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What up I'm Jess I'm 20 and I have no idea what the fuck is going on

[bladesandvodka]

I hate myself so fucking much. I’m the fucking worst

[bladesandvodka]

Why does it come in waves

[bladesandvodka]

I don’t want to killl myself but I certainly don’t want to be like this anymore and it feels like anything that will make my feel better is dangerous and sounds like it’s worth it to stop fucking feeling like this

[bladesandvodka]

Anything that would help is so expensive

[bladesandvodka]

I know I shouldn’t base my worth on how other people feel about me. But I still feel like shit when he acts like he doesn’t want me. It makes me want to die

[bladesandvodka]

I’m fucking pathetic

[bladesandvodka]

I’m slipping...

But I’m not even scared this time

[bladesandvodka]

I go from okay to wanting to die in 20 fucking minutes why

[bladesandvodka]

Why can’t I jusr weigh 100 pounds and be dainty and boys fall in love with me

[ojibwa]

impulsive thoughts // 7.5.2019

[bladesandvodka]

It’s so fucking shitty to feel yourself getting bad again

[unspokengrief]

I can’t tell you how bad I’ve gotten 22.11.18

[thinroll]

rb if you have considered or attempted suicide

trying to prove a point

[traumadraw]

feels bad. feels so good. 

[bladesandvodka]

A room full of people I love. Yet I feel so alone.

[memories-never--die]

I’m so tired of never liking what i see in the mirror

[bladesandvodka]

I'm so fucking numb