All I Want Is To Want Nothing @blueraft-onabluesea - Tumblr Blog

I’m not doing good dude fuck me

I’m dating someone again.

I’m really happy

Saw someone who recognized me from my first job. Haven’t seen them since I left and they asked me if I was still doing music and still singing.

I’ve definitely moved forward happily on my path in the music industry but it’s weird when people point out dreams you forgot you even had for yourself.

I just want to be loved but I struggle to even leave the house. Keeping relationships with my friends is impossible.

I feel hard to love and I can’t put myself out of a limb for people anymore with even the hope of being understood

Tired of the rejection

bug-mp3

they should make it easier

mommy-mortis

what?

bug-mp3

Everything. All of it

I am so tired of being in so much pain all of the time

psychicpinenut

the part in all eyes on me where it goes "got it, good now get inside" and the harmonies join and it feels like god is speaking to me

glowcowboy

i want to be a sweet and friendly girl but there’s all this anxiety. and the horrors

iremluna

and rage

glowcowboy

yeah and also the rage

You ever just get slapped in the face by your own lack of self worth

One of my coworkers tried to feel me up at work and it’s just not sitting well with me at all and like by no means was it a like violent situation or anything like that I don’t know I just feel weird and uncomfortable and gross

I’m literally so tired of getting to know people and having it be for absolutely nothing.

I FUCKING hate being vulnerable and I hate humans.