‘ 炎 ’ - 𝑭𝑳𝑨𝑴𝑬𝑺 — , @ryusxnka ♡ " with a roar, it's crumbling down ; our one & only, irreplaceable world ” . . . !
さようなら ありがとう 声の限り
悲しみよりもっと大事なこと
去りゆく背中に伝えたくて
温もりと痛みに間に合うように
some moments are not easy to neglect ; plenty of them even harder to pardon. ( & honestly : it no longer matters how many springs pass by … for these wounds will perpetually be evident for the world to set their scorching eyes upon. ) both in the centre front & back of the lieutenant's chest : the crimson - bloomed design of naivety - born battle scars. the same scars that will hardly ever truly be forgotten. or forgiven, even. whether it's by herself or the tenth's captain, — who she so peacefully & benevolently leans the crown of her chocolate brown - coloured locks on —, the universe beyond life has yet to comprehend.
in this blighted society : the lines between life & death are very slim & blurry at times. out of the plentiful record of wrongdoings in a place such as the seireitei : to be driven by youthful aspirations in regards to utter adoration & harmonious union, is set amidst the higher - ranked possibilities. it does not matter if you yearn to trail a path that will guide you to a nonviolent end ; it does not matter if you keep your zanpakutō in its' sheath & only draw it when the moment demands so ... for the world of the dead is unforgiving. ruthless. cold ... — but not as cold as the shoulder Hinamori finds herself resting against. it is, assuredly, not as cold as the peaceful breathing from the boy's lungs that brings down her own concerns & tones down the girl's racing heart under this summer night. despite the frost & violence in his veins : he has always been nothing but warm &compassionate. always been there to hold her hand with his. cradle her to his chest even as she bled ; every ruby drop of her life, clinging to her skin &corrupting all the way from there to her shitagi & kosode ... until it reached his haori ... until it tainted his trembling hands & commanded him to scream : the despair of every drop that slipped from her silhouette, just as intense as his song. & even when she could do nothing but wait : she cried to the blue heavens, pleading for clemency & raising her burning heart to hope that gods mightier than themselves would someday recognise her tears.
— for there are flames in Hinamori's heart that have yet to ignite.
& there is no way that she will let every dream &promise inside her heart depart along with the frail body that she is assumed to abandon on the battlefield. if her soul will carry on & find solace or fright in a realm wholly unknown to shinigami ... that is something they have yet to discover. ( just for today : they bask in the tranquillity before the storm. just for today : they get to rest & vow each other to return. )
for now, however, the fifth's lieutenant can only sense as her heart soothes & her eyes close ; sleep soon laving over & drawing her in close enough to lean against Tōshirō's side as flames of what a peaceful future at his side can be, fall over her like a blessing.
僕たちは燃えさかる 旅の途中で出会い
手をとり そして離した未来のために
夢がひとつ叶う度 僕は 君は舞うから
強くなりたいと願い泣いた
決意の花向けに
it's only when her resting place, still at the top of her childhood friend's rigid shoulder, begins to shake : that Hinamori stirs from her slumber. how long has it been ? why does it sound like — ?
despite attempting to prevail as still & silent as possible ( as to not disturb her friend out of his brittleness significance or make him feel ashamed about it ), there are so many things to be done. she is here. with him. & she holds him as no liability nor debt. after all : time & time again ... it's been no one else but Tōshirō. he's been the reason ( asides from the mandatory visits to their granny, of course ) why she kept running homewards during her first years in the academy. why she still got to feel the calming breeze that flutters by their skin & why does her heartbeat begins to quicken as soon as she hears his hushed crying. ' should I talk to him ? should I ask what's troubling him ? it's so rare to hear him cry ... I wonder if something happened. is he alright ? ' questions that never slip past her thin, rosy lips; & thus : will forever remain unanswered. not that she cares much about it, anyway ... if there is something that the captain wishes to approach : she knows he will. sooner or later ... he always does. &he never fails.
therefore, instead of being overseen by sensations of absolute concern & fright ; or moving through actions that will unmistakably expose her as she acknowledges his withheld tears : her right palm moves from the top of her lap until it touches his. almost instantly : the touch makes a shiver run down the lieutenant's spine — pale skin cold &stone - like against hers ; something that's so familiar yet foreign all the same. & still : the lieutenant can't bring herself to care about it.
soon after : her petite frame leans further against his, her lids still closed as means to disguise the evidence that she's awake enough to listen. & then, her fingers twine with his : the gesture as effortless & innocent as breathing ; so much so that it only takes a second. they have known each other for long enough for the brunette to know that he will not let her see him weep. his pride still too broad & his respect for her too grand to permit such a thing to happen. it makes her smile — just a little bit. & a sigh escapes from deep within her core as she wishes that her presence will do the trick &soothe him just as much as he does to her.
let me save you while I can.
let me wipe your tears away.
let me rest my head on you a while longer.
let me stay by your side for as long as we live.
I don't want this moment to end.
the stars will light up their way & set their souls ablaze from now on. whatever awaits the morrow : is still way out of reach. & if you stop to look up to the sky for even just a second : ( besides seeing Hirako Shinji's lieutenant as she clings to her fair-headed boy if ordering for dear life ), you will also see that the moon has never been as beautiful as it is tonight.
手を伸ばし 抱き止めた 激しい光の束
輝いて 消えてった 未来のために
託された幸せと 約束を超えていく
振り返らずに進むから
前だけ向いて叫ぶから
心に炎(ほむら) をともして
遠い未来まで
