenhorn" they say. People were expecting the Yashiro Commission to fall. Yet it didn't. Instead.. with extraordinary courage and some first-rate tactics. His position would grow more stable than ever.
Looking at the history. People tend to paint him as this mastermind. But to Jing Yuan? He's an old friend he plays Xiangqi with.
Playing with [Name] had always been a joy. He always kept him on his toes. One misjudgment and it's game over for the General. [Name] shows time and time again the knowledge and leadership he holds from such a young age and how it only grows with time, giving him another ability in his vast arsenal.
"Ah, it seems you've lost again, General."
Looking at the board and yes, he did lose. Jing Yuan sighs as he shifted his attention back to the man across from him. That perpetual smile that hides so many secrets. "What's with the sigh? Tired of losing?"
Jing Yuan lets out a laugh at the comment. "No. Not at all."
Hello! could you do Asaba Harumasa with A Loid Forger!Male!Reader who is his Fiancé? (For real not for a misson) And could you do like some general headcanons of it please?
Spy X Executive Officer
Harumasa Asaba | M. Reader as Loid Forger [SpyXFamily]
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"You gotta be careful. Because there's someone else back home who'd be heartbroken if anything happened to you."
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General Headcanons
First of all, the moment you two met Harumasa knew you are a spy. Come on now, he's responsible for Section 6's reconnaissance for a reason. In the main story he literally recognized the mercs are closing in on them by their shooting pattern alone. Are you kidding me.
Secrets out and from then on he'll rub it in your face that the Twilight was caught by an Executive Officer and through this process of endless teasing and "accidental meet ups" you two gotten quite close.
Yet despite making teasing the absolute daylight out of you his main mission. Harumasa would always comes to you for help with some missions of his. Come on! He has Twilight on speed dial! What kind of person would he be if he didn't abused use this power? The amount of times you have to pretend to be him for a meeting... too much to even bother counting..
Harumasa seems to have developed a habit since you two got together. One of which is how he looks like a wounded animal whenever you have to "be in a relationship" with someone. He's joking of course. But always seem to jump at the chance whenever Harumasa saw it.
But then again.. you're also using him for your own work as well. HAND has a lot of useful information and Departments. Having an insider on speed dial just make things ten times easier. In short both of you are using each other.. until it became something more as you two craves more with each interactions.
"You're cheating on me! I know I don't have much time, yet you--" "Darling, I am not seeing someone behind your back, it was a mission. We have this conversation before."
Endless teasing. Just endless.
By the way, are you a cat person? Well it doesn't matter you are a cat person now. Say hello to your son/daughter. Harumasa canonically has a cat, so..
Would jokingly as you to teach him some espionage with the excuse that it'll help him be a "more outstanding scout." You didn't, of course. Espionage is your thing. As if you'll let him steal your thunder like that.
Oh no. Harumasa isn't in the office again. He must have taken a sick leave. But how could he get another one? What? He has a doctor's note?
Yes, he would probably, maybe, say "please" a lot, just to get you to write him a doctor's note. Hey! Not his fault that your public image is a Psychiatrist! That just makes your notes 100% legal! And you are this awesome boyfriend of his right? So.. please~ he promise to give you kisses if you do write it~
Although Harumasa seems to know he can't use this trick a lot and uses it sparingly.
The proposal? It's the grenade proposal. I'm sorry but it's cute and it kinda fits ZZZ's world building. Both of you are running from the Ethereals and have gotten cornered. What a bad day it was. You were just about to propose when Harumasa got a call for a mission, since you don't want to waste any time. You decided to help your lover so that you can finally propose when all of these are done. But no, the universe hates you and decided to do this instead and damnit! You lost the ring! Cornered with nowhere else to go you spotted a grenade not to far away. Acting out of instincts you took it, pulling the pin and saying your vow as you put the "ring" on Harumasa's finger.
He ruthlessly tease you about the proposal though. Saying something like "Took you long enough. And here I thought I would die first before knowing the feeling of a ring on my finger." and, "A grenade pin? Seriously? How come those men and women you "marry" for a mission gets an actual ring while I--you're actual lover--only have this? I'm hurt!"
In the end you did get him an actual ring. As he deserved.
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Despite usually being seen slacking off. Harumasa works hard on his missions. After all, there's a reason as to why he's a member of Section 6. Naturally.
