I saw the void at the center of God

25 he/him haver of DID. Here's where I'm putting my religious trauma bullshit

[blasphemousbuck-archive]

Since I can pin posts now, have this new disclaimer/dni/whatever post.

-Don’t fucking proselytize to me. I GREW UP in evangelical Christianity, my problems aren’t because I “need Jesus”, theyre BECAUSE of that shit. JESUSBLR FUCK OFF.

-Don’t touch my posts if you’re a TERF/ “Gender-Critical”. I’m a trans man, and I don’t want you interacting with me. I don’t care if you’re not posting things relating to it on the blog you interact with me with. My posts aren’t for you.

-Garden-variety transphobes/homophobes/ect also fuck off, I don’t want you interacting.

-This should really go without saying, but NAZIS FUCK OFF. FASHISTS FUCK OFF. RACISTS FUCK OFF. MY BLOG IS NOT FOR YOU, AND I HOPE YOU GET HIT WITH A BRICK.

-Anon is on, but I don’t tolerate anon hate. I probably won’t respond to it, but you will get blocked. That being said, random anon messages that aren’t hateful are always welcome!

Hope this isn’t annoying to post, I just wanna make my boundaries SUPER CLEAR.

[atjsgf]

Hey ex-fundamentalists, is it true fundamentalists think babies are capable of sin? Not original sin but like a two year old throwing a tantrum, would they be violating the fifth commandment?

I grew up Mormon and they like to scaremonger about other religions so I basically just assume that anything they said about other religions was false to some degree or another but someone said something that implied that fundamentalists do actually think that? And now I'm curious and I need to know.

(For comparison, Mormons believe that people are not capable of sin until they are eight years old specifically.)

[blasphemousbuck-archive]

Ex fundie baptist and yeah, generally. It depends on the sect if they believe if the kid themselves are responsible for that sin or if it's on their parents (I grew up the former), but generally yeah. It was seen as the "sin nature in action". Regardless of sect though, once you reached the age of "knowing right from wrong" (often I've seen it around 4 or 5, but some go older or younger), it's universal that it's on the kid. I obviously can't speak for every fundie group, but that's how I was raised.

[crocutaclan]

money help

Yeah definitely doing this again. Sorry that we are always begging for money online but, hey, do what you can I guess.

If anyone has any money to spare, we need $25 to get our cat his medicine.

I cant really offer much in return atm; We are kind of backed up on commissions, and even our energy for drawing has been very low due to our AC not working and being too hot to function. If you really want a doodle done, I can try, but you might not get it for a bit.

If you are able to spare a couple bucks, please DM either myself or @pepsiwatermelon for the p/ypal link, and thank you.

Picture of The beast himself under the cut

[transguysuggestions]

Not to drop this on my trans posting blog, but actually yeah I am. This is the same cat we were worried about a while ago- he's okay now, but on these meds for life. While my partner is backed up on commissions, I still have a few slots open if you'd like to get something out of it. It's only this bad because the job I was supposed to get got pushed back another two weeks and we are barely scraping by. Anything helps, and you'd be helping out our sweet stinky guy

[transguysuggestions]

I hate to reblog this again, but my new job got pushed back a week because the inspections didn't go through (brand new restaurant still setting up). We need another $25-50 to make it to my first paycheck and from then on I'll be making more than enough to take care of it myself. If it werent for this unexpected delay I wouldn't need to ask, but I had no control over this.

If you'd like an art commission from my partner or myself in exchange for a donation please let me know and I will be glad to do that for you. We are completely tapped out of money because we were already living on extremely tight margins.

Thank you for reading and for your understanding.

Here are some more images of The Stink of Man (ft Cookie in the back of the second one)

[pepsiwatermelon]

Not to put a damper on anyone's fun, but with this new cult of lamb thing or whatever getting popularity, keep cult survivors in mind when posting about it. Cult survivors are real people, sometimes people you know.

Cults are not just a made up horror trope. They are terrifyingly real and on the rise. They ruin and destroy lives, and are not a quirky fun aesthetic. Cults in real life are not a fucking joke. ANYONE can fall victim to a cult- they're not an affliction of "dumb" or "gullible" people. In fact, if you think you personally are impervious to joining a cult, you are especially at risk.

I'll admit I haven't looked into the game (I think its a game?), this isn't me saying it's "problematic" or whatever. Just keep in mind what a genuinely serious topic cults are. Be compassionate where you can.

[pepsiwatermelon]

Urgent help needed please please reblog

I fucking got my car window smashed in and my polycule only has one car to use while my metamour is out of town. Please help

The estimated repair cost is $350, and my insurance won't cover because it wasn't accident related. I'll do c°mmissions for cheap, writing or drawing if you're not comfortable d°nating.

p*ypal: @transguysuggestions

0/350

[pepsiwatermelon]

I've been informed that there's a typo for my p*ypal- the correct username is @ transguysuggestion, with no s! I also have a c*shapp now, at $melonsysart. My commission info is in the pinned post, and the 50% discount still stands!

Thank you to everyone who's donated so far, it's been so helpful after everything that's been going on.

70/350

[pepsiwatermelon]

Last night an extremely kind person donated a large amount, it means the world to me that everyone's helping me out in this extremely hard time.

P-ypal @transguysuggestion

C-shapp $melonsysart

If you aren't comfortable donating, I am still doing commissions for half off, so you get something in exchange for helping me.

125/350

[pepsiwatermelon]

We did it!

Thank you so much to everyone who has donated. Thanks to all of you, and the fact that we found a glass repair place that will do the repair for only 250 instead of 350, we have reached our goal and the window is getting fixed. Any funds left over or additional donations will be going towards things like food and gas, but this is no longer an emergency situation.

