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Neglect

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Harry knew how to navigate and schedule his life around both his family, and his career. Being the top leading artist at the moment with his album Harry’s House was an honor, but so was having his family. His beautiful family consisting of his wife, his precious 3 year old son and newborn daughter. Y/N and Harry had met when she was studying abroad in London working towards her degree in social work, and while Harry was freshly home from the announced hiatus of One Direction. When Harry ran into Y/N at that small coffee shop he knew he was done for with the girl. One would assume taking the sweetest order of coffee instead of your dark order of caffeine would be a day ruiner, but once he was out the coffee shop drinking from the warm cup in his hands, he was quick to perk his ears at the voice of the girl that was right behind his tracks.

“Uhm, I think we may have switched up our drinks” Were the first words Harry heard from her, with her tapping his shoulder softly making sure to get his attention.

It was when he heard her voice that he seemed to notice the taste of the drink in his hands was not the dark caffeine he was used to, but rather the sweetest taste of caffeine he has ever tasted in his years of life.

He looked over at the girl, and was taken by her beautiful features at a first glance. “Oh, uhm I think yes this is definitely way too sweet to be mine” He managed to say and smiled over to the girl that he knew would consume her mind for the rest of the day.

“I took a sip of this drink, and I knew it was way too dark to be mine” She smiled at him lifting the cup a bit towards him “Then I looked over at the name on the cup! And I figured well my name definitely isn’t Harry” She laughed giving herself the privilege to look over his features, which she quickly found to be the prettiest features of anyone she had ever seen.

“I’m sorry I never even thought to check the name on the cup” Harry apologized to the girl, finally looking down noticing the name on the cup was in fact not his.

“It happens to the best of us!” She laughed, “I’m Y/N!” she smiled reaching out her hand towards him, “I’m obviously Harry” He smiled reaching out to shake her hand.

From that day on, they were hooked on each other.

They had their falls as relationships always did, but they were end game, and everyone could see it, and they proved it. After 2 years of being together, Harry proposed and they were soon engaged and quickly married. Time flew by and by the end of their first year in marriage Y/N was pregnant with what is now their 3 year old son, Davian. Davian was the light of their lives when they didn’t know they needed it. Of course they struggled as new parents, they had the sleepless nights, the sick nights, the nights of arguments, they went through it all together. By the time Davian was 2 and a half, Y/N was pregnant with their second child. Soon enough by the time Harry had welcomed his 3rd album to the world, he had also welcomed his new born Daughter Melody.

Davian, Melody and Y/N were Harry’s absolute world, he did everything and anything for them always, they were his top priority. But he never once anticipated the amount of love that came from dropping his 3rd studio album. Of course he was grateful for the immense love and support he was getting with his album, but he was not grateful for the pressures and stress that came from the demands of his management.

It's safe to say, Harry turned into a mad man at home. He wasn’t unhappy, never with his perfect family, but the stress of every interview, of every meeting, of every tour date coming up stressed him out to the core, and the sound of a hyperactive 3 year old following the cries of a newborn did nothing to help.

Quietly stepping into his office, knowing both of the kids are asleep and this is the only available time the new mother of two has to herself, Y/N makes her way over to Harry whos typing away at his laptop, brushing away a strand of hair from his face she says,“Harry I’ve got to step out to the grocery store real quick”, she continues to brush his hair with her fingers, knowing her husband is under new stresses that come from the album drop. Harry turns in his chair looking up at her sighing, “Are you taking the kids?” “They’re down for their naps, they’ve been a bit fussy today” she smiles softly at her husband, “I think they miss their daddy’s attention”

Harry sighs almost ignoring her comment of their children missing him he says “Make your grocery run quick please” Y/N untangles her hand from his hair, “ Harry the kids are sleeping, they will be for a while you’ll be fine” she sighs already making her way towards the door and out of his office. Y/N knows the pressure and stress Harry has gotten from dropping an album, she's been by his side two previous times when he has dropped albums, but never once has he seemed to have directed taking out his stress on her. She didn’t know if he was simply being over pressured or over stressed to have him acting as if his family was a disturbance to him. Letting the wonders and concerns consume her brain, Y/N tries to make the most of the time she has to herself on the grocery run.

