𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓭 ╱ 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓.

𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗺𝘆 𝗿𝗼𝘁𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆, 𝗳𝗹𝗼𝘄𝗲𝗿𝘀 𝘀𝗵𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗴𝗿𝗼𝘄

[bluevlvts]

“do you truly believe it would have been any different with her?”

the question wasn’t an accusation, nor did it come out with any malice or bitterness. honestly, it came across as a fact more than a question. willow didn’t need to ask who the mysterious her was. there were only two women who had been large overwhelming presences in this marriage, and willow knew he wasn’t talking about the ice-cold women she called her mother.

there was the smallest tightening around her heart any time a vision of her entered her head, but willow had gotten amazing at blocking most things that had made her happy. it was only a weakness and one that could be used against you. she learned that the hard way when she was younger. so, she kept the boxed up and only took a peak when she was completely alone. when she was safe to be vulnerable. when no one was looking.

the couch was far too soft beneath her. it used to bring her comfort. miles cuddling up because he couldn’t help himself, even knowing how much she detested physical acts of love. but for him? she allowed it. it was miles. there were plenty of happy memories on this couch, but now as she sat here, slowly sinking into the cushion, she hated how soft it felt. her perfectly fine husband so far on the other side from her but she preferred it that way.

“you think it would have been some happily ever after? you two would have run off and it would have been some perfect version of life? you would heal and what? mommy would no longer live inside your head? or better yet…she would love you?”

his words still didn’t hold any venom; it was like he was just cracking up was already broken between them and spilling out the damage. he wasn’t wrong and it stung. willow couldn’t open her mouth to admit it, so she kept her mouth shut and sat in silent anger. she wasn’t sure if the anger was at him, herself, or her mother.

“I tried so hard to love you and you refused to let me. I do love you, but you’re broken. you can’t help but break everyone else around you. just like your brother, exactly like your mother. that’s the price legacy.”

exactly like your mother. it rang in her head over and over. she whipped her head to look at him for the first time tonight and finally taking him in. he looked skinnier and there were bags under his eyes. his hair was a mess that she was sure from being rumpled with over and over out of some anxious habit. was this me? did I do this?

willow’s fuck you died on her lips and a soft ‘I’m sorry’ fell out instead. he could only return a soft, sad smile because of course. that’s just who he was. a good guy. someone willow thought she could love, and maybe she did. even just a little bit but it wasn’t enough. he only stayed for another minute or two before he was up and gone with one single forehead kiss.

she grabbed her phone before her thoughts could formulate and she could get herself into trouble. while ian was a runner, god knows the trouble willow could find herself into. she never once thought about stopping herself from running her mouth. miles was the first person that popped into her head. needing anyone but a price at this moment, but she wasn’t entirely sure wanted to feel good at this moment. like she deserved to feel good.

Before she could even second guess herself, she dialed the phone number and pressed the phone against her ear. her body going from numb to cold the second she heard the familiar voice.

“mom?” she said softly, wondering if she even heard her.

“oh, sweetie.”

tears instantly pooled into her eyes. maybe this was her punishment. maybe this is what she deserved. or maybe a girl did just want her mom, wishing things would be different. that she would come in and make everything better. wrap her up in a warm hug, brush back her hair and tell her everything would be ok. say I’m proud of you. I love you.

[bluevlvts]

he wasn’t a stranger to pain. 

split lips, broken nose, bruised eyes. 

he could have run this town red with the amount of blood he’s spilled over the years. maybe even won a few awards or two – “#1 punching bag in Hawkins, Indiana”. he liked to think it made him humble. he could even dare to say a better person. ever since Jonathan had landed that first blow against his cheek, it felt like it had knocked a heavy dose of reality into him.

so no, he wasn’t a stranger to pain. it was a friendly acquaintance of his. 

he endured. he survived.

but now watching the brunette turn her back to him and walk away, he felt like the world beneath him was opening and about to suck him up completely. 

flashbacks to being in a tight bathroom with the too bright lights glaring down on them. he could smell nancy’s shampoo, which should have smelt home and first love. only now it smelt like strawberries and heartache. puppy dog eyes staring up at him with resentment and regret, words echoing against the walls. the same walls that felt like they were closing in around them, making the space seem even tighter. 

