it's gonna be okay

katie. 22. sc. sometimes people take my picture. OFWGKTA.♡ love one another ♡

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holy shit. hi

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havent posted a selfie in awhile. oh and my hairs purple now

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Current mood: kiss deprived.

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well i totaled my car. im okay. my neck was just sore for a few days. im so sad because i loved that car. if you know me, you know my car is my baby. had to find a new one and this one is pretty good. my insurance will go up but ill owe less on this car. still frustrated about it but honestly im just glad im ok. the whole situation was terrifying and id never dealt with that before. the whole insurance situation was insane and i never wanna deal with that again.

on to new beginnings i guess

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its been two weeks. most mornings i still have the urge to open up my phone and message you good morning. i wake up and for a brief moment i forget that youre gone. i feel like its any other day and then it sinks in. i cry every day about at one point or another. the pain hasnt gone away. im not sure if it will. im trying to be strong because i know its what youd want. i know you want me to be happy and live my life but its so hard without you now. theres so much i wish i wouldve told you. like how i absolutely fell in love with you. but now i cant tell you any of those things. my heart just aches honestly. im really struggling.

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i dont really have anywhere else to talk about this so i guess ill do it here. unfollow me if you dont like it. ive got to put my thoughts somewhere.

they say that its supposed to get easier as the days go by but its only gotten harder. i break down crying atleast once a day at work. little things make me think of you and then i miss you all over again. my heart literally aches. im so confused because it was so sudden. you normally talked to me when you were feeling depressed but i had no idea. im so sorry i wasnt there to help you. you should still be here. it wasnt your time yet. youre too good of a person to be gone so soon. you had so much more love and light to bring to peoples lives. you truly were so amazing. you didnt see it but i did. and so did everyone else around you. i wish i wouldve come to see you. thats my biggest regret. talk about hating myself. it eats at me every day. im so so so sorry i didnt come. i wanted to be there with you so bad. just me and you. thats all i needed. you made me feel safe and extremely loved. and i love you very much. so much. probably too much but i dont care. you always knew how to cheer me up. talking to you on my bad days always made them better. i cant express my love for you. i wish i wouldve told you that i loved you more. theres so many things i shouldve done. so much i shouldve said. but i didnt and now i cant. i miss you so much. i want to scream and cry because its just not fair. why you? why now? i dont understand it at all. that makes it hurt worse. people keep asking if im ok. am i supposed to be okay? is anyone okay after this happens to them? no. im not okay. not at all. i dont think ill be okay for awhile. i know that you would want me to be happy. but its so hard without you here anymore. id like to think youre watching over me.. but maybe not. i dont know anymore. nothing seems to make sense anymore. just the thought of you makes me cry. i cant stop it. it happens every time.

ugh ill write more later

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to you.

i really need this to all be a bad dream i can wake up from. i keep messaging you and im not sure why.. i know you cant reply. i guess its just me secretly hoping ill open my messages and have one from you. i miss you more every day. this past week has been a fucking mess for me. it still doesnt feel real to me. just seems like youre busy and cant talk or something. but no. youre gone. no more late night phone calls and telling eachother goodnight. i took it all for granted and im so sorry. im sorry for all the chances i never took. i had taken off work this weekend to come see you and surprise you. i wish i still could. id give anything to have you back. i had so much left to say to you. i needed to remind you how much you mean to me and how much i really do love you. you are the most amazing, kind and loving souls ive ever known and i thank you for inspiring me to be me. you were so amazing and so many people loved you so so so much. we’re all so lost without you. losing you so suddenly we’re all confused. but regardless you are loved by way more people than you think. everyone just gravitated to you because youre just a genuinely good soul. and i love that so much about you. i wish you could read all this but i know you cant. id like to believe that youre watching over me. i had a dream about you last night. i felt like i was wrapped in your arms and i was safe and then i woke up and realized it wasnt real. i need little signs and reminders that youre watching over me. ill always be thinking of you. little things throughout the day remind me of you and how much i miss you.

ill shut up for now

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i miss you so much. this is a pain ive never known but i dont wish it on anyone. im feeling so many things but at the same time i feel nothing at all

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im falling apart

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losing someone youre madly in love with hurts so fucking much. i lost another person who had a huge piece of my heart. he means so much to me. i cant believe youre gone. not even sure what im saying. i just found out like 3 hours ago. but i do know i loved him.

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i cut my hair

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it me

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lost a close friend last week to suicide. losing someone is never easy, but losing someone who was hurting so badly and thought that was their only option hurts me even more. as someone who has been there and has attempted to do the same, i hurt for him. i know what it feels like, to feel so lost and hurt that you have no other choice. but theres always a choice. because once you do it, its final. theres no going back. theres no changing your mind. that choice will effect everyone around you who cares about you and loves you. god im hurting so bad. my heart is so heavy. this is my first time losing a friend. he was more than a friend though, we sort of had a relationship on and off for a few years. i grew very fond of him and started to really care about him. i still do and always will. hes got a special place in my heart that will always be his. i miss him so much. saying goodbye at his visitation yesterday was so hard. but he brought everyone together so we could all celebrate his life. we all miss you so much Matt. still hoping one day my phone will light up and itll be you. but until we meet again one day ..

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You declared to the heavens that you would never fall in love. Aphrodite hereslf took it as a challenge.