Yet he's not invincible. Harumasa knows that better than anyone else. Which is why he is now lying in the hospital bed with a sore throat and a heavy chest. It felt as if he were to somehow lie in a wrong way he'll start coughing out a lung. But he doesn't have to worry. He has [Name}. And that man would go full on doctor on him in a heartbeat.
"You're an idiot sometimes." [Name] sighs, sitting on the chair by his lover's bedside. He can't believe Harumasa had willingly injected that thing. Onto him like that. Sure, he understands. Harumasa can't let that thing exist in the world. But seriously?! Did he even think for one second what could have happened to himself if he weren't this lucky?! What if it's a one time thing?!
"You idiot." He whispers underneath his breath.
Harumasa really has to be careful.. because there's someone else back home who'd be heartbroken if anything happened to him.. and that person, is him. [Name] Forger.
For all of his time as a spy. No one had ever made him feel so.. complete. The thought of settling down never crossed his mind. But with Harumasa.. he might just consider it. But..
How is he supposed to settle when the one he loves is constantly on death's door?
[Name] snapped out of his thoughts the moment he registered the warm feeling on his hand. Harumasa's on top of his. Turning his head towards him, [Name] saw Harumasa giving him a reassuring smile. "I know.. but I'm your idiot."
"Don't worry too much. I'm not going anywhere. After all, no one cares more about my life than me."
Spoilers for those who haven't read the Picture Perfect Arc of Toilet Bound Hanako Kun
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For as long as Harumasa could remember, the entirety of his childhood was filled with a sterile white room, IV drips, and other machineries. That's just his normal. Wake up, eat, take his medicine, sleep. Rinse and repeat.
A rather boring and dull childhood.
Until one day. He saw someone poking their head into his room, eyes filled with curiosity and wonder. But the moment Harumasa noticed them, they fled. A strange encounter. However as time passes it becomes something Harumasa secretly looks forward to.
He would tell his master about it with a grin on his face while the adult laughs and encourages him. Thinking it's just an imaginary friend. It's normal for children to let their imagination wander after all, yet Harumasa would pout insisting that the encounter was real.
Determined to prove himself right one day, Harumasa decided to escape his room and search for this mysterious figure. Hiding from the adults and other unfamiliar figures Harumasa looks through every corner just to find them. Surely they were here, right? After what felt like an eternity Harumasa found a door, slightly ajar.
This must be it! And so without a second thought Harumasa went through it and was met by a room similar to his but with less medical equipment. Just an IV drip that's connected to the very person he's been trying to find.
That's when Harumasa.. met his first friend.
[Name] Shijima. A really talented artist. Well he's not a artist yet.. but Harumasa is super positive that he'll be one!
Through the times the two grew close. Perhaps their shared pain is what brought them together, but their ambitions and dreams drew them closer.
One day, Harumasa is in [Name]'s room. Chatting with him while the latter draws in his sketchbook. Until [Name] spoke up as he showed Harumasa his rough sketch with stars in his eyes. "In this Atelier Tower, there's a 'what if' version of me and he draws being healthy and well."
As he explains the backstory of his sketch one of his brushes rolls from the overbed table to the tiled floor. Seeing this [Name] attempts to grab it only to tugged his IV on his hand making him flinch in pain. Worried, Harumasa took the brush from the floor and handed it to the other with a weary smile. "Are you okay? Did it hurt?"
"I'm fine, it only hurts a little." [Name] reassures him. Setting down his sketchbook at the overbed table. He looks at it for a second, analyzing every detail of his Atelier Tower. Hie vision. His ambition. His dream.
Harumasa noticed the somber expression on his friend's face as he put the brush on the table. He was about to ask what was wrong, but the sound of the door opening stopped him, his master by the door. Ah, is it already time for him to get back? A hint of disappointment flashes in his eyes, reluctantly bidding his goodbyes to [Name].
When he's left alone [Name] let out a sigh before speaking in a low, somber tone. His gaze is still fixed on his sketch. "The me on this side... I'm just a tiny bit sick, you know? But I'm sure I'll get better soon!"
Lowering his head [Name] rested his cheek on the table. Looking at it with longing. "But until then... In my place, will you draw for me, other me?"
He said in a low, somber tone as if he's talking to his 'other version' that lives inside the Atelier Tower. "If you do that, I'll do my best."
"..isn't it weird? I'm talking to myself.."
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"...of course."
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"The poor thing..."
"....And so young, how sad..."
"That poor boy... he's still drawing..."
