The Purrminator

Cat lady,gamer,addicted to internet,socially awkward. Wannabe artist because I'm too lazy to do shit.Tumblin' every now and then. Follow me...maybe?

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You ever mask so hard you can't remember who you really are or are you normal

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>be me

>play genshin, get burnout

>get alt account

> get burnout while I get burnout I guess

>get kazuha on less than 30 pity

>proceed to stop playing

>Fontaine drops, let's check alt account and get free catgirl

> do one pull, what could happen

>gets yelan

>this account is cursed

now I just gotta convince my s.o. to play T~T

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cursed

CURSED I TELL YOU

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>be me

>play genshin, get burnout

>get alt account

> get burnout while I get burnout I guess

>get kazuha on less than 30 pity

>proceed to stop playing

>Fontaine drops, let's check alt account and get free catgirl

> do one pull, what could happen

>gets yelan

>this account is cursed

now I just gotta convince my s.o. to play T~T

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They baited us with Keqing and then gave us Kirara so Linette can truly shine >~<

Diona doesn't count bc she's not full size

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Manifesting Kazuha for all Kazuha wanters out there >///<

Lost 50/50 to tighnari, but apparently single pulls were lucky for me and I did get kazuha after a mere 3 wishes, thank the rng gods

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you guys also get irritated by people chewing or are you normal

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Everywhere I look, I see your name...I cannot escape you.

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Do ever just do something, like send a heartfelt text to someone, and then proceed to completely forget about it???? Like, I forgot what I wrote? I forgot that I even sent that? Am I losing my mind?

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I wanna reach out...I wanna pour out my feelings. A part of me misses you terribly. But you are happier now, and although it hurts that I'm not the one making you happy...I feel somehow bittersweet. All I ever wanted was for you to be happy...whether or not I'm in your life. I wish I was more in your life though. As a friend. But nothing is ever uncomplicated.

Love is a big word and people say I was too quick to say it....but it's what I felt...what I feel. And in this horrid mess, though almost nothing brings me joy anymore...the memory of you still puts a smile on my face, albeit tears follow right after.

I don't want you to be just a memory... but I'm afraid that I might not even be a memory in your mind and somehow that hurts even worse.

All hurt aside...I don't regret you. I don't regret my feelings. Just the circumstances.

Maybe I can find you in another life...

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I know it's trash can, but this trash can't

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I'm redirecting my feelings into other activities, but the moment I'm left alone with my own thoughts, a million what ifs echo in my head.

You were never mine, but I wish you were...

I wish you were.

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We were never together but it feels like we broke up.

Now I'm left with shards of a broken heart and I every time I pick them up, I only get cut deeper.

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What doesn't kill you makes you stronger...but I'm tired of being strong.

I feel like I'm a pathethic shadow of what I used to be, so just get down to it and let me vanish forever...

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You never really realise how much you love someone until they're with someone else...and it's so bittersweet cuz you are happy for them and want them to be loved...but at the same time your heart aches so bad.

And maybe for some, staying friends is only hurting more... but for me, it hurts less than losing them forever.

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my 2 moods:

fuck yeah i’m a goddess 

i’m a worthless human being and everyone will leave me

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[lukesunbornn]

having online friends is just “i made food does anyone want some” “i’m gonna fight ur dad” “remember that time you made a typo a year ago that we Still remind you of daily” “i know your deepest trauma but not your last name” “here are the random plants i associate you with” “good morning at 9pm” “goodnight at 7am” “my dog says hi” “LMAO NERD. keep talking about obscure anime tho i’m interested” “hey i know you’re asleep right now but this meme made me think of you” “if we were irls we’d Totally be dating by now” “one day when we live together….” “dude i bet i can jump higher than you let’s have a contest Right Now” “i don’t know what this weird school rivalry you have is but i support you!!!!!!” “getting in the car Right Now to give you a hug” “if i eat lunch while you eat dinner it’s basically like we’re eating together” “i am holding your hand as we speak” “i am kissing you on the forehead right now” “here let me braid your hair for you” “i love you” “i love you” “i love you”

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also calling them cute and being stuck in an endless loop of "no u", staying up late just to chat with them cuz y'all in different timezones, having the biggest shit eating grin when you send each other the exact same meme, "lmao twins" every time you think or do the exact same thing, roasting the shit out of each other, acting completely natural with each other even when you're a total weirdo, but it's fine because so are they, telling them the thing they need to hear the most even when they didn't know they needed it and truthfully making each other's day brighter just by saying hi...

online friendships are still friendships, sometimes more meaningful than irl ones