i know how to do some things

Also sometimes depression and overthinking things

[blairwisp]

Eep

So

I might have

Accepted an apartment

And am moving on my own

...

Actually feel like I can do this

Exciting things

[blairwisp]

Wow so tumblr still exists

So therapy happened and depression is manageable so all my posts are super cringe..

Kinda wish I stuck around to keep posting through all that, would be nice to read now.

But I really didn't have the energy so I get it.

Still talking to the void and all that except more okayness and memes.

Hope today is a great day for anyone reading this!

[blairwisp]

Sure do love feeling like crying even tho nothing is happening and I'm distracting the brain with stuff like usual. Was feeling bad for a while and thought it was over but nahh gonna feel even worse.

[blairwisp]

I went to IKEA for the first time

And I got a shelf thing but its still waiting in the box cuz I got sick right after and couldnt build it plus room is messy and I need to clean first.. anyway, its waiting and I'm still sick but suddenly I get this urgent need to build it. Its like middle of the night and I'm sick and its also heavy so I think I need help. But literally cant stop thinking about building it, like it feels super important right now but I can't. Its such a strange feeling I dont really ever get a need to do anything like this.

[blairwisp]

Progress?

Sooo I kinda hate all of myself like, a lot. But today I looked in the mirror and for the first time in a long time genuinely thought I look cute. Probably sounds kinda lame but it was actually big for me since this never happens and I didn't even ruin it by trying to take pictures cuz that never works out, I just had a positive moment and then let it be and I'm so proud of myself c:

[blairwisp]

Today was a birthday

My birthday to be exact. Probably a lot of people had a birthday today. I just had to be reminded that it was mine too and I was alone. Well not exactly alone I was with a friend but I still felt so very lonely since there was no real celebration just normal being.. I feel so worthless all the time I just wished someone would tell me I'm worth celebrating today but that didn't happen. Also her online activities were far more important than me since she hardly let go of her phone, hence the lonely feeling. I don't even think she said happy birthday to me, just made a couple of jokes that I can do anything I want since its that day. Clearly not everything since I can't get you to put your phone down...

I guess it was an okay day, I mean it could have been worse so I cant complain

[blairwisp]

The silence makes me feel all itchy but I have no capacity to focus on/follow a story of any kind so I just listen to random music youtube recommends me. Huh, I guess its been a while since this happened.

[blairwisp]

Stayed up all night being all kinds of uncomfortable, this is fine

I while ago had a mild panic attack(?) while I was laying down kinda weird and after it passed I drowned myself in stuff like youtube videos and memes to push away the thoughts that caused it.. aaand now I realize the initial panic attack left me all tensed up and I didnt fix that so now my neck and back is all painful, reminding me of why its like that for probably a full day at least.

[lintujasukissa-deactivated20250]

Voita itsellesi kirja!

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[glumshoe]

I tried to make a sexual identity generator but it’s glitchy and I’m not sure how to fix it.

[shredsandpatches]

I got “topheavy cishet”

[bravemercutio]

Parallel parking bisexual

[hi-def-doritos-deactivated20181]

Stonehenge lesbian

[lynati]

sushi asexual

[jabberwockypie]

Mysterious Lady Knight

[blairwisp]

Crumbling

I love these nights when I cant handle it, nothing distracts me from feeling bad and I desperately need to talk to someone..but I have nobody to talk to... and I can't just go to strangers because I cant bother them with my miserable existence. I have nobody to hug, nobody to love me and make me feel better. This night feels like its forever and I'm stuck here... today was such a good day, why am I feeling like this now??

[blairwisp]

So I got myself a therapist and I'm seeing her tomorrow and for some reason I'm scared??? I've met her once before and it was good but now I'm scared because ive actually committed to this whole thing?? Ive already kinda committed but I keep thinking what if she's gonna push me too fast or not listen to me or something totally irrational like that.. I love when my mental illness is trying to make me not get help 👌

[blairwisp]

So cold, much hurt

Just finished watching someone play dbh and they were so mean and cold about it and I feel almost personally attacked. How could they not care? They were even happy when my boi Connor got replaced because new tech is better like heck no my sweet boi Connor deserves better ;;_;; I like them usually but this feels so cold and weird. Maybe I just love Connor too much to have him be treated like this.

[rlsallyface]

y’all I need more detroit: become human friends, pwease,,

reblog if you’re uhhhhh lonely and want more friends too. thanks

[blairwisp]

I hardly ever post anymore when I feel bad, I dont seem to get those agressive feelings that I need to let out or I burst. Now its just steadily humming darkness that I can't quite put to words.. I used to think I was so smart and now I struggle expressing how I feel. How can words be so damn hard? I just want someone to open me up and see what's happening so they can put it to words and I can get appropriate help but nah, it dont work like that and brain dont wanna words make to tell people the ouchie inside. 10/10 would depression again 👌

[cottoncanyon-deactivated2018012]

Reblog if it’s ok for people to give you $599.99

[sailed-0ut]

Please don’t hesitate

[imhellafit-personal-deactivated]

1 penny below reporting limit for the IRS… I see what you did there

[shysweetthing]

(Don’t give me $599.99)

That’s not the right IRS rule.

$599.99 is the amount below which a business does not need to issue a 1099 to a contractor who provides business services. The contractor still needs to report the income on their taxes.

The correct number for the IRS rule for money that is gifted rather than received in a business transaction is $13999.99–more than that, and the recipient has to pay tax on the gift and report it to the IRS. Less than that, and there’s no taxation or reporting requirement.

If we’re choosing amounts on the basis of IRS limits, give these people $13,999.99. 

Go. Do it.

[capriciousarsonist]

Reblog if it’s ok for people to give you $13,999.99

[pome-grnt]