"But... it's such a severe illness..."
"Recently all he does is sleep.... he seldom eats any of his food! Surely that boy..."
"..is going to die soon..."
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That was the last day Harumasa saw [Name].
His master doesn't let him hang out with [Name] anymore and when he asked, all Harumasa got was a small smile. As if the older man is trying to comfort him silently. The same goes for the other doctors there. He doesn't understand.
Why? Why are they not letting him see his friend anymore? That's not fair! Not fair at all! [Name] was in the middle of creating that Atelier Tower of his! And he was planning on showing the finished painting to Harumasa! And [Name] was about to go to art school and became an artist!
...oh sweet childhood innocence..
In the end. Harumasa did see the painting [Name] had promised him. It was on display at an art room of a well-known art school. The creator was nowhere to be seen.
Now he stood there with eyes fixed on the painting. A student, on his way to become a part of HSO. Stood motionless at the mere sight of it as people whispered around him.
"Have you heard? They say that the creator of that painting was very talented at drawing.. but his parents were opposed to him continuing the path of art.. so, in order to chase his dreams.."
"He decided to kill himself."
Harumasa's heart dropped at the sound of their whispers. No.. it's not true.. it can't be true. [Name] didn't..
"Whoa, that makes sense!"
"What so, he killed himself?"
"The painting is kinda scary too.. I don't like it.."
"What if it has all of his evil resentment inside it?"
"That's scary!"
No! [Name] parents supported him. They encourage him to follow his dreams! They weren't opposed to it! Harumasa would know! He would know! They were.. they were..
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The Atelier Tower was finished.
And so is its creator.
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Time somehow passes by in a blur. Before Harumasa knew it he had graduated. This is it. He's going to be a part of HSO now. All he needs to do is..
Harumasa froze. His feet glued to the ground as his eyes widened. His classmates were all busy with their families, friends, and loved ones. Of course they are, they just graduated, they're celebrating!
Yet his golden eyes caught something else—or perhaps it's more appropriate to say, someone else.
He stood there. Locking eyes with Harumasa. Then.. he smiles. The same smile Harumasa had grown to like.. to adore..
Based on one of his Trust Events, where he got flustered/shy from being called handsome. So I took it and multiplied it by three.
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"The Red Scarf," "the Undefeated Champion," "the Champion of the Sons of Calydon."
So many titles just for one man. He must be a legend if people speak of him in such a way. Someone that could be considered as a myth. So surreal that there's no way someone like him truly exists. It's impossible to think one person has the ability fight at least 50 men. Alone. All at once. And emerge victorious.
Yet it's all true. That man does exist and that man...
Is currently trying to hide his face with his scarf.
[Name] laughs at Lighter's reaction. He had just called him handsome and he's already so flustered? Is this the same Champion they talk about in the Outer Ring? But hey, he's not complaining. It's cute~
"Is something wrong? Your face is red." To see Lighter's face slowly rivaling the red of his scarf is a sight to behold. A sight.. only for him to see. Oh what privilege.
Lighter didn't respond. Instead he just cleared his throat. "Anyways.." He tries to act all cool and suave. As if being called handsome earlier didn't affect him in such a way which only earned him another laugh from [Name].
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Hanging out with Lighter had always been a joy. Despite his appearance and the whispers about him. He's quite the character. A man of power who sometimes has a childish streak. Someone who can play along and have fun but act all serious when the situation demands it. Who wouldn't love someone like that? Someone from the Outer Ring?
"Oh, they have a couple discount on the milk tea." [Name] thought out loud the moment he read the sign in front of the store. With a cheeky grin he glances over at Lighter and instantly links his arms around the other, making a B-line to the store.
Lighter was about to ask what's wrong only to be cut off by [Name]'s next words. "Excuse me, we like to take the couple discount, please."
Heat instantly makes its way onto Lighter's face. He originally thought that they were in some kind of danger. That someone was stalking them and planning to strike, which is why [Name] linked their arms like that. Trying to lead both of them to safety or something, but no. He was wrong. There wasn't some bad guy for him to fight. No, this is a different fight. A battle against..
..Economy.
Oh the things they do for a discount.
Meanwhile [Name] is extremely happy with himself. They've gotten milk tea for half the price and saw Lighter trying to hide his flustered face by drinking his milk tea.
What a great day to be alive.
