Kiana.Nichole.

iLive.iLaugh.iLove. Random as hell. Enjoy.

[bittersweetdreaming]

Some days are easier than others

It’s funny how some things you never pay attention to until later on. There are a lot of people that I keep coming across who have announced pregnancy or given birth. It’s hard to watch or see bc I recently lost mine. It just feels so unfair . What about me is wrong where my baby couldn’t go to full term but others do? I just feel so bad sometimes but I try to keep a brave face bc I don’t want pity or anything like that. I just wish I could be truly happy again.

[bittersweetdreaming]

Heartbroken

I am extremely heartbroken...found out I was pregnant and miscarried all in the same week.

I didn’t plan for a child and I was nervous about being pregnant but Lord knows I didn’t want to lose one.

I feel terrible . Like shit and it’s so hard to talk to anyone about this...my boyfriend is sooo supportive and trying to make sure I’m okay but I know he is heartbroken as well. He is hurting as well bc he wanted this baby. And secretly I did too ....I guess that’s why I feel so broken .

[bittersweetdreaming]

2015.

This was the hardest year of my life. I mean I was at my absolute lowest point. LOWEST. I had just got out of two back to back terrible relationships and lost everything except my job. I lost my boyfriend, my car, my mattress, my phone, a lot of my belongings, my laptop, everything. I didn’t think that I could go on.

I’m so glad I pulled myself out of It. I’m doing 1000x times better. I finally got that toxicity out of my life. And I’m doing so much better. I’m so thankful to the Lord for that.

[bittersweetdreaming]

Back at It.

Think I’m going to get back into tumbling. On my personal page that’s locked just for me of course.

[bittersweetdreaming]

Patience....is not a virtue of mine.

I'm so ughhh. I upset myself because I just feel like I wanna be successful now! I wanna be with who I'm gonna be with for the rest of my life now. I wanna be financially comfortable now. I wanna be worry free now. Even though I hate to admit it, I constantly compare myself to others and upset myself because I feel like I am behind everybody else my age. Still struggling, killing myself working two jobs, getting but haven't gotten my masters degree yet...single , no kids...I just feel like when is it my time?....when?

[yars]

[supersexyawesomeness]

[bittersweetdreaming]

Strange

Feels so strange staying by myself... I have never ever stayed by myself honestly. Like it's really weird . Makes me feel sort of lonely but I think that it's because it's unfamiliar to me.

[bittersweetdreaming]

I'm back

I'm back tumblr.

[kushandwizdom]

I get angry at the people I expected more from, then I blame myself for having expectations in the first place.

[cantbae]

[kushandwizdom]

Forgive yourself. Not just once. Again, and again, and again. As many times as it takes to find peace.

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[coral]

[glamdoll-z]

You can’t force a relationship, and you can’t force the other person to care and love you the same way you love them.

glamdoll-z  (via seulray)

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[gomcgill]

Instead of wondering when your next vacation is, maybe you should set up a life you don’t need to escape from.

Seth Godin (via

mysimplereminders

)

Please

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[gomcgill]

Instead of wondering when your next vacation is, maybe you should set up a life you don’t need to escape from.

Seth Godin (via

mysimplereminders

)

Please

(via thehappyrealityproject)

[bombshellssonly]

[thelovelygray-blog]

If only my hair would stay in these. 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾

[picsandquotes]

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