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It's not like i don't love you I just hate myself more I'm changing every moment And it's getting even worse I can point you exactly where it hurts Cause i can feel the stains In the black drain where my heart once was. I don't need you to love me I need you to hurt me I need everyone to hurt me. So that i can hurt me for one last time. The angels couldn't save me so how can i? I can't be who i am I hate who i am I hate who i become when i hide who i am.

Hoping that i kill myself next time i go off the grid Thinking about all the cruel things i did Thinking about happy things that just make me cry Play me sad songs And tell me I don't relate That it's okay and I'm not sick I'll let you grow even if it means you outgrowing me

My bones hurt as i lay down in this coffin i call a bed. Reminding me how long it has been since I've eaten a single peice of bread Now I'm uncovering layers of skin i never knew existed untill now Hand is the lamb, fingers are the slaughter with a blade cutting through an anxious laughter. no ones gonna hold you with your arms cut open No one wants the stains of your black blood On their crisp white shirt.