A Wandering Sunflower

Choi Minki. 18. Sanya. Flower Shop Owner. _______________________ "Is this a dream, if it is, please wake me up before I let myself fall into this fantasy." _______________________ Partner: Simon Park (since 08/25/13) ______________________ For Roleplay function only.

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release date • rabin, nc-17, 1567 words

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❖ (voicemail)

[/being in a foreign city at Christmas time was really weird for the florist, spending the Yuletide season in Inju was a really weird feeling, and what made him more sad was that he was alone, so he decided to call Simon, yet he never picked up, just like before, it was agonizing and everything, but he hasn’t had communication with his lover for over a month already, it was killing him, deciding to just leave a message like before, he held the mouth piece close to his mouth and start to speak] 

Do you still remember my voice? I don’t know what happened to us, but I miss you, a lot. i want us to return the way we used to. The day when we first go together, when I was abducted by that deer, the way you worried for me back then, I want us to be like that again. I’m being selfish, yes, but… I want you to worry for me.

Those times when you always looked over me, those times when you always asked me and became nosy at all of the details of my daily life, I want that Simon back, yet you area always too busy, too occupied, too— distant. I miss you a lot, I wanted to tell you that.

You never even greeted me this Yuletide season, so I will be the one to tell you this, Merry Christmas and I hope you’d have a nice time in Baekseol. i know that it’s cold there, but you never seem to react to it, Baekseol may be the land of frost, but it’s colder here, in my heart, for honestly, I can’t feel the flames of your love anymore. Always remember that I love you, Junho-ah, but I don’t know if you’d still keep that promise you told me right outside that shallow cave, but you will always have a place in my heart. Bye. [/hangs up the phone as tears start to fall from his eyes, letting the small droplets of water run down his cheeks] 

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[/already full of negative thoughts and keeping them deep inside his heart, Minki finally burst and got his phone from the table, clicking violently the speed dial button and waited for the latter to answer. The redhead was sure that he was just texting with Simon minutes ago, and he can’t understand what he was doing that he can’t answer this phone call.

minutes later, Simon was still not picking up, and the florist was starting to lose his patience for he was always greeted by the man’s voice telling him to leave a message, so he did]

I know you are there, not answering the phone. You can’t reason out that you didn’t hear, for I know you never put your phone to silent. Don’t reason out that you were doing something for minutes earlier, you were just texting to me and you said you were doing nothing and just sitting on the couch, and never tell me that you are sleeping, because it’s fucking not your sleep or nap time! 

You’ve been hiding something from me, I may not know what exactly this is, but there is something blocking our relationship. I’ve been keeping this all inside for a long time now, and I wanted to meet you up to tell you all of these things, yet you won’t answer! 

Maybe you’re having sex with your third party, that’s why you won’t answer and are too busy thrusting in and out that whore. I think you have someone else now, and I can’t take it anymore, I want you to tell me now, so I won’t hurt anymore… You told me you’ll never be someone else’s, yet what are you doing now?! Tell me the truth as soon as you cum. Bye. 

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Packing Up.

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(...)

"So Jagi~ Why the sudden visit? Is something bothering you?" He started to drive towards a small restaurant. 

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Minki did as the latter said and took a step away from his lover, amused at how caring Simon seemed to be when he was as cold as Baekseol when they were texting just hours back ago. The redhead started to respond to the other’s gestures by moving his lip back against him, tilting his head slightly but pulling away as immediately for they were still in a public place, and the other was still holding something.

At hearing the latter’s words, Minki started to feel guilty of thinking twice about Simon’s love for him, yet, he can’t stop here, not now, not now that he was determined and emotionally prepared to know the truth and be aware of it, as he turned back to the auburn-haired man and answered his rhetorical question with another question.

“Right, who wouldn’t?” letting out a soft chuckle, the florist started to look suspiciously at the man and shook his head, and instead, suggested something else. “As much as I would love that, I want to stay at your house, I can manage to go cook, it’s cold and the freezing temperature will balance the immense heat of the stove.” He smiled softly before adding, “…unless you don’t want to”

As they were inside the car, the blonde never knew where would Simon bring him, yet he just continued to ride his eccentric words and took the hot—cold beverage in his palms, taking a sip on it afterwards as he turned the air conditioner of the car off, for the cold atmosphere and the coat of ice wrapping his heart was already cool enough for Minki.

‘Why did he not want to go to his house first?’ Minki started to get a more hurtful hunch, what if he was indeed cheating, and the main reason he moved to Baekseol is to hide his mistress, or he already was living with that person. Simon was being inconsistent, for he showed the picture of his house, excitedly, yet the first place that he wanted to take Minki to was a restaurant? His train of thoughts was starting to lead to anger when he was cut off by Simon, at the right nick of time.

“Me? Problems? There are no problems for me… unless you have something to tell me. Do you, jagi?” the lad slowly tilted his head towards Simon’s direction and asked him, eyes blinking, feigning innocence and unawareness. 