bullshitbullshitbullshitbullshitbullshitbullshitbullshitbullshitbullshitbullshitbullshitbullshitbullshitbullshitbullshitbullshitbullshit.

the pain of knuckles against flesh didn’t hurt as much. hell, he couldn’t honestly say it still didn’t. if the ache in his chest was anything to go by. he wanted to call out to her, but he stayed silent. he knew she would turn around. she always did. no matter how much he pretended he didn’t see her eyes resting on him. every time he would sneak a glance at her, she was quickly looking away. if she turned around, there was an expectation. apologize.

he kept telling himself she deserved more than ‘i’m sorry’. as if she needed some grand gesture to make everything right. 

'when did you become such a coward, Steve Harrington?’

if only he could tell her about the crumpled-up camp photo he keeps hidden away in his top desk drawer. how he pulls it out during his worst days. when things felt hopeless. when Nancy broke his heart. hell, even before that. and when he lay in his room late at night, locked in those summer memories, he'll say sorry in his head over and over. filled with regret and wishing for things he doesn’t deserve.

[bluevlvts]

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[leneemusing]

 ENEMIES TO LOVERS,  LOVERS TO ENEMIES AND EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN

“  you really expect me to believe a word you’re saying.  now?  after everything you’ve done.  ” 

“ do you really think i’m humble enough to ask for your help if i wasn’t truly fucking desperate?  ”

“  you’re either really desperate to be coming to me,  or you think i’m a lot stupider than i am.  ”

“  face it,  i know you better than anyone else.  ”  

“   somehow,  out of everyone.  even my own damn friends,  you know me more.  ” 

“  i’ve seen parts of you no one else will ever understand.  i see who you are.  what you are.  and i think you should stop making yourself smaller to make the world comfortable. ”  

“  we’re nothing alike.  i’ll never be like you.  ”

“  why are you asking me for help?  ”

“  you’re the only person who isn’t going to treat me with kid gloves right now.  ”

“  you’re the only person who i know will let me do what i need to do without trying to talk me out of it.  ”  

“  i don’t understand what happened to us…why didn’t you trust me?  ”

“  i’ve been in your shadow long enough.  this isn’t about you.  it’s about me,  for once.  ”

“  i’m not a project for you to finish.  i’m not here to be part of your little savior complex.  so stop trying to save me.  ”

“  why didn’t you kill me?  when you had the chance?  ”

“  if you were going to kill me,  you would have done it already.  so,  what do you want from me?  ” 

“  i think this is the first we’ve had a full conversation that didn’t involve you insulting me.  ”

“  you’ve never held back from telling me the truth before.  that’s what i’m counting on now.  ”

“  i don’t hate you.  i pity you.  ”

“  i don’t hate you.  i admire you.  i always have.  ”

“  i’d rather you hate me than be apathetic.  hate means you still care.  ”

“  please—  just let me help you.  ” 

“  i don’t think you’re a monster.  not really.  i just think that’s what you tell yourself to feel strong.  ”

 “  i know you don’t believe me,  but i’m trying to help.  and i could actually do what i need to if you’d stop questioning me.  ”

“  i’ve always been able to tell when you’re lying.  ”

“  well actually,  i came here to fight.  but it looks like you’ve had a shit enough day it kinda feels like i’d be kicking a puppy.  ”

“  no—  please don’t cry.  i’m…not good with the crying.  ”

“  if we’re about to talk about feelings i’m out.  ”  

“  we could have had a future,  you know.  i wanted to do this with you.  but you ruined it.  ” 

“  why are you really here?  ”

“  i remember giving you this scar.  you were so goddamn stubborn.  ”

“  i love you.  but that doesn’t change anything.  ”

“  i don’t think you’re evil.  i think you’re just lost.  and alone.  and you don’t know anything else.  ”

“  it’s too late for me.  ”

“  it’s not to late.  i don’t believe that.  ”

“  i’m just here to make sure you don’t get yourself killed.  ”

“  i’m just not ready to tell the others about us.  they won’t understand.  ”

“  you’re the only one who has ever really understood me.  ”

