𝐁𝐋𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐁𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇𝐓. a private and highly selective/mutuals only roleplay blog for varus, the arrow of retribution from riot game's league of legends. largely headcanon based and at times, canon divergent. nsfw material highly present. minors and those under 21 please dni ! penned by goose. 29. she/they.
𝐀𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐒: @deathsmark
𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐃. / 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒. / 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒.
I. this blog is private and selective, as well as mutuals only. i curate my own space and like to keep my dash semi-orderly. if i follow you, it means i'd like to interact. in the same vein - this blog is multiverse, multiship, au, crossover, oc, and duplicate friendly. i tend to not do exclusives, but i will do mains, all of which will be listed here.
II. on the subject of activity - mine can be sporadic at times, with rp being a hobby and multiple blogs on top of this one. if i don't like a post you've tagged me in within around two days time, please feel free to send me a poke about it. i also kindly request when sending in ask memes, send no more than two - otherwise i tend to get overwhelmed.
i am a wordy writer for serious threads, usually about 3 + paragraphs in length. i do also format my posts - triple spaced, small font, occasionally with colors. i neither expect formatting nor entirely matched length in replies.
III. i absolutely adore shipping. not only is it an excellent character development tool, but it's a great way to familiarize yourself with other aspects of your muse. however, given the nature of varus's character and his lore, romantic shipping is not the primary focus of this blog. additionally, the nature of those ships will likely be toxic in some way shape or form.
if you are still, for some reason, interested in shipping with varus - i seek chemistry first and foremost, and a bit of repertoire with the mun as well. that being side - feel free to message me about it! i'm probably interested too.
IV. please note, given varus's lore and the state of darkin canon, this portrayal and contents of this blog may be listed as dark and heavy on the nsfw side. nsfw includes, but is not limited to: smut, violence, gore, psychological horror, trauma, drug usage, etc. i do not shy away from darker thematics but all triggering content will be tagged and placed under a read more.
as such, i ask that if you are under the age of 21 that you do not follow/interact with me. if you follow me and your blog does not list your age, or lists you as under 21, i will likely soft block you. this is for my own comfort. no exceptions.
other standard dni's apply. do not interact if you, as a mun, are into pro-shipping, incest, noncon, underage, or are transphobic, homophobic, biphobic, ableist - etc. additionally, dni if you are friends with frosty ( windwandered, etc). callouts are listed here, and here.
V. goose / 29 / she + they / cst. i play on both na and oceanic but i'm bad no matter what my ping is. mutuals feel free to add me!
tried to do nsfw headcanon dash game thing for va.rus and then i realized he just. Simply Does Not Care. not a single fuck is to be given and the act of sex is an itch prescribed by his semi-mortal vessel and not one he's been familiar with since ascension and the darkin wars, probably.
it's more an act of necessity and domination than the comprehension of actual desire for him.
@deathsmark: ∗ 4o﹕ sender traces one of receiver’s [ scars / bruises ] . now stab.
𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐑𝐈𝐃𝐆𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 is one he walks with steady footfalls, body and mind forever drifting close to the edge. his psyche, set behind those unearthly eyes, was fractured at the worst of times, and ruthless and callous at the best. it's unsurprising that he remembers naught of the touches upon his own flesh that were anything but cruelty, anything but war and torture and being remade over and over and over again until barely the essence of him remained sealed within a bow. even if valmar and kai both unwittingly feed him imagery of acts and things he knows from a long lost human life, or even a life amongst the god-warriors, these are things that the cruel, shriveled vestiges of his heart and mind cannot process.
it has always been this way.
his hair is down, crown and scarf removed and set aside in favor of the silken fall of snow white tresses, drifting well past his waist and to where humanoid flesh tinted dark and transitioned to carapace. back to zed ( an unwise choice to begin with ), the darkin pays him no mind - clearly not viewing the shadow master as a threat any longer ( and it's up for debate if he ever really did ). he shifts in his spot, hair fluttering enough to reveal the jagged mark that ran down his back - three clawed lines - ones he barely knew existed. and then, in such a terribly human fashion, zed surprises him.
like a started predator, varus's entire body goes taught as his bowstring as calloused fingerpads trace those scars in a way that is so soft, so unintentionally tender -
it disgusts him.
the darkin snarls audibly, spinning on a clawed foot so fast it'd be difficult for a human of not-zed's caliber to perceive. his hand snaps forward , clawed digits grasping the offending fingertips in a a vice, and the other palm pressed flush to zed's chest, lethal talons digging, digging, digging - as he bares his teeth where he stand. and yet, a shiver wracks varus's frame - gestalt form so utterly perplexed by a touch born not of violence, his nerves are still processing what had occurred.