Harry was talking to Jeff on the phone, when he was interrupted by the cries of not his newborn, but rather his toddler. “Give me a sec man” Harry quickly sighs into the phone making his way over to the shared room of both Melody and Davian. Y/N and Harry knew Davian struggled to sleep on his own ever since he was born, it wasn’t odd for toddlers or babies to have this attachment, but the two adults needed time for themselves, and when Melody came along they figured it would be perfect for the two children to be roomed together, hoping in the future it would only make their bond closer and stronger. “Daddy” Harry heard the whine of his little boy as he made his way into the room of the boy. “Buddy” Harry sighed, grabbing the boy from his little crib, looking over the crib to check Melody had not stirred in her sleep from Davian’s cries. The little boy was quick to latch onto Harry, not being able to do so in the many days Harry was locked in his office, but even though the boy was latched onto Harry’s neck, his cries didn’t stop. “Davi what's wrong buddy” He tried to sooth the boy in any way he could knowing that he’s still got so much to plan out with Jeff who he left hanging through the phone. Harry tried to keep the boy in his arms and continue talking and planning out his tour with Jeff, but was constantly interrupted by the cries of the boy in his arms. Growing angry, Harry put the boy on the ground “Davi you have got to stop-” and he was interrupted by the cries of Melody. “This can not be happening right now” He groaned, quickly grabbed his phone that was still on the call with Jeff, “I’m sorry, I’ll call you back soon Man,” He told him, “H” Jeff laughed, “We’ve got time, I understand go take care of your kids” Jeff told the dad of two, quickly hanging up the phone knowing he had much more important things to do. “Mel what’s wrong” He took the little girl out of her bassinet, for a moment forgetting about the toddler he had left in his office, up until the toddler once again let out a sob that had him speed walking back to his office.

Harry only grew more frustrated and annoyed at the sound of the cries from the toddler and the baby. “What could you both possibly need?” He groaned, now handling both the 3 year old and the newborn in his arms. When Harry heard the sound of a door opening he was grateful at the notification that his wife was home. He could finally get back to his work, knowing his wife would take care of the children in his arms. Racing down the stairs with both children in his arms he makes his way quickly to his wife. “Y/N please they won’t stop” He tells her practically begging her to take the children away from him. He fails to notice the immense amount of groceries she's holding in her arms. “Harry I’m-” She tries to tell him she has to handle the groceries before she’s interrupted, by him “Y/N please I have enough shit to deal with and this is not one of them” He says with a new face of anger and annoyance over him, he walks over to the couch nearest to them and places the children on it, turning to make his way back to office. “Harry you can’t just expect me to handle everything” Y/N tells him making her way over to the still sobbing children. She kneels on the ground in front of the couch turning her attention to the 3 year old first, “What’s wrong little love” she asks him softly leaning over to brush the hair that identical to his father out of his face, “Mama” the boy whines, and she is quickly embracing the kid in her arms, sitting on the couch fully hugging the poor boy. “Are you Hungry, Davi?” She asks the boy, she knew that right after any nap the boy immediately looked for a bottle of milk, she knew that if Harry had simply given the boy a little more of his attention his cries would be non existent. She feels the little boy nod into her, “Okay little one, let me get your sister settled and I’ll come help you, what if we watch the your show for now” She smiles to the boy, knowing that as soon as she turns the TV to bluey, the boys attention would be fully occupied, she's grateful when she hears the little soft voice of the boy say “Yes mama” as to her request of watching TV while she feeds his little sister. Grabbing the sobbing baby next to her, Y/N moves reaching over to the TV remote, turning on the show that would briefly calm the toddler, before she gets him fully settled after feeding his sister. As the baby latches onto Y/N’s breast, Y/N turns her focus to the toddler next to her, and her thoughts run to the man locked up in his office. How could he have acted like this to his children, he knew what his children were accustomed to and he let himself be consumed in his work to neglect them, something he promised he would never do.

By the time Y/N is done putting away the groceries, she notices the time is hitting 6pm knowing it is hitting bedtime for her babies, something that Harry would always help her with, but as of lately he’s too busy locked in his office to bid any of his attention to help her. She quickly works on setting up the bath for both of the children, putting everything in the bathroom, before going back into the play room she was previously in watching over the children. “Alright little loves it’s bath time” She smiles at Davian who cheers in response, she was grateful her little boy was not one of the children who hated the bath and fought against bathing. “As for you Mel you can have some tummy time before I clean you up” She puts the baby in her arms, holding hands with Davian leading him into the bathroom. Soon enough by the time the clock is hitting 7 bath time is all done, and she is putting the two kids into bed, she feels her heartbreak a little more as it has been every night, knowing that her husband is once again missing out on kissing and tucking the children in goodnight. It was something they both used to do together ever since Davian was born, and as of lately he has failed to do. After putting the kids to bed, Y/N makes her way to take her own shower, where she lets her thoughts and eventually her cries consume her. How did it ever get to the point where her husband was neglecting their family for almost two ongoing months now, would she have to continue taking care of a toddler and newborn on her own?

