vin

pre med student documenting his life. anatomy & cell biology | biomedical engineering 2007 | INTJ

[blitherdooble]

intro.

welcome to my little blog. here I document my daily life and anything interesting. reason? because i am lonely and need motivation.

about me:

vin (he/him). born in 2007.

first year, BSc in anatomy & cell biology. minor in biomedical engineering.

pre med, studying to become a cardiac surgeon.

academic interests: nanotechnology, medical technology, synthetic biology, biomedical engineering, tissue engineering, biomaterials

hobbies: writing, badminton, oil painting, gaming (wanted hobbies: motorcycling, cello, archery, fencing)

languages: english, mandarin chinese, A2/B1 french. want to learn italian and spanish.

goals: become someone i will never regret, give my parents a comfortable life, make a personal impact in someone's life.

[blitherdooble]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Alhaitham/Kaveh (Genshin Impact) Characters: Alhaitham (Genshin Impact), Kaveh (Genshin Impact), Cyno (Genshin Impact), Tighnari (Genshin Impact) Additional Tags: Unrequited Love, Not Actually Unrequited Love, Idiots in Love, Genius Invokation TCG (Genshin Impact), Old Married Couple, Autism, Autism Spectrum, Autistic Alhaitham (Genshin Impact), Kaveh falls first but Alhaitham falls harder, Look at these simps, Painting, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Fluff and Humor, Overstimulation, Sensory Overload, First Kiss, First Love, Feelings Realization, Soft Alhaitham (Genshin Impact), Lonely Alhaitham (Genshin Impact), Protective Kaveh (Genshin Impact), Kaveh is a good boyfriend, Background Relationships, Minor Cyno/Tighnari (Genshin Impact), Yes I'm an Alhaitham kinnie, Written Before Kaveh Release (Genshin Impact), I Love Kaveh (Genshin Impact), Holding Hands, I want to hold hands with Kaveh, Not Beta Read- We Die Like my Hope for C6 Kaveh, Neurodivergent Alhaitham (Genshin Impact), Pining Alhaitham (Genshin Impact), Alhaitham Needs a Hug (Genshin Impact), Alhaitham is Bad at Feelings (Genshin Impact), Alhaitham in Love (Genshin Impact), Kaveh is a Mess (Genshin Impact), Oblivious Kaveh (Genshin Impact), Soft Kaveh (Genshin Impact), Kaveh is Bad at Feelings (Genshin Impact), Other Additional Tags to Be Added Summary:

Kaveh brought up Al-Haitham’s hand and tentatively intertwined their fingers. The drying paint, Kaveh’s blue and Al-Haitham’s yellow, mixed into a green that flaked off as Kaveh stroked Al-Haitham’s hand. Al-Haitham’s breath hitched, seeing their hands laced together, eyes wide and wet, unwilling and afraid to break the silence. Al-Haitham had never before felt so vulnerable, but with Kaveh, he can try.

In which: Kaveh convinces Al-Haitham to paint with him, some revelations come to light and they finally get together. Kaveh takes good care of Al-Haitham when he's at his most vulnerable.

[blitherdooble]

I AM CRASHING OUT GIVE ME A BREAK PLEASEEEE

[incilerden]

[shakespearesdaughters]

“So often, a visit to a bookshop has cheered me, and reminded me that there are good things in the world.”

― Vincent van Gogh

[shakespearesdaughters]

[blitherdooble]

250217/26

30-39/100 days of productivity

song of the week: b2b-charli xcx

it's been over a week since i last posted. i have been so stressed for my calculus midterm. i did over 250 integrals in five days, staying up until 4 am every day or not sleeping at all. my physics midterm got pushed to after the break so now i have three midterms back to back.

just had my calculus midterm last night and it honestly did not go well. this past week leading up to and after my exam definitely took a toll on me mentally, physically, and emotionally which undoubtedly affected my exam. but i'm going to try and stay motivated for my other classes and get a better mark on the calculus final.

i have so many lab reports and proposals to write now but at least reading week is next week and i'll be going home to see the sun.

pictures:

walking home after my midterm

6 am after studying all night

integrals on the classroom blackboard at 3 am (the janitor forgot to lock the door)

practice questions an hour before my midterm with friends

[rherlotshadow]

The moment of enchantment: a rainbow in the valley beneath us

[respectissexy]

One thing that has made me a much more well-adjusted person is a clip I once saw of Hank Green saying that anyone can be in amazing shape as long as being in amazing shape is one of their top three priorities.

(This is obviously a generalization that isn't true for everyone. But it is true for most people and I'm proceeding from there.)

This "top three priorities" framing has genuinely reduced my tendency toward jealousy and self-comparison a lot. Now when I feel envious of someone’s spotless, aesthetic home, I think to myself, “Having a spotless, aesthetic home is probably one of their top three priorities. It’s definitely not one of mine, so I shouldn’t expect my home to look like that.”

Or when I see an influencer with a body that takes a ton of work to maintain: “Maintaining that body is obviously one of her top three priorities, because it’s her livelihood. My livelihood is my brain, so I’m never going to prioritize my body like that.”

It also helps me to identify areas that I actually DO want to prioritize more. I realized in recent years that my envy for my friends who prioritized writing more than I did was NOT going away, so I started to prioritize writing more. (Not top three, but higher priority than it has been in the past.)

[blitherdooble]

250213/16

26-29/100 days of productivity

song of the day: hypnotized- minh

i might be cheating by summarizing multiple days but i really don't have the motivation to post every day.

spent the weekend studying for my physics midterm. went to the bar and a concert over the weekend which i enjoyed immensely. also viewed an apartment which i might sign soon: i really liked it (huge modern open kitchen, washing and drying machine, quiet... what more can one ask for).

my school has called a snow day for tomorrow so now my both physics midterm and chemistry lab have been pushed to next week... same week as my calculus midterm. just amazing. and just after my biology lab last week got pushed as well.

i am currently feeling very unmotivated, evident by how i have not been posting. but i know that i have to study or my calculus mark will be worse than last semester's so tomorrow i will force myself to walk through the blizzard to study at a cafe. i am feeling quite confident about physics however i still have not fully formatted my crib sheet. so i will do that during my study breaks tomorrow.

slight vent: a lot of my classes have been getting cancelled recently and it's really frustrating because i studied for these midterms (i was even doing physics at the bars) and now my entire study plan has been thrown out the window. also online classes and meetings are just so draining. it's really miserable to be constantly freezing then trek through a meter of snow in the rare cases when i get out of the house. i can't wait for summer. my mood is only boosted by the big glass of red wine i had last night and the prospect of hot matcha tomorrow.

images: very out of tune piano in the physics building, however still beautiful. a bagel cafe study session with a friend (im going there again tomorrow). roses i bought myself on valentines. unfortunate car.

[leoaries]

not to be dramatic but! my bedroom windows!

[leoaries]

october update

[leoaries]

forgot about november but here's a december update

[leoaries]

february update finally got string lights but not enough also this plant is slowly taking over my life

[soft-lovely]

moments

[explodikid]

traveling across all of time and space with your eldritch horror boyfriend

[blitherdooble]

250212

25/100 days of productivity

slow day today. finished my biology assignment and started working on a piece for an art competition. did a chemistry quiz and went to see an apartment. did some calculus.

[blitherdooble]

250210

24/100 days of productivity

song of the day: good kid- kendrick lamar

had a very stressful lab today and got less work done then i would've liked.

academic: worked on my biology assignment and did some calculus review. worked on my lab report.

tomorrow: chemistry quiz, finish biology assignment, chemistry notes.

[ofthe1nterior]

Views from my desk at university.

[cyber-cynthia]