❝ you forget yourself. ❞
he hisses the words out like a curse, head bowed so close that the end of those snowy locks trail over zed's shoulder and brush against his neck with near familiar intimacy. nostrils flare, as if scenting something, and a bit of his skittishness quells, if only because stabbing zed on the spot would sully the long con he'd been playing.
❝ if it's a story you seek, i have no memory of those times. ❞ lie or truth, truth or lie? in which life time had he been marred? who had done it? and had it hurt? to leave a mark on a darkin - impossibly so.
starters / memes taken from the blog vindictive-suggestion . feel free to change pronouns & nouns as necessary .
“ wash your mouth out with holy water ”
“ maybe you can pretend to be holy ”
“ i’m terrified of becoming the monster i sought to destroy ”
“ the voices in my head tell me to run ”
“ they tell me i don’t belong ”
“ become the monster they expect you to be ”
“ when was the last time anyone came to rescue you ”
“ will they sing my hymns long after i’m gone ”
“ regicide has always had such a nice ring to it ”
“ everyone dies in the end ”
“ do you feel closer to god yet ”
“ meet every sunrise with a middle finger salute ”
“ life’s too short to give a fuck ”
“ if my life isn’t constantly at stake, then what’s the point ”
“ who said i’m going to die ”
“ strength has nothing to do with fearlessness ”
“ do not die quietly ”
“ the wolf in you demands blood ”
“ i’ve learned to bare my teeth and bite back ”
“ the gods have abandoned you ”
“ i have no story ”
“ you deserve no softness ”
“ i regret and mourn but is that not enough ”
“ do you regret what you did to get here ”
“ the burning in your chest demands blood ”
“ will she save you too ”
“ does the rain ever stop ”
“ you fucking deserve this ”
“ your skin tastes sweet and your blood is wine ”
“ i condemn you to death ”
“ i cast my heart out of bronze ”
“ can you tell i did this for you ”
“ I’ll save you ”
“ what makes you run so far away from home ”
“ spell your name with bonfires and riots ”
“ history will remember you ”
“ maybe you can reconsider that statement ”
“ i’m only mortal, no matter how invincible i try to seem ”
“ i wasn’t built to last under the weight of the sky ”
“ i’m not feeling very divine tonight ”
“ take them down with you if you have to ”
“ if we must burn , we can burn together ”
“ sometimes it’s okay to stop ”
“ i’m not meant for anything less than perfection ”
“ if you are meant to go to hell , then take the throne ”
“ sometimes you won’t get a second chance ”
“ revolution is built on blood ”
𝟏𝟎𝟎 𝑵𝑶𝑵𝑽𝑬𝑹𝑩𝑨𝑳 𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺 . ( a collection of 100 nonverbal action prompts . mature and potentially triggering themes are present . add “ + reverse ” to swap assigned roles . )
∗ o1﹕ sender tucks hair out of receiver’s face .
∗ o2﹕ sender offers receiver a bite from their fork .
∗ o3﹕ sender places their feet / legs in receiver's lap .
∗ o4﹕ sender offers receiver an earbud to share their music .
∗ o5﹕ sender comforts receiver in the aftermath of a nightmare .
∗ o6﹕ sender gives receiver company in the hospital .
∗ o7﹕ sender wraps their arms around a hysterical receiver to calm them .
∗ o8﹕ sender shows up at receiver’s home late at night .
∗ o9﹕ sender falls asleep leaning against receiver .
∗ 1o﹕ sender wields a [ gun / knife ] at receiver .
∗ 11﹕ sender runs their fingers through receiver’s hair .
∗ 12﹕ sender invites receiver to dance .
∗ 13﹕ sender takes a [ picture / video ] of receiver .
∗ 14﹕ sender places their head in receiver’s lap .
∗ 15﹕ sender and receiver make eye contact across a busy room .
∗ 16﹕ sender pushes receiver against a wall to kiss them .
∗ 17﹕ sender and receiver cook together .
∗ 18﹕ sender comes to receiver after being injured .
∗ 19﹕ sender sits in receiver’s lap .
∗ 2o﹕ sender lifts receiver's chin , invoking eye contact .
∗ 21﹕ sender overtakes receiver in combat .
∗ 22﹕ sender finds receiver [ injured / bloodied ] .
∗ 23﹕ sender straightens an article of receiver’s clothes .
∗ 24﹕ sender crawls into bed with receiver .
∗ 25﹕ sender rolls their eyes at receiver .
∗ 26﹕ sender lights receiver’s [ cigarette / joint ] .
∗ 27﹕ sender is caught wearing receiver's clothes .
∗ 28﹕ sender strikes receiver with a pillow .
∗ 29﹕ sender writes a note on receiver’s skin : [ note ] .
∗ 3o﹕ sender wraps a blanket around receiver’s shoulders .
∗ 31﹕ sender runs and jumps into receiver’s arms .
∗ 32﹕ sender shoves receiver out of anger .
