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we got countries around the world that literally celebrate the day white ppl left them the hell alone

Why do I KEEP landing myself in unsatisfying relationships?

I’m going to use this tumbler as not only an open blog but also open journal. I’m sick and tired of feeling sick and tired for being a strong independent woman. I have been dating a man who says I am the love of his life, yet spends most of his time with me taking, taking, taking and little giving back. I have also found he is a talker and not a doer.

Yesterday i took us on a date to the fair, we had a wonderful time. I am happy, he is happy. I feel more in love, I think he does too.. but the more I replay these events in my head the more I realize, I am completely convenient. He's going to be 30 soon, and i honestly think he sees me as more of a “I should” then a “There’s nothing i want more in this world then her” (ugh thats so depressing)

Now, how do strong beautiful ladies keep getting the hand by guys who are HONESTLY... pretty basic. I am a passionate believer, I'm a doer and a thinker. I think i attract people on thrill but when a basic person is in relations with a deep person it requires honesty. I listen, I ask questions, I hold my lovers accountable because I believe their words to be true.

THIS gets me into trouble... I need to watch more and listen less. if people want to do good for you they will, they won't TALK about it. People don't talk about how they love you, they SHOW you.

I’ve been in tears all day, i know tomorrow i will wake with a fire and continue this shit but today has been difficult. I am 26 years old. I am ready to love truly and spend my time with someone special. I have a lot to fucking offer. My friend told me today her grandfather would always say, “If you see a happy, strong woman, you know her husband is living up to his roll... you can always tell a good man by looking at his wife”

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what happened to my layout?

wtf tumblr? can someone explain this?

#wtf #htmlhelp

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People seem to think that if activists aren’t taking pics of everything they do, they aren’t doing anything. That is centering yourself in someone’s work. That church in Ferguson where they were storing all the donated supplies got raided because...

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Truth

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Vintage Ebony Burlesque

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there isnt enough black representation on tumblr… im glad im seeing a post like this

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I need the third one from the bottom

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Flawless.

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#FERGUSON protestor returns tear gas canister back to sender…

This is Amerikkka 2014

ICONIC

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with his chips still in his hand

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EXACTLY!!! EXACTLY !!! EXACTLY !!

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Tan Lines

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I Got My Pussy Stoned with Weed Lube

I’m not a big pot person. I can’t really find my “therapeutic window” when it comes to smoking weed. I know exactly how much cocaine or meth I can handle in one sitting and morphine doses will ebb and flow with the consistency of my usage, but when it comes to smoking weed, every single toke is one too many, and I end up getting so “in my head” that I want to jump through an open window. I sound like my dad now, but pot is c-r-a-z-y these days. It’s goddamn super-pot. Pot on speed. Pot enhanced with more pot and then thrown in a bouncy castle blender of THC and shaken up to be even stronger. I’ll do any drug in the world, but I usually shake my head “no” to a bong.

So, when I heard about Foria, the world’s first cannabis lube designed especially to enhance female sexual pleasure, I thought that this would be an excellent way to beat my pot fear. My head wouldn’t be doing the work, my vagina would, and I trust my vagina more than I trust my head.

Last week in Los Angeles, I met up with Matthew Gerson, Foria’s creator (or “Wellness Director” as he is referred to by his collective, The Aphrodite Group). After I emailed Foria asking for samples for my story, he was eager to hang out and talk about his creation.

Gerson has this theory about females, sexuality, and plants. I think I’m with him.

“I have some marijuana plants growing right now,” he explained. “And you spend time with this plant; it’s a fascinating weed. Marijuana is essentially a very horny female plant. It’s the female that is harvested and secretes the fluid, wants to be pollinated, and when it’s pollinated becomes stressed out and produces more and more. There’s this weird connection between the human female and the female plant. We have evolved with plants. We have a receptor that successfully absorbs THC. We have that capacity to absorb the pollen the plant secretes because our physiology co-evolved.”

