fresh start
In the midst of the chaos i found myself struggling to survive; not just financially but mentally. I have been battling anxiety and depression for the past 4 years since my dad’s passing. Day to day, i need to wake up, prepare 3 cups of coffee, and make breakfast for 4. Coping in this battle of sanity was never easy, but luckily I get by just fine without medications and just being with myself. And then everything starts to fall down one after the other. When I was left without a choice but to shut the remaining source of income that i have since covid happened. I broke down and never knew how to start a new. I have to sell one of our property and vehicle. I never imagined that I have to go through this hell. But i have no choice but to move forward and have a fresh start, with my husband, mom, and sister. I need to get by every single day, pay our business’ debt, selling cooked meals on line, looking for a full time job, taking in small VA work, and the list goes on. I’m tired, my body aches, my head aches, my whole being is in pain. I have to ignore everything and keep myself sane.
I celebrate small wins to help me see the lighter side of everything. I landed on a full-time day job in an advertising agency, we’re making sales little by little with our small start up business, debts are being settled little by little and in a one at a time pace, and most specially I am still okay and my sanity is still intact.
Hitting the restart button is never a bad idea, you just need to be brave. And I know that i will get to where I want to be in time; this is just one part of the process, I just need to be patient and still.