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In this quality time of theirs. The two decided to go to the Outer Ring. So far [Name] had always suggested something in New Eridu, making excuses that Lighter should learn a few things about the city. But this time it was his turn to learn about the Outer Ring with Lighter as his guide.
But of course, time flies by fast when you're having fun.
Getting off of the bike [Name] stretched out his limbs with a groan. He had nearly forgotten how long the ride was from the Outer Ring to New Eridu. However it was more than worth it.
"You know, I had fun today." He began slowly before planting a small kiss on Lighter's cheek and pulls away with a cheeky grin. "See you later, biker boy." And with that he went straight towards the front door. Leaving an obviously red Lighter alone on his bike.
The red scarf had always suited him. Making him quite the eye candy. But a red face would definitely make him ten times more handsome.
It took a while to get used to FAIRY being in the HDD. But once they do, their job becomes so much easier! FAIRY's been an amazing help to them, despite the increase in.. electric bill..
They'll think they'll get used to all this advanced AI stuff.. but no.. clearly they didn't..
In the middle of their commission, FAIRY began to glitch. Huh? FAIRY? Glitching..? This shouldn't be happening. The AI is incredibly advanced. Who could have done such a thing? Who is powerful enough to result in this?
"Um.. FAIRY..?"
"Hello."
The siblings are taken aback by an unknown voice. An unknown robotic voice. Is this someone using a voice distortion..? Who is this person..? And how did they manage to do all of this!?
"FAIRY.. an artificial intelligence program that specializes in Hollow exploration.. to think that people like you actually got a hold of it.."
The siblings went silent as they listened to the robotic voice speak. His tone is monotone yet.. somewhat condescending..? There's like an air of superiority with the way he speaks. Intentional or not.
"Who are you?" Wise spoke up, he needs answers. Did they just get hacked..? Again..? Even with FAIRY? Whoever this person is.. they're certainly a formidable one.
"You'll know me soon enough."
That's all he says before the connection is severed.
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It's weird.
They got hacked even with FAIRY?
And after troubleshooting nothing seems to be wrong. Everything is in order. The hacker didn't mess with any of their data. Didn't even touch it! It's like he only glanced at it and immediately deemed them as useless!
Just who are they facing now..?
The sound of a customer coming in cut through the silence as the figure looked around the store with a neutral, almost bored expression. The ends of their pristine lab coat waves as they walk. A lab coat... are they with..
"Excuse me, are you the manager of this place?" A robotic voice cuts in, addressing the nearest person there while holding a videotape in hand. That person just so happens to be Wise. "I like to return this tape. A.. friend.. of mine rented it a few days ago." An Intelligent Construct. He seems to be like Qingyi but is working in some kind of institute based on his clothing and that tone.. a no-nonsense person by the looks of it. Who would have thought someone like him would be returning a tape for a friend..
"Of course, I'll take that off of your hand." Wise stated as he took the videotape and noted that it's 7710 and Its Cat. A nice adventure movie. "What's your friend's name? I need to update it on our system."
The Intelligent Construct went silent for a moment as if he's trying to remember their name until he spoke up in a calm tone. "Chell."
Upon hearing the name Wise look through their system only to furrow his eyebrow. Huh.. that name.. "Um, are you sure that's the correct name? I don't see it in our system." "I'm sure. Let me see." Before Wise could even comprehend what's happening the other had his hand on the top right of the monitor as he moved closer to see the screen.
"There." He use his other hand to point at the name. It's there. 'Chell.' Clearly stated in their system. What. Perhaps he stayed up for too long last night.. "Right.. sorry." Wise quickly finish the administration needed. Trying to get out of this awkward and embarrassing situation as fast as possible.
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"Tempering their data with the guise of a customer.. how subtle of you.. y'know you're scaring them. Right?"
"Who says I'm scaring anyone? I think I'm being literal."
The other could only sigh at his words. Literal, huh.. sure.. getting into their system and tempering with their data was just him being literal.
"What are you going to do with them?"
Why is he so obsessed with them? What is he trying to do? What is he going to do? So many questions yet they remain unanswered..
He was silent at first, although through the silence, it's almost as if he's judging them for not knowing something so simple. A common knowledge. "Isn't it obvious?"
"I'm putting them out of commission."
The person went silent at the answer that was given to them. They then let out a sigh. My.. what would they think.. what would the siblings.. the store managers.. Phaeton would think..
If they knew the AI that's trying to end them was created by their teacher?
