From The Series: The Quest For True Happiness & Love (Blog 17)
I struggled most thinking about what others had to say about me: how they watched me not become my highest potential, not become my bestest self, not become the person I had projected to be, and who I thought myself to be and still do. I struggled thinking about people having to see me fail. From weight gain, relationship failures and major life and security struggles I faced years ago to just my current post in life.
I use to care so much about what they thought about me, my ongoing progression towards loss of life and vitality for life.
What I realized is that most of the people that I cared so much about how they feel were not strangers, they were people I know, from college alumni, to high school friends to people I grew up with and from my neighborhood.
Having to deal with the disappointment of your own family is hard enough than to be worrying about, at this point, strangers. Strangers that have invested nothing meaningful to you rather that watchful eye, peering into the inners of your life sending negative and ‘sabotagey’ energy towards you. It’s a heavy burden to bare and to care about. It is like bring a muddy trunk filled with wet heavy ‘redy’ brown mud dripping all over you as you bare the weight of carrying it.
Let me tell you this! Drop it!! Jump in the river and wash yourself off! You deserve better! You were great, are great and is great and will be greater in the future!
Let them squirm! Let them squirm by taking control of your life! Release anyone who make you feel watched with unloving or unsupportive eyes. Let them squirm by rebuilding your life! Starting small and building yourself up doing the things you’ve always wanted to do and living the life of your dreams!
Let them squirm by not worry about them as you are what the attraction is, that is why they are watching. So let the show be good and satiate them with your successes.
Let them squirm as you pull yourself together, ease into your power and let the Creator and his components (the universe) work in your favor, guide and protect you as you allow the abundance that exist to permeate your life.
Let them squirm as you break generational curses, heal yourself and lift up those around. Let them squirm by finding true joy and happiness and well-being as you lift yourself and others.
Let them squirm because they thought you were done “but yuh nuh done yet”. Let them squirm as you progress in your success and your dreams manifest in their fullness thereof. Let them squirm!
Let them squirm as you went through hell and back, fighting your battle by yourself. Awakening and Sleeping and awakening again, fighting and crawling, laughing and crying. You did that! So let them squirm!
Let them squirm! No one knows your pain, noone sees your scars, no one knows the psychological warfares you’ve had to fight and continue to fight victoriously.
Let them squirm! They don’t pay your bills! They will never give you a dime, neither will you ask them, so let them squirm when they see you, crisp, glowing eyes and bushy tailed, walking with your chest high because you exceeded all expectations and continue to do so. Let them squirm! Yuh nuh done yet!
So let them continue to squirm as they watch peering in and silently admire resentfully. Let them squirm!
You be you and never un-be you, because they can’t be you and they’ll never be you like you. So let them squirm!
Stop caring about what people that don’t pay your bills think of you. They don’t know what’s going on on the other side. Block them!
Align, refocus steadfastly to the life you want to create and let watchful eyes do as they may, just continue to watch and become more of you!
