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hollandar

Heated Rivalry — 1x02 ⤷ VEGAS BATHROOM

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drawballa

Sleepy boys 💤

erin-go-blah

We ADORE “hey, hey” in this house, but let’s sniffle over “sorry” a bit here. Sorry I’m showing “too much” emotion, sorry I can’t love you the way you’re asking, sorry I can’t open up, sorry I ghosted you before, sorry I laughed, sorry you feel so alone on your journey, sorry the only one you can talk to is me and I’m not doing it right, sorry I said your name and made it real because now we don’t know what to do…

firstprinced

oftirnanog

I am begging you all to understand what is happening during the Vegas bathroom scene.

the reason shane folds so easily is that he doesn't think he should be upset with ilya in the first place. if he's thinking about it logically—which he is trying very hard to do!—then he thinks ilya is doing the smart thing by staying away. that six months of no contact? the correct move! from Shane's objective perspective. but he's not obejctive about ilya. and he is upset. so then he's also upset with himself for being upset with ilya in the first place. because he thinks he shouldn't be! what the two of them have going on is a very bad idea! and if they talk about it at this point, the conclusion will be that they should stop. so they don't talk. because neither of them can walk away from the other. they are down horrendous and they don't. know. what. to do about it. because they cannot have a relationship. that is what they believe at the core of it. this thing between them is impossible. and yes, they are hurting each other, but they are also hurting themselves. and they know it! but they'll take what they can get! like everyone thinks it's just Shane taking what he can get from ilya, but it works both ways! ilya is also taking what he can get from shane.

I cannot stress this enough—by following shane into that bathroom, ilya. breaks. first. some of you are forgetting about the very specific nature of their situation and how impossible they believe it to be. they literally cannot see an alternative to what they currently have going on. and so the constant push and pull isn't just happening between them, it's happening internally. they are constantly, CONSTANTLY telling themselves to walk away. so when the other pulls back, they're like yeah! smart move, my man, I wish I had the strength! except neither of them can actually maintain that distance because neither of them really does have the strength. they are so catastrophically down bad! they are sick with the wanting. it is killing them. which is how they end up hurting each other and themselves so badly.

ily-a

We can't be something, Hollander. Would you want to be, if we could? HEATED RIVALRY (2025-)

eonblueinmay

Artist: moreloveforjm_ on ig

ahotknife

one thing i do really love is how sex is such a big part of shane and ilya’s identities. like am i making sense. shane craves the emotional release of being dominated and the physical release of getting fucked and at some points he sort of flounders without it. like it’s a necessary thing for him to get that need satisfied. and ilya is pent up he’s wound tight he’s ready to go he’s in the starting blocks all the time. like his libido is high. and he’s bad with words so it’s easier for him to show affection and understanding through physical intimacy. and together they are the perfect match because shane starts to climb the walls if he doesn’t get fucked and ilya starts chewing the furniture if he doesn’t get to fuck somebody. i just really like the idea that shane who is so controlling and repressed and has a contentious relationship with his body at best actually desperately needs this specific thing. and he needs it to be sweaty and nasty and he needs to be pushed around and he needs to cry. and ilya has the same energy but the opposite. he needs it to be sweaty and nasty and he needs to push somebody around and make them cry. something really awesome about that to me. like for example they get in a stupid argument because shane’s wound up and needs catharsis but he’s being stubborn about it and ilya’s like this is stupid. i’m gonna fuck you and then it’ll be fine. you’ll forget why you’re mad after i make you come. take your pants off. and shane’s like you can’t just bend me over in order to get out of an argument! but obviously he lets ilya do it and then shane comes so hard he cries and afterwards he’s like oh ok you got me there. my bad. like he NEEDS it. do you know what i mean. it’s just really cool how sex & desire are so tightly woven into the fabric of shane’s character. and how essential it is that ilya is a perfect match for his needs. and vice versa. this shit is so awesome