Since I started this prejac path, I’ve thought a lot about what it means to be a beta. What’s the official definition for beta anyway? From two dictionaries:
“Beta is a slang insult for describing a man who is seen as passive, subservient, weak, and effeminate.” (Dictionary.com)
“A man who is not as successful or powerful as other men.” (Cambridge dictionary)
The above definitions align with the word’s usage in the online fetish/kink community. Just read any blog or watch a JOI video and it’s evident that beta is ensconced in the femdom vernacular.
To many fetishists, the beta male not only cowers before dominant women and so-called alpha men, but he also resorts to chronic masturbation because he knows he doesn’t deserve sex. He invites feminization and sissification. He’ll do whatever the superior woman commands, even if it violates his sexual preferences. On the extreme side of the fetish, he’s an unsuccessful loser in day-to-day life.
Okay, Just Answer the Question: Is a Prejac a Beta?
The prejacs I have spoken with all admitted to developing beta characteristics if they didn’t have them already. Some of them maintain vanilla relationships with their wives or girlfriends and just happen to have accepted and sexualized premature ejaculation. Others had cuckold fantasies which later manifested in real life or got into crossdressing.
In my opinion, if a man sexualizes premature ejaculation and identifies as a prejac, he will inevitably develop some beta characteristics.
Some of the definitions above apply to me; others do not. I’m neither wimpy nor cowardly. I'm not a loser in relationships or career. I’m not into feminization or sissification. I’m not into wearing panties or cuckoldry. But I do think these latter two can be hot themes, so I sometimes reference them when creating captions.
Throughout my life, others would describe me as an alpha. I never had issues attracting women. I flirted with women confidently, dated women, and had sex with women. I could go on with a gamut of outdated cliches of what supposedly makes a man an alpha and how I live up to them.
Yet I’ve always been secretly turned on by the idea of sexually failing a dominant, sexy woman and how her response would be one of amusement, mockery, or frustration. The thought of having a micropenis that she cannot feel, a broken quick dick that spurts in seconds, and a cock that can’t perform properly due to anxiety is hot.
I’ve struggled with some of these fantasies throughout my life. I've felt guilt for jerking off to femdom JOI or how, during sex, demeaning phrases about my sexual ability would fill my thoughts. For many years, post-nut clarity was a sobering, shameful crash after enthralling sexual ecstasy. I couldn’t understand why I was this alpha type who had success with women but deep down wanted to be dominated by them. I didn’t know why I wanted to submit my petty masculinity before their overpowering sexuality. I still don’t know.
When I discovered the Prejac fetish last year, it was the beginning of the path towards acceptance. It helped me to eventually accept my sexuality and to embrace it. I just knew that I was always meant to be a premature ejaculator. It’s been a heady journey where I experience the highs and lows of the condition, loving it and feeling confused by it, even questioning it sometimes.
It doesn’t matter; I have it and it’s here to stay.
What have I done to myself?
Nothing. I was meant for this.
It’s getting worse and normal PIV sex will be difficult or near impossible the deeper down the prejac rabbit hole I fall.
I accept this. It’s thrilling and scary at the same time.
I want to please the superior woman with my tongue and hands like a good boy. I fantasize about having such an unimpressive cock that I need to wear a strap-on or use sex toys to compensate. I love feeling pussy, but I don’t deserve it. Undoubtedly, I have accepted a sort of contextual beta nature. The context is sex, of course.
Arousal means submission to the woman, to female supremacy. Pussy means instant ejaculation. There is not a time I have sex where triggers don’t surface.
“I can never please her.”
“I just can’t help myself.”
“I am a loser preemie who can’t hold his load.”
Any attempt to block these thoughts and triggers during sex is in vain. I inevitably cum too soon despite any and all protests. Maybe it’s due to unconscious triggers or maybe it’s because my brain knows nothing else now. I am a premature ejaculator. A beta loser in bed. My mind knows nothing else. I love it. It’s intoxicating.
How does this acceptance look in daily life? No one would ever know that I view myself this way. I fit all the criteria of an alpha in social interactions as I have my whole life. Sex life is normal and healthy, except I cum way too soon, which means I spend a lot more time using my mouth, hands, and toys compensating for what my cock can’t do. Beta! Sexually, at least, I am undeniably a beta prejac loser. I own it. I embrace it. It is a part of my sexual identity.
Do I want to fail in bed, owing to my overexcitement and arousal of being in the presence of divine femininity? Am I aroused by spurting too quickly – before sex can ever really start – because I am too weak for her? Do I want to submit? Yes. Categorically, yes to all. My quick shot beta load is a sacrifice of so-called virile masculinity at her altar. She owns me. She controls me. She holds all the power. Women hold all the power.
A prejac beta gives the middle finger to misplaced societal expectations and dated stereotypes. I am proud of my premature ejaculation. I embrace it and hope that it becomes worse.
Note: Many experts assert that the alpha/beta dynamic, while enjoyable to sexualize for erotic purposes, alone or with a partner, does not exist. It’s a social construct; it’s artificial and inapplicable to real life human interactions.
For me, I don’t acknowledge other males as alphas. They don’t register to me as anything to fear or submit to. I have always been far too competitive against other men my whole life to view otherwise. Maybe that means others in the kink community would not consider me a beta. I’m not sure. Anyway, women are queens!
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