Thank you again to everyone who donated and reblogged! I'm spreading this to my other more popular blogs to let people know the emergency has passed, and also to let everyone know that my commissions will remain on sale through the end of this August, to help with our unrelated move. If you still want to help out, feel free to commission, but we are good on donations at this point.

It means the world to all of us that people were able to help out in our time of need. Thank you so much!

[pepsiwatermelon]

Urgent help needed please please reblog

I fucking got my car window smashed in and my polycule only has one car to use while my metamour is out of town. Please help

The estimated repair cost is $350, and my insurance won't cover because it wasn't accident related. I'll do c°mmissions for cheap, writing or drawing if you're not comfortable d°nating.

p*ypal: @transguysuggestions

0/350

[pepsiwatermelon]

I've been informed that there's a typo for my p*ypal- the correct username is @ transguysuggestion, with no s! I also have a c*shapp now, at $melonsysart. My commission info is in the pinned post, and the 50% discount still stands!

Thank you to everyone who's donated so far, it's been so helpful after everything that's been going on.

70/350

[pepsiwatermelon]

Last night an extremely kind person donated a large amount, it means the world to me that everyone's helping me out in this extremely hard time.

P-ypal @transguysuggestion

C-shapp $melonsysart

If you aren't comfortable donating, I am still doing commissions for half off, so you get something in exchange for helping me.

125/350

[pepsiwatermelon]

Urgent help needed please please reblog

I fucking got my car window smashed in and my polycule only has one car to use while my metamour is out of town. Please help

The estimated repair cost is $350, and my insurance won't cover because it wasn't accident related. I'll do c°mmissions for cheap, writing or drawing if you're not comfortable d°nating.

p*ypal: @transguysuggestions

0/350

[pepsiwatermelon]

I've been informed that there's a typo for my p*ypal- the correct username is @ transguysuggestion, with no s! I also have a c*shapp now, at $melonsysart. My commission info is in the pinned post, and the 50% discount still stands!

Thank you to everyone who's donated so far, it's been so helpful after everything that's been going on.

70/350

[pepsiwatermelon]

Urgent help needed please please reblog

I fucking got my car window smashed in and my polycule only has one car to use while my metamour is out of town. Please help

The estimated repair cost is $350, and my insurance won't cover because it wasn't accident related. I'll do c°mmissions for cheap, writing or drawing if you're not comfortable d°nating.

p*ypal: @transguysuggestions

0/350

[pepsiwatermelon]

I've been informed that there's a typo for my p*ypal- the correct username is @ transguysuggestion, with no s! I also have a c*shapp now, at $melonsysart. My commission info is in the pinned post, and the 50% discount still stands!

Thank you to everyone who's donated so far, it's been so helpful after everything that's been going on.

70/350

[pepsiwatermelon]

Urgent help needed please please reblog

I fucking got my car window smashed in and my polycule only has one car to use while my metamour is out of town. Please help

The estimated repair cost is $350, and my insurance won't cover because it wasn't accident related. I'll do c°mmissions for cheap, writing or drawing if you're not comfortable d°nating.

p*ypal: @transguysuggestions

0/350

[melon-arts]

Due to personal emergency, all my prices are 50% off! I'm in dire need right now because I can't really afford to get food due to a medical issue that got my work hours cut. If you're able to, please c0mmission me, or d0nate.

Commission info can be found here:

Melonsys Commission info

Commission info!

P*yp*l: @transguysuggestion

[weirdcultstuff]

[pepsiwatermelon]

Psst! I made a website where I'm going to be hosting most if not all of my art from now on! If youre in the market for new art to look at or get a custom piece, check out my stuff here! It's also a kind of personal site that I'm really enjoying.

[taragrimface]

stop telling kids hell is real

[taragrimface]

stop thinking everyone you loathe will be tortured in the earths mantle forever

cope some other way this isnt healthy

[taragrimface]

not to be secular but the being that made the universe isnt reading your thoughts and weighing them against a book of rules to decide if you will get torn apart by demons forever or go to six flags with gramgram

[taragrimface]

and the important part of this isn't that you're wrong it's that treating this as the default human experience is literally madness and makes you unhealthy and dark

[taragrimface]

there can be an afterlife babe stop trying to game it

christianity is fueled by trauma and spreads by creating it

i could couch this more but honestly yeah the teachings of jesus are neat but the text of the bible is cruel and twisted and unsustainable and that book did not solve humanity

it's just a void you can stare into forever and pull others towards BY DESIGN

[taragrimface]

pascal's wager: if indeed life as we know it is a temporary fragile miracle then you should definitely spend it dragging your family and neighbors into a cult about torture

[blasphemousbuck-archive]

Guess who forgot to update his age for 2 years

[wolfboyvirus]

Hello tumblr, im doing something of a mini survey so i have two questions:

1. Did you know before reading this that there was mercury present in thermometer fluid

2. Regardless of your previous answer would you say this was common knowledge

[die-bi-the-sword]

i love ex-christian tumblr so much. Like yes we get harrassed by christians lurking in the religious trauma tag and yes we get infiltrated by terfs but hey! at least we are in this together. and no one understands my visceral response to casting crowns like you ❤️

[melon-arts]

Hey guys! I just updated my commissions link, since I had apparently copied it wrong and also changed the url! It's now in my description, and correctly.

Here's a real breif overview of my rates, check out my description for more specific details!

Doodles and Sketches- $2

Cleaned Lineart- $5

Flat color- $20

Ref Sheets- $30

Check my blog here for examples!