farewell
this is (hopefully) my final parting post.
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with that out of the way...
i do not plan on coming back to tumblr. i do not plan on posting to *** anymore, nor do i plan on posting to *** or *** or any of my other sideblogs. ever. period.
when, and if, i do come back to tumblr:
it will not be on this blog.
i will not post the url publicly.
i will not share the url with anyone except mutuals.
if you do find me, i do not care.
this site has done more harm to me than good. while i’m eternally grateful i could help get my cat to the vet, and i’m very thankful to the 1000+ followers spread across my blogs who have helped me grow and learn as an artist and a person, it will never, ever make up for the amount of hatred, harassment, death/r-pe threats, slurs, insults, and other personal trauma that has come out of it.
i shoved myself into far too many uncomfortable positions because of the toxic, backwards people on this site and within its communities, and in the long term it stunted my recovery and happiness, and that is never something i should have to do for people to like me. let it be known that i absolutely will not apologize for being a living, breathing human being with thoughts, feelings, and opinions that do not align with the majority of people on this website, and that is a fucking promise.
i am no saint, but neither is anyone else. the fact that some of you were so willing to jump at the slightest little mistake, harass me, and call me slurs instead of gently telling me i messed up is absolutely telling of your tone, and i am not going to put up with it any longer.
there are maybe a handful of people/mutuals who have definitely been there for me even though we never really spoke, and while i can’t thank you each individually (anxiety, sorry) i’d like to let you know that i really appreciate it, even if this may be the last time you hear from me.
i will leave my art posts up, as well as a handful of my old text posts (the rest are set to private), and this blog will stand as an archive. my deviantart will stand for as long as necessary, but i have still undecided if i will continue to post there either. once this final set of adopts has sold on spritekind, and perhaps any others i might need to get rid of, it will remain inactive indefinitely as well.
i have made my view as crystal clear as i possibly can. this site is, for the most part, toxic, and i cannot have that in the face of my own personal growth. it was fun at times, and at others it was hell, but this departure is necessary. i wish you all well for the future-- and to those who have hurt me, i don’t wish for you to get hurt. i only wish for you to grow into a better person, too.
dave















