Bless

[blessedxy]

Discipline, discipline, discipline

[blessedxy]

Vent?

God I've had the worst binge urges ever today. I only ate 100 cals above the daily limit because I stopped myself but still, the urge is massive. Most of my cals were protein bars and healthy shit so it's not bad, but lord. I feel like journaling it here will make me feel more in control

[bowsmith]

bestie sleepovers but it’s us buying low cal snacks and watching triggering movies

[blessedxy]

Not checking my weight everyday fixed my motivation problems, I really recommend it

[contrastinglyunbeknownst]

eds are weird cuz i want people to know i have an ed but i don’t want them to know. like i want to get on with it in peace but i want to know they’re concerned for me. i want the help but i don’t at the same time. i want to feel like im skinny enough to say i have an ed without it being called “disordered eating” instead. i think being skinny would solve all of my problems

[blessedxy]

Coffee, a cig and looking at th1nspo on Tumblr <3

[blessedxy]

I saw the skinniest person with the saddest eyes today in a store and I really really wanted to tell her she's not alone and we're in this shit together

[blessedxy]

Why the fuck is do my scales always break 💔

[blessedxy]

The 'recovery bugs' are trying to get into my head again. They do that every time I'm doing well and not binging

[blessedxy]

I want to feel sick, it's the only thing that makes me feel like I'm doing something right

[blessedxy]

God I really need to start leaving the house more

[blessedxy]

The stick (multi day fasts) and the carrot (0 sugar ice tea)

[blessedxy]

I got really mad at myself for eating more than normally today, so I'm starting a 24+ hour fast

I have to be more consequential

[bebe774]

didn’t have a hot girl summer but i WILL be having a skinny girl fall/winter and i’m making sure of it

[blessedxy]

I love love LOVE veggies. I recommend getting on the red pepper grind

[blessedxy]

I miss wearing skirts and not feeling shit about my legs

[blessedxy]

Disordered, but not in a 'everyday 6 hour workout, 20k steps' kind of way. More of a 'if I sleep, I don't have to eat' type of thing