∗ 33﹕ sender hovers over receiver’s shoulder as they complete a task .
∗ 34﹕ sender is found by receiver somewhere they shouldn’t be .
∗ 35﹕ sender curls up against receiver in their sleep .
∗ 36﹕ sender is found drunk by receiver .
∗ 37﹕ sender throws an item of sentiment bitterly at receiver .
∗ 38﹕ sender joins receiver in the shower .
∗ 39﹕ sender is caught following receiver .
∗ 4o﹕ sender traces one of receiver’s [ scars / bruises ] .
∗ 41﹕ sender twines their fingers with receiver’s .
∗ 42﹕ sender barges into receiver’s home unannounced .
∗ 43﹕ sender kicks receiver’s shin beneath a table .
∗ 44﹕ sender aggressively shoves past receiver .
∗ 45﹕ sender kisses receiver’s [ forehead / cheek ] .
∗ 46﹕ sender pulls receiver out of harm’s way .
∗ 47﹕ sender is found sobbing by receiver .
∗ 48﹕ sender locks receiver out of their room .
∗ 49﹕ sender brings receiver [ coffee / tea ] in the morning .
∗ 5o﹕ sender rests their forehead against receiver’s .
∗ 51﹕ sender plays a song for receiver that reminds them of them : [ song ] .
∗ 52﹕ sender takes a [ punch / stab / bullet ] meant for receiver .
∗ 53﹕ sender buys receiver a drink at a bar .
∗ 54﹕ sender needs receiver’s help getting in the bath .
∗ 55﹕ sender and receiver cross paths in the kitchen late at night .
∗ 56﹕ sender twists receiver’s arm behind their back .
∗ 57﹕ sender winks at receiver .
∗ 58﹕ sender is found collapsed by receiver .
∗ 59﹕ sender prevents an injured receiver from getting up .
∗ 6o﹕ sender claps a hand over receiver’s mouth to silence them .
∗ 61﹕ sender cages receiver against a [ wall / the floor ] with their arms .
∗ 62﹕ sender storms away from receiver during an argument .
∗ 63﹕ sender is found by receiver sleeping in receiver’s bed .
∗ 64﹕ sender [ applies / touches up ] receiver’s makeup .
∗ 65﹕ sender throws receiver into a wall during combat .
∗ 66﹕ sender dances sensually with receiver .
∗ 67﹕ sender strikes receiver across the face .
∗ 68﹕ sender places their hand on receiver’s leg while driving .
∗ 69﹕ sender pulls a chair out from under receiver .
∗ 7o﹕ sender catches receiver’s wrist when they turn to leave .
∗ 71﹕ sender leaves an intimate mark on receiver .
∗ 72﹕ sender beats receiver in a video game .
∗ 73﹕ sender and receiver stand in stunned silence after a fight .
∗ 74﹕ sender cares for receiver while they’re sick .
∗ 75﹕ sender and receiver go on a hike .
∗ 76﹕ sender is caught snooping in receiver’s things .
∗ 77﹕ sender and receiver cuddle while watching television .
∗ 78﹕ sender throws something aggressively at receiver .
∗ 79﹕ sender creeps up behind receiver to scare them .
∗ 8o﹕ sender and receiver go shopping together .
∗ 81﹕ sender helps receiver [ dye / style ] their hair .
∗ 82﹕ sender draws receiver into a kiss by the back of their neck .
∗ 83﹕ sender is discovered having a panic attack by receiver .
∗ 84﹕ sender accidentally injures receiver during sparring .
∗ 85﹕ sender grabs receiver roughly by the hair .
∗ 86﹕ sender brings receiver to their knees during combat .
∗ 87﹕ sender shows receiver evidence of a lie they told .
∗ 88﹕ sender winks [ seductively / mockingly ] at receiver .
∗ 89﹕ sender yells at receiver to put their hands in the air .
∗ 9o﹕ sender helps receiver patch up a wound .
∗ 91﹕ sender holds receiver as they cry .
∗ 92﹕ sender silently and angrily points receiver towards the door .
∗ 93﹕ sender gestures for receiver to sit down .
∗ 94﹕ sender pulls receiver into their lap .
∗ 95﹕ sender cradles receiver’s face .
∗ 96﹕ sender tackles receiver out of the way of danger .
∗ 97﹕ sender has hidden an injury from receiver , and receiver finds out .
∗ 98﹕ sender confronts receiver about their unhealthy behavior .
∗ 99﹕ sender proposes to receiver .
∗ 1oo﹕ sender has just died , receiver finds out .
soooo excited for the va.rus voice line updates coming with the new darkin champ after mi.lio. i simply physically cannot breathe WE HAVE WAITED SO LONG FOR THIS FINALLY LET HIM INTERACT WITH AA.TROX AND RH.AAST