[bloomingbeyond50]

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[bloomingbeyond50]

Just Here....

🌹That pretty much sums it up! Today was ok mostly. I've been a little agitated today and don't know why. I'm ok though. I'm just still tired I think.

🌹I had my call with my daughter today. She seemed to be in a good mood but had a little bit of an attitude like teens do. Didn't seem major. Later I get a call that she is outside hitting a tree with her hands. She is mad about being bored and her summer wasn't fun and all that even though she went to Florida to the beach! She has BPD so there is a whole lot more history before this. She has seemed better before today at least. So after that the stress increased. I'm just trying to pray about it. You will learn more about our family dynamics later at some point.

🌹We got paid today so after that I did our Walmart order. (Don't have a car). It's for our groceries and stuff. Paid the bills first.

🌹So I've just been a little edgy feeling today but maybe tomorrow will be better. I'm praying for my little girl a little extra lately. Everything we know to do is being done so I pray.

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Crazy Neighbor!....

🌹Well my day is starting off with a bang! I got up around 10am and let my dogs out. The crazy man that lives behind me decided to harass my dogs for the second time so I did what I promised and called the po po! I'm not playing! Only one dog is big and never has bitten anyone but I am not sure she wouldn't with someone she doesn't know acting like that. It makes it hard for me to get them back in also so he can keep making it hard on himself and I will keep doing what I do! The night before last he shot a gun! My neighbor verified it was him! He would s$#t his pants if I fired one too!🤣 I will however be nice and not let them out after 10 or 11pm. I put out a pad at night anyway.

🌹So I also did a thing! Yes I know what you are thinking but hey it works! 😂 The mount broke but it is water proof! Now it can actually hear him barking at my dogs and it's a more clear view! I can zoom in before I let them out to possibly see if his a$$ is outside or not.

🌹Not much in my feelings at the moment but I may post more tonight. I'm just tired!

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Restless..

🌹I really wish I could sleep! I have so much on my mind and so many feelings. Sometimes I don't know how to turn it all off. Life has been throwing a lot of stuff at me since September especially and not to mention my breakup with J over a year ago. Yeah I am over it but it's still there. It lasted almost a decade. It's almost pay day and we came up low on food this time. There is food there but nothing I want at all. I'm just a little miserable at the moment but tomorrow it will be better.

🌹I have been through so much. When I am not so sleepy I will write a summary as short as possible.

🌹Right now I am dealing with some self esteem problems over being on disability. It could be worse but it kind of sucks. It makes me feel like I'm not good enough for my kids. Again, I will go into more detail later. I'm just totally exhausted!

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[bloomingbeyond50]

Introduction

🌹So... let's see if I can stick to this! I don't know where to start so I guess I will tell you a little about myself. I was born and raised in April in the state of Georgia, USA. I am a Christian and in my early 50's. I am a single mother of a 22 year old son and a 13 year old daughter. I love plants, diamond painting and music. Especially rock but most everything. I am currently growing the wisdom highlights out! I will keep it simple for now but that's a little information to get things started.

🌹I have been through a lot in my life and the past almost 14 years have been very challenging to say the least although my whole life has been a battle. Better than some and worse than others.

🌹I want the rest of my life to be different. I want it to be wiser, happier and as peaceful as possible. I want to find new love for myself. I want to grow emotionally and spiritually. I want to look at life differently and just be the best that I can be for myself and my children.

🌹I will let this be it for now and I hope you will follow my journey as you learn more about me and my life. I just feel the need to journal for my well-being so why not do it this way! I am also blogging this for my children to have someday so maybe they can understand their mother more fully. It is 4:11am est so that will be it for now. Yes you will learn I am a night owl! ❤️Love and peace