Hello, if requests are open, can I ask [any twst characters you want] with a Bill or Dipper!Male!Reader ?
Have a great day ! And a good night !
The All Seeing Eye
Malleus Draconia | M. Reader as Bill Cipher
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"Remember! Reality's an illusion, the universe is a hologram, buy gold! Byeeee!"
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Malleus Draconia..
Quite the infamous name.
At this point, who doesn't know about the crown prince? He's one of the most powerful mages in the world! Despite that...
...just who in Twisted Wonderland hasn't heard of [Name] Cipher? The dream demon? Well apparently both Yuu and Grim doesn't...
"Oh! Oh! Twisted Wonderland! it is good to be back! Name's [Name] Cipher and I take it two are some kind of living ventriloquist dummy?" He ask with a mix of sarcasm and amusement in his voice. Wait--no! He has to show some kindness to them. They're the ones who freed him after all. So maybe he should be kinder. Maybe..
"How about this you magicless thing, I will help you.. in exchange.. I only want a puppet! Yes! A puppet! You have one of those right?" This kid is magicless! He's completely defenseless against this world's wildness and chaos! But don't worry! He's here to help! Isn't he so kind~?
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Some students began to notice how Yuu seem to act differently sometimes.. it's odd.. suddenly he's capable of magic..? And these.. creepy knowledge?? What? When some ask about it, Yuu merely shrugged, dodging the question or straight up ignored them and Grim? That cat is as clueless as ever! For someone that's suppose to be close with the prefect, he's completely useless with this predicament.
Of course, Yuu's strange demeanor ended up catching the attention of none other than Diasomnia's Housewarden.
"Child of Man, it has come to my attention that you've been acting.. strange.. lately.. may I know the reason for such actions?"
"Oh! It's nothing really! I'm completely fine, there's nothing to be worry about!" Huh.. the prefect's reassurance sounded a bit cheery.. maybe too cheery... is he always like this? And this.. energy.. it's strong.. incredibly so..
Not at all convinced, Malleus spoke up with caution, preparing himself for what's to come. "Is that so? Then may I know why you're acting strangely?"
"I said I'm fine--" Yuu stopped himself once he saw who it was that decided to confront him this time. Oh.. oh! He had thought it was just some no name snotnosed kid! But no, oh no.. this is the main course! Finally he had finished the appetizers!
A wide grin made its way onto his face as he spoke up in a cheery manner. "Well well well! Finally! The main course has arrive! How's living, my dear dragon?"
Malleus' calm demeanor change in an instant the moment those words came out of Yuu's mouth. This.. thing.. how dare he.. how dare it decided to lay a hand on the prefect!? And now it has the audacity to use his body like a puppet!? Unforgivable...
"You..."
"Aw, I thought you would be more happy to see me!"
Malleus scoffs at the dream demon's words, crossing his arms over his chest as he sent a glare towards him. Happy? What's there to be happy about?
"Admit it~ You missed me~"
[Name] knew full well that Malleus won't lift a finger at him, not when he's possessing his precious Child of Man.. of course he won't.. the very thought of injuring this fragile body must scare him to the bone! Poor baby...
The dream demon can't help but chuckle at the very thought of it. The other's glare mean nothing to him. What matters most is...
"What's with that look for? Come on now.. I still remember how happy you look back then~"
The look of wonder that the crown prince showed.. it was such magnificent a sight.. but not enough to coax [Name] to rethink his decision in deceiving him. This world will be his.
"Come on, my dear.. let me out.. out of this dimension of mine and into yours.."
"Allow me to show you just what true power actually is."
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After that day, everyone forgot of his existence. His past crimes, his misdeeds, his actions. All of it. Erase from time and space. But despite that... he continues one. Living his life to atone his sins.. even though no one knows of his past existence..
Which is why...
[Name] grows to hate. HATE. Dan Heng.
Why..? This.. this isn't fair!!
How could he get to go scot-free with no consequences?! He too had committed sins that were unforgiving! And yet!! WHY?!
It's not fair.. it's not fair!
"[Name], you're a part of the Nameless now and yet I can't seem to understand why you hate me so much."
That nonchalance.. it's like he didn't know.. how dare he..
It's been a few weeks since he became a Nameless. The others thought that maybe because he's new and that's why he's so guarded. So they gave him some space. In the end, [Name] did somewhat warm up to them. But his relationship with Dan Heng didn't change one bit.
In [Name]'s eyes, the other deserves every inch of hate.