Y/N knew she would eventually have to have a conversation about what was going on with Harry. Especially after how he had let the children cry for so long today. Before getting into bed for the night, Y/N makes her way into Harry’s office. Without knocking on the door, she simply walks in seeing him once again typing away at his laptop. “Harry, could we possibly talk?” She is quick to ask him, knowing the conversation they have will end into a fight regardless of where the talk takes them. “Y/N I really can’t right now” He sighs not even glancing at her. “Harry, we need to talk '' She tells him this time more sternly, hoping to get the point across that they need to have this talk. “God Y/N please let’s not do this I can’t right now darling” He finally turns to look at her this time, and he can tell she is not having it. “If you can’t talk then Harry, then you will listen to me” She decides if he was going to refuse to have a civil conversation with her then he could rightfully listen to everything she has to say. She was tired of dealing with it all on her own. “I can’t do this on my own, Harry, it’s not fair to me. It’s not fair to the kids” She starts off “Y/N I told you-” He interrupts her “No you’re going to listen.” She holds her ground, “I understand that the album drop, interviews, tour it all comes with it Harry, but so should your family. Just because you have work doesn’t mean you neglect your family. You can neglect me all you want, Harry, but not your kids, you will not neglect my kids. They are still babies, they don’t deserve that, they do not deserve to be crying for almost an hour starving, when their Dad is home and is simply not able to give them any attention over work.” She starts to tear up at her next words, “ Harry I vowed to help you whenever you need, whenever you fall, I fall if you fall. But I didn’t vow to allow you to let our family fall. If you can’t deal with us anymore Harry, you can just say it. If you think this is too much for you we can go. I can go with the kids, I can leave you to be on your own, just say it, don’t ignore it please. I can’t be the only one looking out after a 2 month old and a three year old Harry, I can’t. I know your fans, and management need you but we need you too Harry ! We need you more ! I am so tired, Harry, so tired. The kids miss you, I miss you.” She finally breaks into sobs in front of Harry, and the realization of his actions finally hit him. He makes it over to his wife, letting her fall into his arms hearing her sobs break through her letting his own tears take over his eyes.

“I’m so so sorry” He starts, holding her even closer and harder, “ You all are far more important than this album and interviews I promise” He tells her letting his tears fall, moving his head into her shoulder. She puts her hand into his hair brushing it with her fingers in an attempt to comfort him, even though she knows he should be comforting her. “I’ll call Jeff, I’ll tell him interviews and tour dates are off for the next months, love” He moves his head from its place on her shoulder, moving her arm to be around him, he holds her closer so they are face to face, “I never ever meant to neglect you or the children, I just, I don’t know Y/N I don’t know” He looks straight into her face, this time he is the one brushing some stray hairs from her face away, “I love you and the kids Y/N, I will spend every day proving it to you and them always” He puts his forehead on hers looking down at her eyes full of tears just like his. He starts brushing her tears with his hand, “Let’s call Jeff right now why don’t I” He says softly leaning in to kiss her soft lips, “Okay” she softly replies leaning in to kiss him, something that she felt she hasn’t done in an eternity. She missed it, she missed him, even though he was always there. They kiss for a few moments before Harry is shifting from hugging her, to holding her hand, making his way to grab his phone, he sits in his office chair, guiding Y/N to sit on his lap, refusing to let her go, after he finally realized how much he missed his wife. He hooks his arm around her waist searching through his contacts, quickly finding Jeff’s number after having so many phone conversations with him in that one day alone.

It only takes a few moments of silence for Jeff to answer the phone, “Jeff Hey” Harry starts off the call and he’s immediately met with Jeff’s voice, “Harry I just told you we have to wait till-” Harry is quick to interrupt him, wanting to get his point across,“Jeff, I want to cancel everything for the next few months” “Harry what are you talking about” “I’m just, I need time with my family Jeff. The kids, Y/N they deserve and need my all and my attention over anything else Jeff. Davian is already three, Melody is only going to stay so little for so long, and Y/N shouldn’t have to deal with them on her own. I need to cherish and watch my family grow.” Harry is looking straight into Y/N as he speaks to Jeff, and she only falls into Harry’s shoulder, and he can feel her tears seeping into his shirt. How could he ever put his wife through this, she deserved way better than this and he knew it. “I get it man, I’ll clear it, I’ll get rid of it all Harry, take care of that little family of yours you got there for me” Harry can practically hear the smile on Jeff’s voice and he’s grateful to know his manager or more so brother figure is supporting this decision rather than opposing it. “Thanks Jeff, I’ll talk to you soon” Y/N can only hear Jeff’s faint response before Harry is sighing, putting the phone down, and embracing Y/N in another hug. “I’ll always be here from now on, okay.” He tells her softly into her ear, “I love you so so much” He reminds her, before he’s once again moving them to kiss the lips he has missed for so many days. After their moments of kisses, he picks her up, guiding her into their bedroom, he places her on the bed, and admires her for a few moments. He kisses her forehead, “I’ll be right back,” he makes his way out of the shared room of their two children, he’s clueless as to Y/N watching him over the baby monitor in her room. Harry makes his way over to the little boy, brushes the hair out of his face, before leaning down and kissing him softly, “I’ll be here more buddy I promise you.” Y/N sees him brush his tears away, before he’s leaning down over the boy “I love you little one”. He makes his way over to his little girl in the bassinet, “Pretty girl, I am so sorry” At this point, Harry is practically in sobs, and Y/N is up from their bed making her way over to the nursery room. “Harry” She whispers quietly into the air, making her way over to him, she hugs him from behind, getting on her toes, looking over his arm, she admires the man holding their daughter in front of them.

“I love you all so so much” He cries into the air “We love you so much more” she whispers back looking up at him.

From that night forward, Harry watched his family grow alongside him, in his home, in his office, in the backstage area of interviews, in the backstage area of tour arenas, and most importantly in his heart.

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