As one mother to another, Iām writing to you for advice. Itās been many many years since I was raising children, and when I say many years, I mean more than a century. And now I find myself in that position again. Although we have not talked frequently, I have often thought what a wonderful mother you must have been and continue to be. After all, your children have turned out so wonderfully. Isabelle is so brave, Alec such a leader, and Jace, well, I can only tell you that I know what an excellent example of a Herondale is, and he is one.
I also know that you have experienced profound loss and grief, and that you understand it.
I am writing to you about Kit. He too is a Herondale, and I believe that he will be an excellent example of one as well. But like all Herondale men (and the girls, too, believe me I know!) he is very private and secretive. On the whole Jem and I wish nothing but to respect his privacy. But when comes the time when worry requires one, as a parent, to intervene?
A few nights ago after dinner I stopped by Kitās room to give him his phone (he is forever losing it and leaving it somewhere!), and I found that he was not there. Glancing out the window, I could see him outside, standing in our front garden. He had his back to me and appeared to be staring off into the distance, but I could tell by the way he was standing and the movements of his shoulders that he was agitated. Concerned, I followed him outside. I came up behind him quietly, not wanting to startle him. Perhaps I came too quietly. I realized immediately that he was talking to a ghostāIāve had experiences of such things before. As is always the case in this kind of situation, I could hear only his side of the conversation.
Kit said, āIf you keep trying to talk to me about this, Iām not going to be able to see you anymore.ā Then he said, āOf course I believe in forgiveness. But some things are so terrible that you never want to revisit them.ā There was a long pause. I thought maybe it was over. And then he said, āDonāt you understand? Everytime you bring him up, it tears another piece out of my heart.ā Then he turned around, and of course saw me, standing on the path outside the house. He didnāt say anything, just gave me a sort of betrayed look and ran inside.
The next day of course he just pretended that nothing had happened. I just donāt know what to do. Should I leave him alone to work through this on his own? I always figured there must be ghosts at CirenworthāKit has informed me that there is a ghost dog that he plays with sometimes, a retriever I think ābut I canāt imagine any of them as malicious or hurtful. And indeed it didn't sound as though he were afraid of the ghost, but as though the ghost brought back dark memories of his past. Perhaps of his father? I just donāt know what to do. Jem thinks we should let him work it out on his own, as he is a teenager, but then I remember my first two children, when they were teenagers, how there were times when they did need my help. (I am very much hoping that Kit is not having a tempestuous affair with a ghost, as Iām not sure I could go through that again.)
Itās keeping me up nights worrying. If thereās any advice that you have, Iād love to hear it.
Iām enclosing a picture of Jace and Clary with Kit and Mina, last time they visited. They look so happy!
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