"You don't understand? Seriously?" He clicked his tongue at Dan Heng's words and how nonchalant it was, as if he had done nothing wrong..
"You.. Imbibitor Lunae.. had committed the most outrageous sin of all, and yet you got to walk freely? With no burden on your shoulders?" [Name] says with calm, hot white anger. His tone's sharp, not missing a single beat, not a stutter. Crystal clear words paired with hatred.
Dan Heng seems a little taken aback but nonetheless he remained as calm as ever, taking a deep breath he replied. "I'm not—" "You're not him, yes I get it! Would you stop that already!?
He can't. He simply can't control his anger when the other only keeps saying the same thing over and over again.
"You, the incarnation of the High Elder. Burden such a heavy sin, don't you think you should atone for it? You're nothing but a coward who's running away from one's problem!"
"Don't you get it?! Past, present, or future.. doesn't matter.. IT'S STILL YOU!!"
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"You're a God.. do you think I'm evil?"
"If you accept that he is you, just as you are you, then yes—you are evil."
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"Your reincarnation is flawed, you're supposed to not remember, and yet you do.. you do remember.."
"If you still remember everything.."
"Dan Feng's emotions.. memories.."
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"Regaining your memories means reverting completely to your previous reincarnation. All the emotions that you discarded will return to you."
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"The past is the past... but it's still you.."
"You are still Dan Feng."
"So stand up and shoulder his sins as it is yours!!"
"Nothing will change the fact that he is you, as you are you.. Imbibitor Lunae."
Hii ! Could you please write dr ratio with a fyodor dostoevsky ( bsd ) like reader ?? Thank you in advance ,love your writings !
!–🃏 anon
The Logical Man and the Religious Man
Dr. Veritas Ratio | M. Reader as Fyodor Dostoyevsky [Bungou Stray Dogs]
Welcome to the theater, 🃏 anon!
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"Man is sinful and foolish.."
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A combination no one ever thought was possible. Sure [Name] is an intelligent man. But even so, no one ever thought he'll be the so-called lover of Dr. Veritas Ratio.
[Name] is nothing like him. First of all, he's not grumpy all the time. He actually smiles, unlike a certain someone. He's kind too! Happy to help, not to mention religious! So why is he with Ratio of all people?
"You think so highly of yourself, yet you can't even draw Nous' gaze.. isn't that a statement of who you are in the eyes of an Aeon?"
He merely smiles at the other, his smile is welcoming yet not at the same time. Acting as a God's right hand.. [Name] sees everyone as sinful..
"Lovers" was it? Was that what they called them? Yeah right.. this logical man.. his view of their relationship seems neutral yet.. also condescending.. [Name]'s like a priest who looks at everyone with the eyes of judgement. Judging people for their sins. No matter how little. This so-called "doctor" is no exception..
"As much as I call everyone sinful, it doesn't compare to how you call everyone brainless idiots. You put yourself in such a high position. Has it ever occurred to you there's someone higher than yourself?"
"Remember.. Luke 6:31."
Do to others as you would have them do to you.
In this world, you treat others as they treat you. The ever so gracious "priest" he is. Reminds everyone.
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How did he even get to this..
How did he actually feel something for him.
That... rat..
Was it his intelligence? Perhaps..
Other than that...
..what..?
It all felt like a game to the other, how his smile never reached his ears, how soft his gaze is to the point it is considered to be condescending, how velvety his voice is to the point a backhanded compliment still sounded so sweet.
That's just how [Name] is..
..and yet..
"Your efforts in trying to get into the Genius Society is always a sight for sore eyes.. ever considered following IX?"
What Path do you follow..? [Name]..?
He speaks of this.. God.. the one he holds in such high regards.. yet who? What Aeon does he worship so diligently? Many could be brought into mind.. yet not at the same time..
It's all an elaborate game of chess to him, isn't it? Always a few steps ahead... he never cared.. there's something he wanted.. and it may involve this Aeon he worships..
"Man is sinful and foolish.. Even if they know it is all an artifice, they cannot help but kill each other. Someone must purify them for those sins."
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"The man who has a conscience suffers whilst acknowledging his sin. That is his punishment— as well as prison."
"Thinking is a crime. Breathing is a crime. Do you want to be freed from it?"
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Humanity.. sins.. life.. death..
..crime.. and punishment...
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"[Name].. what Aeon do you worship...? What Path do you take..?"