PROMPTS:

♡ for one muse to kiss the other with a knife to their throat

☁ for a fight to turn into a kiss and/or sex 

❧ for our muses to be forced to take shelter together 

❦ for our muses to be forced to share a bed 

♥ for one muse to unexpectedly save the other’s life 

☂ for one muse to spare the other’s life 

✘ for one muse to get hurt protecting the other 

✔ for one muse to catch the other in a vulnerable moment and have sympathy 

☼ for one muse to see the other hurt and get angry 

ϟ for one muse to take revenge on someone for hurting the other 

✐ for one muse to do something hard/morally grey so the other doesn’t have to

☾ for one muse to open up about their motivations to the other 

✄ our muses having angry sex 

¶ our muses having desperate, passionate sex 

❀ for one muse to confess their feelings to the other 

► for one muse to injure the other and immediately regret it 

▼ for one muse to heal the other after being the one to injure them 

◄ for one muse treat the others injury caused by a third party 

 💀 for one muse to hold the other while they die 

[kieumy-archive]

The Sex Lives of College Girls S01E07 | I Think I’m a Sex Addict

[amltgifs]

[museinspo]

“I don’t think there’s anything sadder than when two people are meant to be together and something intervenes.”

— Walter Bishop (via quotemadness)

[thecobaltmonk]

deena + protecting sam - fear street part one: 1994

[ofmymuses]

         SWEET DREAMER,  a single muse google doc page by ofmymuses

there are a ton of lovely google docs templates out there & i wanted to give it a try!! it’s a single muse page that includes:  statistics, notable relationships, headcanons, backstory, verses, navigation and a small memory wall.

to use this doc.. click on the title of this post, go to file & select make a copy; you’ll then be able to rename it and edit everything for personal use.

please like and / or reblog if you find this useful or plan on using it!! enjoy!!

** feel free to edit as desired / needed but do not remove the small credit i put on the last page.

Keep reading

[lemondaydream]

001 . TANGERINE —  [ 𝚕𝚎𝚖𝚘𝚗 𝚍𝚊𝚢𝚍𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖 ] …… DOWNLOAD LINK

The first of many available, TANGERINE is a basic, single OC character template. Fully customizable in color and images, feel free to edit it in any way, shape, or form. Please don’t remove my credit and link to the lemondaydream. Also please do not redistribute. These are meant to be only used by the purchaser or as a gift for another person. Allowing others to make copies off of your copy is stealing.

how to use

click the link, select “file” and then “make a copy”

do not remove the credit from the top and bottom of the template  

how to edit

The easiest way to edit and change any of the images is to right click on the image and then click “replace image” in order to change it. Do not copy and paste images into the doc, it will ruin the formatting.

Some images might need you to first right click on the image and click “select image”. If it does not automatically create a bounding box. After this step you can right click again and proceed with the instructions above.

Resizing any images on the doc will cause things to move or elements of the design to be hidden.

Aesthetic images from here. Please change all the images you want to.

Feel free to change the background page color and the color inside the tables, I suggest if you do, that you please highlight all parts of the table the color appears on first.

The tables are structured in a way that will move pages and elements if their limit is exceeded, if you need more space, I highly recommend linking to a continuation at the end of that space.  

Likes and reblogs are much appreciated!! …………………………… back to lemondaydream.

[falsegvds]

                            𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐚 𝐭𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐨𝐫-𝐣𝐨𝐲 𝐠𝐢𝐟 𝐢𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬.

   click the source link below to be redirected to 287 gif icons of anya taylor-joy in here are the young men, thoroughbreds, emma and saturday night live. all of these were made by me from scratch so don’t edit, repost or claim as your own. please read my rules and like/reblog if you found this helpful!!

[tbtpicsnlooks]

[zoeysplaylistgifs]

[museinspo]

“Your sibling, after all, is the only other person in the world who understands how fucked up your parents made you.”