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This makes me extremely fucking angry.

"At about 2 a.m. Friday morning, Jon Koppenhaver arrived announced to my home in Las Vegas, NV. After he broke up with me in May, he moved out of my house and back to San Diego. When he arrived, he found myself and one other fully clothed and unarmed [man] in the house. Without a single word spoken, he began beating my friend; once he was finished, he sent my friend away and turned his attention to me. He made me undress and shower in front of him then dragged me out and beat my face. I have no recollection of how many times i was hit. I just know the injuries that resulted from my beating. My injuries include 18 broken bones around my eyes, my nose is broken in 2 places. I am missing teeth and several more are broken. I am unable to chew, or see out of my left eye. My speech is slurred from my swelling and lack of teeth. I have a fractured rib and severely ruptured liver from a kick to my side. My leg is so badly injured, I have not been able to walk on my own. I also attained several lesions from a knife he got from my kitchen. He pushed the knife into me in some areas including my hand, ear and head. He also sawed much of my hair off with his dull knife.

After some time, the knife broke off of the handle and continued to threaten me with the blade. I believed I was going to die. He has beaten me many times before, but never this badly. He took my phone and cancelled all of my plans for the following week to make sure no one would worry about my whereabouts. He told me he was going to rape me, but was disappointed in himself when he couldn’t get hard. After another hit or two, he left me on the floor bleeding and shaking, holding my side from the pain of my rib. He left the room and went to the kitchen where I could hear him ruffling through my drawers. Assuming he was finding a sharper, more stable knife to end my life, I ran out the back door, shutting it behind me so the dogs did not run inside to tip him off. I hopped the fence to the gold course behind my house and ran into a neighboring house. naked and afraid he would catch me, I kept running through the neighborhood running through the doors. Finally, one answered and I was brought to the hospital and treated for my injuries.

I would like to thank everyone for their support through this rough time. I am healing fast and well, and I appreciate a lot of the prayers and visits I have received over the past few days. After many months of fear and pressure to keep this man happy, although I fear for my life, I feel that I can no longer put myself in this situation. The cheating by him nearly everyday, and almost weekly abuse, is now more than I can stand. There is a $10k reward for the capture of Jonathan Koppenhaver at this time. Please report any information to your local police.

Thank you.

- Christy Mack

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The victim-blaming backlash against Christy Mack has been horrific. She’s being blamed for her horrific assault because she’s a sex worker, because she dated a professional fighter, because she “cheated” (even though she and Koppenhaver were no longer dating) by people on Twitter and other websites. According to many internet misogynists, the fact that she is a sex worker is why she deserved this abuse, why she doesn’t deserve justice, and why Koppenhaver’s actions are justified. This is misogyny. This is why we need feminism. Koppenhaver is on the run from law enforcement (like any smart, innocent person would be??) and there is a reward for whoever turns him in. You can donate to Christy Mack’s medical expense fund here.

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Do not go to the liquor store on 90th and MacArthur, around 10-14 Black men will be standing out there with vans and they will try to snatch you up, the Arab dudes who own the liquor store are in on it do not go there during the night, if it wasn’t for my...

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"racism still exists in today’s society"

uhhhhhhh okay then explain this:

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ONLY NON COLORED PEOPLE THINK RACISM DOESNT STILL EXIST!!!!! Why are the jails and homeless shelters filled with people of color? Why are people of color not given equal opportunities in jobs and education as the white man? I understand what the picture portrays, but Paula even this last year got called out for her use of racial slurs against the black community. Blacks have come a long way but to say "racism doesn't exist" is ignorant.

Amen

Thank you

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I had a teacher who refused to let any of us say “its okay” because of this exact reason.

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Why are black and hispanic people so uneducated and violent?

Why do white men travel to POC countries to have sex with young girls?Why do White people age like milk? Why do white people’s hairlines recede by 20?

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I'm dying yo~~ 😂✌️