Thoughts of Biz

Just a collection of my thoughts or things I think are cool.

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I just don’t think my mental health is where it needs to be right now.

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I need to improve myself as a person

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I can’t help but feel myself getting more and more anxiety as I get older. My self-esteem should be much higher than it it currently is. But I don’t know how to fix it. Specific things trigger it but I find it easier just to play the “she’ll be right” Card and act super relaxed so that no-one asks me any questions about it. It’s starting to factor in to my day to day life, some weeks I’ll go through the whole 7 days and maybe eat 7 meals if that because I feel so ill. My immune system is suffering because of all the stress and I find myself getting sick more often than I’d like. I don’t want to reach out so for the moment writing things here is the easiest way to deal with it.

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Ambition.

I have none.

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Struggle.

Life is a struggle. I know the things I'm worried about aren't even that big in the scheme of things, but right now I can't get them out of my head and I feel sick all the time just thinking about them. I just don't know what to do anymore.

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I just don't really know what to do anymore.

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Sometimes I fucking hate my life.

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This about sums it up.

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Just getting a fresh trim last night

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Life.

Life throws tougher curve balls than Sandy Koufax.

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Life sucks.

I go to bed every night and can't sleep at all because I'm worried what I'm going to do with my life. I have zero interest in doing anything i am currently or will be qualified for and don't know what to do about it. This is the sixth year I've been out of high school and I'm 0% closer to actually achieving anything. At times like these I just want to jump in the car and drive for hours listening to loud music, but I can't even afford to do that. As much as I enjoy having a job, it's the worst thing for my education, I always put work before uni and its cost me so much. Hopefully it all comes together soon.

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Too many things I want to do. Too nervous and anxious to do any of them.

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So much to do, no motivation. Needs to be done.

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Petty bullshit will be the end of me.

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My mate Andy ( thedeeperwater ) takes sweet photos of me.

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Living the dream checking out some serious waterfalls

thedeeperwater with some damn good photography skills to capture the moment.

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Norway | Tor-Ivar Næss

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The northern lights are actually amazing. On the bucket list for sure.