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Send me a symbol to receive one of the following:

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Send ✆ for a morning text

Send ♔ for an angry voice mail

Send  ♠ for a prank call

Send ☎ for an emotional voice mail 

Send ☏ for a vague voice mail

Send ❖ for a confession (voicemail or text, specify.)

Send ⁇ for a worried text

Send ♣ for a text not meant for you

Send ✘ for a text that should have been sent

Send ✺ for a saucy text

Send √ for an early morning text

Send ☠ for misguided advice

Send ☢ for a desperate text

Send ☼ for a promise

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Packing Up.

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"Hey! Beautiful, looking for someone?" 

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[ sms ] Really? That’s so sweet.

Minki felt otherwise if he was going to be honest with his feelings, this gave him more reason to doubt the other for at first, he was in a bad mood, then suddenly he becomes so sweet, a big, doubtful evidence that he might be already cheating with someone else. Yet he still didn’t want to hurt the other’s feelings, so he just decided to go with what his beloved had done for him.

Arriving at the Baekseol Kingdom aqua rail station, he looked around and looked for the auburn haired man that he loves, the only person that makes him feel safe and loved, but he never saw him, only snowflakes falling from the white sky, and stalls of food where one can buy their snacks, as well as people who were nothing but strangers to the lad, until a vibration from his pocket came.

[ sms ] I don’t see you…

He looked at the phone once more before looking up to once look for the other, and he can see the man now, holding a bouquet of flowers and hot chocolate, his face obviously brightening at the sight of his lover before immediately running to the brunette and wrapping his arms around him.

Taking in his scent, the musky tone was not there anymore, but it was a smell of a sweet-scented perfume, a scent that seemed like a smell of another person, it bothered the redhead, yet he let it past again, thinking that maybe his beloved just had a change of tastes in moving to the land of Baekseol, but not completely ignoring the woe in his heart that his one and only love was having an affair with someone.

Whispering against his chest, small tears formed in his eyes as he spoke to the latter, his head tilting up to face him and giving an ambivalent smile to him. “I missed you a lot… did you miss me?” He was scared to know the true answer though, for it might hurt, just like what others say, the truth hurts.

 His smile was of two emotions, happiness for he was able to reunite with Simon again, even if it’s for a short time, he was thankful that they are able to see each other again, though it was sad in a sense that there might be a competency for him for the man’s heart, and that that person might already be winning. Waiting for the other’s answer, he took the cup from the latter’s hand, but leaving the roses in Simon’s hand. 

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shaded stars:

Water is something that I need every two hours.

Love is a blessing for me, you get it when you deserve it, and lose it when you become abusive of it.

Hatred is something that we shouldn’t hold onto, but I believe that we should let it go before the sun goes down, or before a new day arrives.

I often and easily get embarrassed. 

unshaded stars: 

I want a girlboyfriend

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shaded stars:

I have a black diary that my psychiatrist-slash-brother-in-law gave me, though I barely write on it.

I currently reside in Inju because I feel that Sanya is too isolated for me to experience the real world.

I tend to live in the past, I might get over with it, but I still feel a lot for it.

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I have an annoying sister who is an accelerated learner.

I hate being compared to her and people tend to always commend her more

I’m the one who does her assignments and fucks tho I didn’t require help when I was younger, though she’s still better in eyes of others

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If Simon would leave me, I might die or commit suicide. 

After my mom died, Gosoo’s family was the one who adopted me and gave me a place to stay

I can’t cook, fire makes me weak.

I give out pastries to my neighbors, whether customers or not.

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I study in a Science high school 

I’m good in reading and writing hangul, but suck at understanding.

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i love to eat kimchi though it tastes so bad

i have friends who don’t like kpop and still get along with them

i hate reading books but love to write short stories.

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Meeting You Again.

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Minki, how much do you trust me?

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But the people I heal… I love them. How could I not? [/he looks at the other with a slightly rebellious expression, though it’s nonetheless subtle since it was Minki who was doing it when the latter took his arm and unwrapped the bloodied gauze, taking the wound into closer view, inspecting it as the redhead just sat there, trying to read what Jasper’s expression was, but it was unreadable, as always.]

[/looks at the sky and admires the birds when the man’s voice catches his attention, the florist’s head immediately facing him back before nibbling his lower lip and a bit startled at what the other had said, slightly chuckling when the other still called him a blonde, which was a bit rude since it was widely known in the land of wonder that blondes were considered dumb or too selfless]

[/clearly hearing what the latter had asked him, Minki took a few minutes into pondering on how to answer this. Yes, they’ve been through a lot, yet the other hasn’t done anything yet to be the cause of Minki’s suffering, so he finally made a decision with a soft smile displayed on his face.] I trust you, hyung… a lot. I was the only one to break your trust by all my doubting, a-anyway. [/he chuckled at reminiscing the past, though it was a bitter laugh.] What would you do, though?