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i write during low moods.

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i choose myself because you refused to.

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just a reminder..

You have to learn to get up from the table when love is no longer being served.

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you dont want to let go of me when you dont even know how to keep me.

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its clear to me now what am i to you..

you cant even spare me a second..

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no medicine i could give you, would be strong enough to save you from yourself.

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i hope the only time you compare yourself to someone else is when you ask yourself how would you feel if you were them.

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as i get scared that i might lose someone again, i also get scared that i might lose myself in the process, again..

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So, if there is someone out there who will truly love me, I promise you that I will not let my hurt and pain harden my heart, nor will I succumb to the pressures of the world of instant fulfillment. And, my one true love - when God eventually unveils you to me, I will adore you with all the love you deserve..

But while we're still apart and our names aren't known to each other, let us guard our hearts and pursue greater ambitions. I hope you're surrounded by people who will urge you to fall even more deeply in love with the one who loved us first. I want you to know that I’m here waiting for you, and that despite all the heartbreaks I’ve been through, God is continuously healing my heart so when He leads you to me, I will never for a second look back on my past.

I hope you’re doing well. maybe we will cross paths soon and I hope we aren't too busy to notice. Maybe, somewhere on the streets of a city, we'll have a chance to look each other in the eyes, not knowing what sort of story will unfold.

I’ll keep on praying for you..

chey

[blueverry]

I was right, you did speak a language I wasn’t wise enough to understand.

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oh no one could tell..

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ㅡ hoping youre brave enough to grab your own wrists if you beat yourself up, and whisper in your own ear, stop.

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would you have gone in for the person you thought I am?

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battle scars in war stories.

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Its ironic how she loves watching the sunset yet cries in every ending she gets. Maybe thats the thing about human and pain, we see the beauty of it when its infront of us, not when its in us.

[blueverry]

theres more to me than what you see and feel and im not sure youd like the rest. I know that sometimes, i dont like the rest.

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But i crumble completely when you cry.. it seems like once again you had to greet me with goodbyes.

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it did hurt.

when it shouldnt.