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about me ⋆｡

call me button the way i unbutton these hoes

dying student ❤︎ cisfem (she/her) ❤︎ indian ❤︎

likes !

𝜗ৎ writing/reading

𝜗ৎ f1

𝜗ৎ building models

𝜗ৎ comedy/commentary yt

𝜗ৎ chess (horrible at it.)

𝜗ৎ music [tame impala, laufey, mitski]

take it as a sign, you're badly needed

hmu for recs or if you just wanna talk. i don't bite ༝༚༝༚

car above is the bwt racing point rp20

peak

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my very awesome friend gave me the book project hail mary for my birthday and it's soo good, bit erratically paced and corny at times but the scientific explanations and analogies are top tier

also i was wondering if i should write smth for dr ryland grace 🤭 we all love a good frightened nerd

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sunlight gives me serotonin :)

AHHH YOU REMEMBER 🥺 you are my sunlight, snoops

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whatever man

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she looks like the "intimidating at first glance but sweetest person you'd ever meet" trope and i love her so so much, snoops you're so cool

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RE9 ENJOYER VERY BASED!!

YES YES YES IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE IT

i played re7 when it came out (pirated it on my mom's laptop lol) and i was shit scared so now i just resort to watching other people play it like the cuck i am

but genuinely the graphics and animation is so smooth and there are so many cool details (also grace's section is so much better imo it's much more immersive and the jumpscare intro of marie/shadow monster is some of the best horror gameplay i've seen)

also can we just talk about how cool the setting is? every zombie is such a unique character with backstory and the care facility itself is beautifully designed. also the va's (especially grace's) ABSOLUTELY ATE THAT SHIT DOWN

wat do you think rhea 👾

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#he think everything a fuckin game

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the stupid cheesy lines bro 😭 this is the man everyone is going feral over??

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yeah okay fuck me he's hot and old whatever enemies to lovers i guess yes i wait outside the geriatric ward hunting for my new prey

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sometimes you just wanna be loved and when you realise you aren't you get that awful skin crawling feeling as if satan's worms are wriggling all over you

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nvm that was the expired sushi yall we good 💪

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sometimes you just wanna be loved and when you realise you aren't you get that awful skin crawling feeling as if satan's worms are wriggling all over you

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does anyone else randomly start singing "i bet on losing dogs" whenever they see/hear something sad or has instagram reels just ruined my ability to express emotions normally

needless to say its becomes a little awkward if you start crying about how everyone infantilises you

[revivivivify]

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people keep saying not to source wikipedia because it's "written by people with no verification" while half of the references we use are taken (without credit) from wikipedia, including gemini's ai overview!

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#he think everything a fuckin game

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the stupid cheesy lines bro 😭 this is the man everyone is going feral over??

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really hope she's not a rapist

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i'm so pissed off at everything and everyone nowadays. god help me if i become a perpetual hater.

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AHHHHH YOUR PROFILE IS SO PRETTY!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH RHEA I LOVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART AHHHH

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immortal

when hypotheticals come to mind, the first one i think of is: "would you want to be immortal?"

now whether it be the reason of your choice or the counterargument, the baseline is that it sucks to see your loved ones die and the world burn around you over and over and over again. and at the end of the day, it's all just a silly little conversation. nothing is immortal.

nothing perceptible anyway.

the extraordinary thing about emotion is that it's abstract. it can't be touched or smelled or bitten into. it's just...there. it's ingrained into every living being regardless of your competence, conscience or clarity. it's what babies feel without being taught how to. it's what feeds your brain, giving it raw power to make decisions that ruin your life. emotions are beautiful.

the most beautiful one being, of course, hate.

because what can you feel when all else dematerialises? what engulfs you from the minute you become aware of your own existence? when all you've grown up is with neglect and jealousy and avoidance? what corrodes you from the inside - bleeding into every crevice of your heart until the very cells scream for death?

hate has the legacy warriors dream of. it can and will never die. it trickles into every subset of your life. it sits as the subtext in conversations with your "friends". it presents itself in the micromisogny you have to ignore. it's in the overpriced food you consume and the rent you can barely pay. it rules the capitalist and authoritarian dystopia you survive in.

and the monopolist of hate is god himself.

because even when earth dies and crumbles and is replaced by a healthier, breathable land, and mother earth starts from the embers of its last life - where organisms flip the page and start afresh, when no conscience is in sight;

hate will present itself in the ones who die first. the ones who are too weak to evolve. the ones who are too stupid to live. because they were never meant to exist anyway.

they were only created for a sadistic little game. the one he watches from above, one he made to sustain the boredom of immortality. "survival of the fittest", they call it.

you know what the funny thing is? i hate that hypothetical.

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masterlist ❦

➴ parasocial chemistry !