Your head is spinning, your vision is blurry and body is so heavy that you canât even support your own weight. You feel a strong arm around your waist helping you standing on your feet, you couldnât see the face, but you knew who he was, the familiar scent and the security feeling can only be from him; your bestfriend Woojin. He puts you in his car and drives back to your place; he had the keys to your apartment since the time he had to break the door open after he couldnât reach you, but only to find you unconscious on the floor nearly dying from alcohol intoxication, it had become a habit for him to fetch you out from your drinking spot almost every day and make sure youâre okay⊠The sun hit your face and you hardly managed to open your eyes, you examined your surroundings and realized that youâre in your room, you turned your head to the side and there you saw him; Woojin was sitting in the chair next to your bed, elbows resting on his knees and sadness look on his face. He hands you a glass of water without saying a single word and leaves the room, shortly after you followed him, he was in the kitchen cooking something. You stood there for a moment, you knew he saw you but he kept his silence, Woojin placed a bowl of soup in front of you and headed over to the living room, he sat in the couch avoiding looking in your eyes the whole time⊠âAre you gonna keep that attitude?â you said angrily, he sighed and walked up to you, grabbed your arm and looked directly into your eyes. âYou promised me last time that you wonât be drinking again and yet here you are, why youâre keep poisoning your body and mind, I canât live with the fear of something happening to you each time you donât pick up..â he let from your arm and said with a soft voice â itâs been 2 years now, you should stopâ. Tears started forming in your eyes at his words, you pushed him and shouted;
âYou donât know what youâre talking about so keep it shut and mind your own businessâ
âI do, I do know how it feels, losing someone you love, I do know that. I also lost my sister that day and you donât see me chugging alcohol all dayâ he shouted back.
âBut it wasnât because of you, you werenât in the car, I was, I caused that accident. If only I didnât get in the car with them, if only I didnât play that stupid game, they will be all alive now; mom, dad and your sister, but no, I had to be an idiot, theyâre dead now and Iâm the only one who lived, I killed themâ you collapsed on the floor and bursted into tears. Woojin knows what happened that day, even if you blame yourself for their death, he doesnât; he kneels down and holds you in his arms into a delicate embrace, he puts your head on his chest while patting your back in an attempt to make you stop crying. Incomprehensible words coming from your mouth; itâs my fault⊠I killed them, you cried out. He knew you wouldnât stop bawling so he started singing your song; a beautiful melody that always managed to calm you down. A few moment after, you stopped crying; Woojin lifted your head up and wiped your tears away, cupped you face and placed a gentle kiss on your forehead. âIt wasnât youâre fault y/n, so stop blaming yourself, please, for me, I canât stand losing youâ he said with a soft voice, you were so exhausted that you couldnât argue with that, so you just rested your head back to his chest while he held you tightly. âWeâre gonna make it through this, Iâm not gonna leave you till you let go of this guilt feelingâ, this was the last thing you heard Woojin say before you drifted off to sleep with a tear in your eyes.
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