— Deb Caletti, The Nature of Jade (via bookhag)

[percyfraser]

ANYA TAYLOR-JOY for Vogue Mexico photographed by Camila Falquez

[hxavnlys]

❛         💠         RANDOM TEMPLATE — 𝐓𝐈𝐊𝐓𝐎𝐊!!

this is a free psd!! you are free to use it however you want and only basic knowledge of photshoop is required.

all colors can be customized and no psd is included in this file.

fonts used: segoe ui emoji, segoe ui e microsoft phagspa.

if you download it, a like or reblog will be appreciated. ♡

[the-borgias]

Your gifs are so cool and vibrant. Please do a coloring tutorial??

Hi, thank you so much! 

My coloring process is always the same, and very simple! Under the cut I will explain it:

1. CURVES

I always start with a curves layer and I use the first and third droppers. The first dropper adjusts the dark parts of your scene, so you'll click on the darkest spot of your gif (the closest that spot is to black the better.) The third dropper adjusts the light parts of your gif, but instead of clicking on the lightest spot of the gif, I prefer to click on the lightest spot in the character's face. This is how my layer looks like in that Luke gif:

This method doesn't work on all scenes, so sometimes I adjust it manually. Some scenes are hard to colour with the droppers (for example, scenes with neon lights) and in those cases I just click on ‘Auto’ to bring brightness to the scenes, without drastically changing the colours.

2. BASE PSD

After I have my curves layer I always follow the same method: Brightness, Levels, Color Balance, Selective Color, Curves and Vibrance. You'll probably have to adjust them depending on your scene, but the truth is that my settings are always very similar:

1. Brightness: Between 15-30 / Contrast: Between 5-15 (this will depend on your scene, if it’s dark I usually go with 30/15, but if it isn’t then 15/5 should work just fine.)

2. Levels: 10 / 1.00 / 245

3. Color Balance: This is the layer which will need more adjustment depending on the scene. That Luke scene has a plain background, and since I wanted to make it blue I edited this layer like this (Shadows: -0, 0, -12 / Midtones: -16, 0, +20 / Highlights: -14 / -5 / +13). 

4.1. Selective Colour (reds & yellows): This layer is so important to make the colours look natural. The Reds and Yellows which will affect your character's skin tone. In this scene as you can see Luke’s face is a little bit red, so I used this layer to fix that (x x). For most shows/movies I’ve found that the problem is actually the opposite and the character’s skin is way too pale (it’s just that this scene has great lightning lol). To fix that I edit only the Reds by increasing the Cyan, Magenta AND Yellow until I’m happy with the result.

4.2. Selective Colour: Magenta (x), cyan (x) and blue (x). Sometimes, I also edit the black (like this: Black: +5/+10), but in this case it wasn’t necessary.

5. Curves: I just click 'Auto' to make the gif more bright. Sometimes, if the scene I'm working with is too dark instead of Curves I add another Brightness/Contrast layer or I use an Exposure layer.

6. Vibrance: Between 30-50 / Saturation: Between 5-20 (this depends on the scene too, because if you add too much saturation your character's face will most likely look yellow :/)

Obviously, these exact settings won't always work, so you'll have to play a little with them. My advise is that if your coloring doesn't look right, edit the Brightness/Contrast, Color Balance and Selective Colour (the red, mostly) layers.

3. BACKGROUND

As I said this Luke scene already had great lightning. After all the adjustments I made before the only thing I had to do to bring out the Cyan was adding another Selective Colour layer and edit the Cyan (x) and Blue (x).

But, let's be real, most of the time this isn't the case. I’m going to use this Han Solo gif as an example:

This is how it looks like after using the previous method. It looks pretty and bright, but I want the background to look more blue. I use different methods to make colourful gifs, but lately the one I've been using the most are Gradient Layers. So you’ll click on Layer > New Adjustment Layer > Gradient Map. I choose these colours (2776ec and 001dfa) and set the Gradient Map to ‘Overlay’ (depending on the scene I use overlay, soft light or colour.) Now my gif looks like this:

This is a scene with very little movement, so to fix Han I’m going to add a Layer Mask in the Gradient Map and paint with black all over him (if you’r not familiar with Layer Mask check this and this, they’re a life saver if you’re making colourful gifsets!) My Layer Mask now looks like this. And this is the final result:

Obviously with gifs with more movement this will be more complicated, but I usually don’t mind if the blending isn’t perfect.

And that's it, I hope this made sense!